(inspired by the works of aby kwe, ged ignacio, kali quiñones, and to some extent, tracy llanera, i decided to make my own declaration of feelings.. hehe..)
you are not my ideal girl.
you're not a bit chubby, you're not petite, you're not a "chinita", you're not flawlessly white, you don't have angel locsin's bod.
you are not the perfect girl.
maalburoto. you ask the silliest questions. you're clumsy. you don't say what you want to say. you spend too much on useless things. you make seemingly illogical decisions. you hate my "philosophizing" everything. you don't eat when you need to. you drink what's not good for you. you're too shy. you're too worried about what other people think. but you are not an idea. you are actual. you are not perfect. you are, after all, human.
and for that, i love you.
i love you because you have accepted all my imperfections. i love you because you put up with my flaws. i love you because you have given me a chance to love someone as true as you. i love you because of your imperfections. i love you because you of your flaws. i love you because you have loved me so dear.
through time, i got to know you, as you have gotten to know me. we have lived through petty arguments, we have lived through some serious mess. what has always kept us going is the feelings we have for each other, and i don't want to lose it. we don't have the perfect relationship, but it is as it should be, as we are both human, we are both flawed. we need things to iron out.
the human life is not complete without struggle. our differences, then, are essential towards completion of this life.
we had our song, "i hope it's you" by ntwine when our relationship was just starting. as it has progressed, i no longer "hope". i now know that it is you.
you are not my ideal girl. you are not the perfect girl. but you are THE girl.
and as the saying goes, "behind the downfall of every man is a woman." i may not have yet reached heights, or i may never reach heights, but if i do, i want you to be my only downfall.
my sweetest downfall...
naks. ang sweet hehehe ;)
ReplyDeletethat was so sweet!
ReplyDeleterachelle is a very lucky girl
tamis!!
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nice. hahaha, sino kayang gagawan ko ng ganito.
ReplyDeletehmmmm... hahaha.
aww...volt..philosopher ka pa rin ba?nilanggam naman ako....(Lol)
ReplyDeletenkakairta... me version ka tlga... bwahahaha....
ReplyDeletesweetik... hahahaha....
gnda ko don ah.. hahahahahaha..
a more realistic account but I haven't really read what has inspired you to come up with this. there is always the danger of endowing too much words, well who can resist, really? I've been long enchanted by it too, said words and heard ones. Most of them have lost substance or failed to acquire any to begin with, well that's my experience, there's that danger, that possibility, but it feels grand when it goes the other way and it does, and it takes time to see if it does. See, words aren't supposed to inspire emotions, they just follow afterwards, and at times when it can get overwhelming, words become something we just have make do with. As much as the occassional yapping appeases and pleases, most of the time you really appreciate those moments where no words can intrude or simplify, just the silent knowing and understanding that only belongs to you two, what you've written is just up to what we can just really know between you two, it's also out of generosity, I guess. =) Should I shut up already? well, hey we don't often get to talk so you're not really thoroughly abused here. The yapping part, it's hard not to adorn something that we hold close, so I'm not really totally against it, but it can be quite distracting at times isn't it? Sometimes you can get really enamored with the words, or the idea that the words have painted, and just get... distracted. But I think it is really inevitable to idealize, to just weave poetry out of someone, and how far you have idealized often shows in how you struggle when being with this someone, so it's healthy to just fluctuate from idea to reality. Well, anyway, you're wise enough to get something out of this, the best skill is to elevate the nonesense into something worthwhile.
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nyahaha.... pakshet ka levi... hehe...
boto ko si levinas. hehe.... si tracy nga mei "daniel" eh...
ReplyDeleteparang boy scout lang yan eh...
ReplyDeleteit works both ways.=D
ReplyDeleteganda san?!
ReplyDeleteSi ma'am fleur ba si aresponsibleself? hahahahh. bisto! uy may existential joke na kasangkot ako basta galing sa batch nila joey: Use Levinas in a sentence: "Ate Levi (dramatic pause) nasan ka?"
ReplyDeletekainis.=p gusto ko dinedeliver mo in person para nakakatawa. ndi, para pala makita mo kung pano ako tumawa. hehe... ma'm fleur, anu kaya grade ni levi kung ginamit nya itong joke sa isa sa mga bonus question nyo noon? hehe...
ReplyDeleteyun yun eh. :)
ReplyDeleterachelle pala c che.. kala ko ibang tao na cnusulatan mo nito.. bwahahaha
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