che and i watched the premiere of the house bunny. it was a really funny movie from start to finish, and
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shelley, the main protagonist, was an orphan who eventually ended up in the playboy mansion... upon turning 27 and given the party of her life, she was asked to leave the house that she has known for all her life...
she would eventually wind up in a college sorority house, which, she says, is like a "mini playboy mansion"... she gets rejected by the populars, but was accepted by the losers who were in desperate need of help to save their house... her ways become embraced by the losers, because, they say, she knows boys... she actually calls herself an "expert" with boys...
then she meets oliver, a nice man who manages a nursing home.. they go out sometime, with shelley trying to get oliver to like her by using her "tricks"... oliver wasn't pleased, and eventually left shelley... the girls then thought they could help her, and they tried to make her decent and stuff.. eventually, that failed too...
sure, in the end they still wound up together, with oliver actually knowing who shelley really was.... they started all over again...
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mindless as it may be, it actually made a lot of sense to me...
having met a wide variety of people, i tend to categorize them and generalize what type of person they are. and at times, i turn out to be right... then stuff happen to me, which i try to handle using these "generalizations" i've created in my mind... and i turn out to be wrong... then i get burned...
here are some things i learned from the movie:
1. i learned that people were not meant to be read and given judgement before they even try to present themselves to you... each person was made unique, and may probably have some same characteristics as one, but certainly not exactly the same.... you're free to judge whatever from the outside, but if it involves you already, you gotta learn to step back and find a different perspective to better decide on what you're suposed to do...
2. i learned that you don't have to adjust to the needs of the other person if you really love him/her... always "assuming" that what you're doing is "liked" by the the person you love doesn't always translate to good things...
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i understand, i truly do. but how do you hold back tears even if you "understand" that someone has died? emotions are completely distinct from from your rational capacities. you can't force yourself to be happy that someone has died, can't force yourself to smile if you're actually disappointed.
heck, now i understand why "the truth shall set you free"... uttering it only cuts you lose from everyone you clung yourself to...
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its 3am. i can't sleep. i won't go to work. i want to go somewhere. me and my penguin. for air. for thoughts.
for...hope...
and probably for a name for my penguin...
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@olgado: pota. offensive foul si kidd. pota.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
...the house bunny & stuff...
che and i watched the premiere of the house bunny. but this ain't a review. far from it...
yeah, the movie was really funny, you don't need to think to get the jokes... it's a laugh trip from start to finish...
but anyway, as i said, this is not about the movie... well, sure, the movie's going to be here, but its not the main reason why i posted this...
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shelley, the main protagonist, was an orphan who eventually ended up in the playboy mansion... upon turning 27 and given the party of her life, she was asked to leave the house that she has known for all her life...
she would eventually wind up in a college sorority house, which, she says, is like a "mini playboy mansion"... she gets rejected by the populars, but was accepted by the losers who were in desperate need of help to save their house... her ways become embraced by the losers, because, they say, she knows boys... she actually calls herself an "expert" with boys...
then she meets oliver, a nice man who manages a nursing home.. they go out sometime, with shelley trying to get oliver to like her by using her "tricks"... oliver wasn't pleased, and eventually left shelley... the girls then thought they could help her, and they tried to make her decent and stuff.. eventually, that failed too...
sure, in the end they still wound up together, with oliver actually knowing who shelley really was.... they started all over again...
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mindless as it may be, it actually made a lot of sense to me...
having met a wide variety of people, i tend to categorize them and generalize what type of person they are. and at times, i turn out to be right... then stuff happen to me, which i try to handle using these "generalizations" i've created in my mind... and i turn out to be wrong... then i get burned...
here are some things i learned from the movie:
1. i learned that people were not meant to be read and given judgement before they even try to present themselves to you... each person was made unique, and may probably have some same characteristics as one, but certainly not exactly the same.... you're free to judge whatever from the outside, but if it involves you already, you gotta learn to step back and find a different perspective to better decide on what you're suposed to do...
2. i learned that you don't have to adjust to the needs of the other person if you really love him/her... always "assuming" that what you're doing is "liked" by the the person you love doesn't always translate to good things...
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as it turns out, that movie might probably be the last movie i'll watch with her in a while... 3 years and 11 months, and now we're taking different paths. i guess in 3 years and 11 months, you lose identity, you don't think of yourself anymore, you always have to take into consideration the other half of you... and now, heads down, we take different paths along the crossroads of life. if that road leads to another common path, then that would be nice... travelling alone in our own dark paths might actually make us stronger, braver to face new challenges... if it doesn't, well, i just hope we end up in a good place along that road we're taking...
i know this has been a constant cause of argument, blogging about personal life, but this is all i have... this is what's left of the "me" who has not compromised...
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i'm lost. its hard to be alone. especially after everything...
you realize that you lose not just one person, you lose the whole world you built around that person...
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my thesis was something i really worked hard on and tried so desperately to understand... what i wanted to end up with was a philosphical basis for a meaningful life... being rather vague, i had to sort it out by choosing a perspective of a particular philosopher, Maurice Merleau-Ponty... what stuck to me was the idea that the world and yourself are so intertwined that you give meaning to the world as it gives meaning to you. in a sense, it is you who percieves, hence, it is you who can give meaning to the world. but in the same manner, the world percieves you, hence, it gives you meaning. yet, this is a temporary life, limited. you then make the most out of your life by giving meaning to most of the world, by most of the world giving meaning to you...
during my thesis days, i felt i mattered, i felt i was making the most of my life, because i had meaning; a lost soul, and people around me had meaning; my guiding light. we had a goal; to finish the thesis. and after that, i am again a soul in search of meaning. my guiding light? well, they can't guide someone to a goal that that someone doesn't even know himself...
right now, i feel like crap and as good as dead... i feel dispensible. i've lost meaning, no longer a "boyfriend", only another face... who else am i? heck, i don't even have my own department in my office. i have no definite goal, and now that one person who i've been walking with towards nothingness has decided to take a different path...
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i haven't given up. i'm still hoping our paths would cross later. right now, is alone time.. i never believed in "cool off" periods, but i guess i'll have to now, for the sake of "meaning"...
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in case you haven't noticed, this is a private message, viewed only by a select few... i'll be postng a less revealing blog later. che was never a big fan of blogs... especially if its about "us". you're able to read this now, because a.) you're probably a close friend i don't want to be asking che about "kmusta na kayo?", b.) you probably won't say senseless things, c.) you're old enough to understand that blogging is my escape, and though this might probably be unethical (writing bout personal stuff), expressing my thoughts keep me from slashing my wrists.
yeah, the movie was really funny, you don't need to think to get the jokes... it's a laugh trip from start to finish...
but anyway, as i said, this is not about the movie... well, sure, the movie's going to be here, but its not the main reason why i posted this...
======================================================
shelley, the main protagonist, was an orphan who eventually ended up in the playboy mansion... upon turning 27 and given the party of her life, she was asked to leave the house that she has known for all her life...
she would eventually wind up in a college sorority house, which, she says, is like a "mini playboy mansion"... she gets rejected by the populars, but was accepted by the losers who were in desperate need of help to save their house... her ways become embraced by the losers, because, they say, she knows boys... she actually calls herself an "expert" with boys...
then she meets oliver, a nice man who manages a nursing home.. they go out sometime, with shelley trying to get oliver to like her by using her "tricks"... oliver wasn't pleased, and eventually left shelley... the girls then thought they could help her, and they tried to make her decent and stuff.. eventually, that failed too...
sure, in the end they still wound up together, with oliver actually knowing who shelley really was.... they started all over again...
=========================================================
mindless as it may be, it actually made a lot of sense to me...
having met a wide variety of people, i tend to categorize them and generalize what type of person they are. and at times, i turn out to be right... then stuff happen to me, which i try to handle using these "generalizations" i've created in my mind... and i turn out to be wrong... then i get burned...
here are some things i learned from the movie:
1. i learned that people were not meant to be read and given judgement before they even try to present themselves to you... each person was made unique, and may probably have some same characteristics as one, but certainly not exactly the same.... you're free to judge whatever from the outside, but if it involves you already, you gotta learn to step back and find a different perspective to better decide on what you're suposed to do...
2. i learned that you don't have to adjust to the needs of the other person if you really love him/her... always "assuming" that what you're doing is "liked" by the the person you love doesn't always translate to good things...
=============================================================
as it turns out, that movie might probably be the last movie i'll watch with her in a while... 3 years and 11 months, and now we're taking different paths. i guess in 3 years and 11 months, you lose identity, you don't think of yourself anymore, you always have to take into consideration the other half of you... and now, heads down, we take different paths along the crossroads of life. if that road leads to another common path, then that would be nice... travelling alone in our own dark paths might actually make us stronger, braver to face new challenges... if it doesn't, well, i just hope we end up in a good place along that road we're taking...
i know this has been a constant cause of argument, blogging about personal life, but this is all i have... this is what's left of the "me" who has not compromised...
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i'm lost. its hard to be alone. especially after everything...
you realize that you lose not just one person, you lose the whole world you built around that person...
=========================================================
my thesis was something i really worked hard on and tried so desperately to understand... what i wanted to end up with was a philosphical basis for a meaningful life... being rather vague, i had to sort it out by choosing a perspective of a particular philosopher, Maurice Merleau-Ponty... what stuck to me was the idea that the world and yourself are so intertwined that you give meaning to the world as it gives meaning to you. in a sense, it is you who percieves, hence, it is you who can give meaning to the world. but in the same manner, the world percieves you, hence, it gives you meaning. yet, this is a temporary life, limited. you then make the most out of your life by giving meaning to most of the world, by most of the world giving meaning to you...
during my thesis days, i felt i mattered, i felt i was making the most of my life, because i had meaning; a lost soul, and people around me had meaning; my guiding light. we had a goal; to finish the thesis. and after that, i am again a soul in search of meaning. my guiding light? well, they can't guide someone to a goal that that someone doesn't even know himself...
right now, i feel like crap and as good as dead... i feel dispensible. i've lost meaning, no longer a "boyfriend", only another face... who else am i? heck, i don't even have my own department in my office. i have no definite goal, and now that one person who i've been walking with towards nothingness has decided to take a different path...
==============================================================
i haven't given up. i'm still hoping our paths would cross later. right now, is alone time.. i never believed in "cool off" periods, but i guess i'll have to now, for the sake of "meaning"...
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in case you haven't noticed, this is a private message, viewed only by a select few... i'll be postng a less revealing blog later. che was never a big fan of blogs... especially if its about "us". you're able to read this now, because a.) you're probably a close friend i don't want to be asking che about "kmusta na kayo?", b.) you probably won't say senseless things, c.) you're old enough to understand that blogging is my escape, and though this might probably be unethical (writing bout personal stuff), expressing my thoughts keep me from slashing my wrists.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
...my christmas wishlist...
i can smell the Christmas air. it's just around the corner, so i thought i'd make it easier for my friends to know what i want for Christmas... haha... kidding (half meant)... anyway, every year one gives a present and most of the time, the person who gives you the gift ends up saying "sana magustuhan mo". So here's a list of what i would really really like for Christmas, and hopefully, i get at least one for myself...
1. Verzio Envii
my crush-phone. it's a PDA phone (i miss my smashed PDA) that has no keypads, but tons of features. what basically got me hooked is that other than it's got mp3 playing capability, it has a radio, which is the main reason why i gave up my classy E51 phone to my bro in favor of the cheaper, but radio-capable Samsung E250. Add the fact the two grey-colored sidings are actually speakers, it's gonna sound great even outdoors for all to hear. It's got Windows Mobile 6 for its OS, which i hear isn't that it's hyped up to be. i could actually settle for Windows mobile 5 version, but hey, if it's only available with 6, then i have to learn to settle for it.
Price: 24000PhP
2. Lightsaber
the toy. not the cheap ones that just stretch out, i'm talking about the rea
lly cool ones that lights up, and makes a sound while you move it, and makes a clash sound everytime it hits something. i've always wanted to have one but its so freakin expensive. everytime i see a toystore and we're doing nothing, expect me to drag you into it and check the price out. i've always dreamed the price would drop from 1300PhP to something much cheaper, but the lowest it got to was 699PhP. Until now.
Price: On sale (Mace Windu's Lightsaber) @ Toy Kingdom, 399PhP
3. PSP Camera
i want to pimp my PSP up. and what better pimping up than buying a
camera for it? i'm not a camera-person, really, i don't take pictures of myself or anything like that, but people around me do. and what better way to show them off than have my best gadget have something they really like?
Price: Never got to ask. Sold rarely but i found one sold at the Galleria.
4. PSP AV Component Cable
i loaded up the movie Zeitgeist in my PSP and i really wa
nt people to see it.. unfortunately, text is too small to read from my PSP, so that makes it non-adult friendly. Solution? An AV Component Cable for my PSP. With it, i can jack up my PSP to the bigger screens that the television offers, and plug the sounds to any component.
Price: 699/599PhP @ Megamall. Freaks in stalls sell if for 800+. Crazy.
5. PSP TV Tuner
Kali got his PSP with an option to watch TV, but he didn't have a de
vice for it. It made me think, though, of the possibility of the PSP having an add-on like that which makes you watch TV from it. So i checked out the net, and found that there actually is a device. Downside is that it only works for Asia. Upside? I am in Asia. Dead end: it only works for the fat PSP. i'm hoping that it's not the case.
Price: 60USD
6. UMD Disc
just one. a timeless one probably. not some stupid RPG i can finis
h in a couple of weeks. i just want my PSP to feel that the thing at it's back actually has a purpose. i'm thinking something like an NBA Live series, or the latest FIFA Street game.
Price: new games cost as much as 4000PhP while older ones sell for about 1300PhP.
7. Memory Stick Pro Duo Hi-Speed
the PSP guy told me there was nothing wrong w
ith my PSP when i asked why my NBA Live 08 was hanging. he said it was a common issue for that release, but all my other friends don't have the same problem. I then attribute that flaw to my memory stick. I mean, it's good and all, but maybe if i get a Hi-Speed one, it won't hang as much. Its just expensive.
Price: 2500PhP for 4gig (70% sure)
8. Lava Lamp
it's just too cool to have one. looks really fun, and i'd want one in my roo
m. hehe... Price: 1000PhP, Robinson's Galleria 2nd Floor
9. 3 Musketeers
chocolate over chocolate. need i say more? haha...
Price: i'd know if i knew where to get one. i know there is at Pure Gold Subic, but people who give it to me don't say how much it is (Che, ate)...
10. A job
i may have been busy the past week, and i may have another presentation in line. but that's about it. i want to find a new, challenging, rewarding, and regular job which gives me benefits of healthcare, vacation leaves, and all the good stuff like friends, people the same age as me or something near that. Ranting.
I dind't include my obvious wishes (i.e. winning the lottery, free all-expense paid trip to a place of my choice, gas price of only 3 pesos, freedom from corruption, world peace, etc) as i thought i'd go with what's possible. hehe...
1. Verzio Envii
my crush-phone. it's a PDA phone (i miss my smashed PDA) that has no keypads, but tons of features. what basically got me hooked is that other than it's got mp3 playing capability, it has a radio, which is the main reason why i gave up my classy E51 phone to my bro in favor of the cheaper, but radio-capable Samsung E250. Add the fact the two grey-colored sidings are actually speakers, it's gonna sound great even outdoors for all to hear. It's got Windows Mobile 6 for its OS, which i hear isn't that it's hyped up to be. i could actually settle for Windows mobile 5 version, but hey, if it's only available with 6, then i have to learn to settle for it. Price: 24000PhP
2. Lightsaber
the toy. not the cheap ones that just stretch out, i'm talking about the rea
lly cool ones that lights up, and makes a sound while you move it, and makes a clash sound everytime it hits something. i've always wanted to have one but its so freakin expensive. everytime i see a toystore and we're doing nothing, expect me to drag you into it and check the price out. i've always dreamed the price would drop from 1300PhP to something much cheaper, but the lowest it got to was 699PhP. Until now. Price: On sale (Mace Windu's Lightsaber) @ Toy Kingdom, 399PhP
3. PSP Camera
i want to pimp my PSP up. and what better pimping up than buying a
camera for it? i'm not a camera-person, really, i don't take pictures of myself or anything like that, but people around me do. and what better way to show them off than have my best gadget have something they really like? Price: Never got to ask. Sold rarely but i found one sold at the Galleria.
4. PSP AV Component Cable
i loaded up the movie Zeitgeist in my PSP and i really wa
nt people to see it.. unfortunately, text is too small to read from my PSP, so that makes it non-adult friendly. Solution? An AV Component Cable for my PSP. With it, i can jack up my PSP to the bigger screens that the television offers, and plug the sounds to any component. Price: 699/599PhP @ Megamall. Freaks in stalls sell if for 800+. Crazy.
5. PSP TV Tuner
Kali got his PSP with an option to watch TV, but he didn't have a de
vice for it. It made me think, though, of the possibility of the PSP having an add-on like that which makes you watch TV from it. So i checked out the net, and found that there actually is a device. Downside is that it only works for Asia. Upside? I am in Asia. Dead end: it only works for the fat PSP. i'm hoping that it's not the case. Price: 60USD
6. UMD Disc
just one. a timeless one probably. not some stupid RPG i can finis
h in a couple of weeks. i just want my PSP to feel that the thing at it's back actually has a purpose. i'm thinking something like an NBA Live series, or the latest FIFA Street game. Price: new games cost as much as 4000PhP while older ones sell for about 1300PhP.
7. Memory Stick Pro Duo Hi-Speed
the PSP guy told me there was nothing wrong w
ith my PSP when i asked why my NBA Live 08 was hanging. he said it was a common issue for that release, but all my other friends don't have the same problem. I then attribute that flaw to my memory stick. I mean, it's good and all, but maybe if i get a Hi-Speed one, it won't hang as much. Its just expensive. Price: 2500PhP for 4gig (70% sure)
8. Lava Lamp
it's just too cool to have one. looks really fun, and i'd want one in my roo
m. hehe... Price: 1000PhP, Robinson's Galleria 2nd Floor9. 3 Musketeers
chocolate over chocolate. need i say more? haha...
Price: i'd know if i knew where to get one. i know there is at Pure Gold Subic, but people who give it to me don't say how much it is (Che, ate)...
10. A job
i may have been busy the past week, and i may have another presentation in line. but that's about it. i want to find a new, challenging, rewarding, and regular job which gives me benefits of healthcare, vacation leaves, and all the good stuff like friends, people the same age as me or something near that. Ranting.
I dind't include my obvious wishes (i.e. winning the lottery, free all-expense paid trip to a place of my choice, gas price of only 3 pesos, freedom from corruption, world peace, etc) as i thought i'd go with what's possible. hehe...
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
...thankful for a big family…
Cute. The PNP director is missing as of this writing. News said he was supposed to have landed at the airport yesterday (October 20) at
Backtrack. The PNP director is packing in a lot of heat right now, as he and several others were detained in
Miriam Santiago made another brilliant (being sarcastic here) comment last night in a news program: “We should know where the money came from because if that came from public funds, then that is a crime. If that came from a private entity, then it also is a crime of extortion.”
Talk about wanting to make it in the news. Hey, she did get it though, a spot in the news.
That’s why I’m thankful for having a big family. If we didn’t then Uncle Jun might be in the spot that PNP director is in right now: lost in anonymity. Who the heck knows if Gen. Atutubo hadn’t slipped him out of the tarmac yet yesterday? Who the heck knows if he was already taken yesterday and silenced? Who the heck knows if he was brought some place to be bitched-slapped around for getting caught, and then given a full-detailed story of what they were trying to say here while he was detained so that they could have a cohesive story? Who the heck knows if he’s going to be tortured to take all the blame for himself, so that everyone else is acquitted and he gets to get all the burn?
Oh I know, the puppet master herself.
Movies on Theatres and in Google
If only you have two hours, or if you have a PSP or an IPOD which can accommodate a 2-hour movie, search for a downloadable version of the Zeitgeist movie in Google. Google has google video which has an interface similar to youtube, so you can watch it on your computer for better resolution. On the same site, one of the versions offer a downloadable file for your PSP or IPOD. The movie’s title is “Zeitgeist”. As far as I can remember, it is one of the most used terms by the phenomenological philosopher Martin Heidegger to describe his philosophy. Literally meaning “spirit” (geist) and “time” (zeit), it describes what is “here and now”. (Salamat kali sa literal term. Xenxa philo friends if mei
The movie’s not for the fickle-minded. I say this because if you don’t have enough faith (if you’re Christian/Catholic), you’d end up denouncing your religion. The first part talks about religion and the role of politics in religion. It’s a good intro, as it really lays a foundation for what the movie is about: political and institutional manipulation. The next 2 parts, I don’t really care about what you think anymore after watching it, I’m just concerned with your faith.
But I have this feeling that we might have the same reaction after you watch the last 2 parts: “F*ck Bush. F*ck institutions. F*ck Federal Reserve.”
And it’s hard not to notice where Gloria patterns her government to.
Movies in theatre: watched Eagle Eye and The Strangers. The former is disturbing in the sense that there is a possibility that every move you make is being watched. The latter is just plain disturbing.
Eagle Eye is a great movie that makes you think all the way to the end. While watching the whole film, trying to put yourself in the protagonist’s position, all you can say is “how the hell do you know what I’m doing?” You’d want to look around you to look for anyone watching you. I was really tempted to ring up Che while we were exiting the cinema… hehe…
The Strangers is a suspense movie that’s freakishly disturbing. Everyone in the movie becomes a stranger to you, except James, whose name you’d hear repeatedly in the movie. There are only 3 faces you’d get to see in the whole movie. OK, 5, as there were 2 extras. Suspense, you’d get here, story, not too much. Hey, what good is a story if you don’t know who’s who, right? Anyway, The Strangers is filled with just that, “strangers”.
Heck, even the end credits name the antagonists as “pin-up girl” and “hooded man”…
If I were to describe The Strangers in a single phrase, it would be:
“Are you sure?”
On Blogging
Nasa panahon na tayo ngayon kung saan napakaraming salita ang ating ginagawa. Sa panahon natin naglilitawan ang mga salitang tulad ng “jologs”, “epal”, at ibang kahulugan sa mga katagang “in fairness”, “whatever”, at mga salitang bakla tulad ng “chorva”, “lafang”, at kung anu-ano pa. Ito rin ang panahon kung saan maraming tao na ang gumagawa ng sarili nilang pagbabaybay sa mga salita sa layuning mapaganda itong tingnan, o di kaya’y mapaiksi pa lalo. Para sa akin, “chaka” ang ipinalit ko sa “tsaka”, dahil pareho sila ng tunog kapag binibigkas ito (pero sa mga baklang tulad ni Peter, iba ang ibig sabihin ng “chaka”. Oo, ikaw Peter. Ilang dosenang tao na ang nakakachat at nakakatext ko gamit ang pagbabaybay na yan pero ikaw lang ang nagkomento ng ibang kahulugan sa salitang yan). “Seio” naman sa katagang “sa iyo”.
Pero ndi ako nag-iisa. Alam ko ikaw din marahil na nagbabasa nito na mei sariling cellphone ay gumagawa din ng sarili mong pagbabaybay. Kailangan kasing magkasya sa 160 na letra ang mensahe mo para ndi sumobra sa piso ang gusto mong sabihin sa text.
Hindi na tuloy malayong isipin na marami nang tao ang hirap bumaybay ng maayos. Hindi na bago ang makitang
Text lingo. Marami ang nakakaintindi, pero hindi wastong pagsulat.
Nauuso na ang blog. Marami nang tao ang may sariling blog. Pero may ilan ilan na text lingo ang gamit sa pagbblog. Kadalasan, hindi naman kailangang 160 na letra lang ang blog mo. Kadalasan, libre naman magblog. Dahil dyan, ating sanayin ang ating sarili na magblog gamit ang wastong pagbabaybay ng mga salita. Siguro darating din ang panahon kung saan katanggap tanggap na sa resumé mo ang “im hrdwrkng nd dtrmind nd wud lyk to wrk 4 ur co..:)” pero habang hindi pa dumarating ang panahon na yun, sanayin naman natin na buo at tama ang pagbabaybay natin sa blog.
Wala lang. Pakialamero ako eh. Tapos kahit naiinis akong hindi ko maintindihan ang binabasa ko, binabasa ko pa rin.
On Talking and Listening and Being Aware
Countless times, you’ve heard of people saying that there’s a big difference between hearing and listening; the former merely an act of the sense, while the latter is a conscious effort of making sense of that what you hear.
Talking is, well, talking. Firing away on topics you want to talk about.
Put them together, and you get a conversation. A conversation works when one acts as a receiver, and one acts as somewhat of a sender.
Now, as a “talker”, I always try to spark interest with the person I’m talking to, especially if that person is a new acquaintance. I do that because if I don’t think of something of interest to him/her, we fall into dead silence, which I hate, loud as I am. If you get to that interesting topic, the “receiver” will eventually become the “speaker” and you will have a fruitful interaction.
With people whom you are normally close with, you want them to be interested in what you’re saying, and not so much of you trying to think of something that they’re interested in. You want them to feel the frustration you feel if you’re stressed, you want them to feel the exhilaration you feel if you’re excited, you want to them to feel mad if you’ve been burnt. It’s sort of a de-stressing mechanism.
As a listener, then, you set aside your own thoughts, as this is his/her time to unload. You must act interested, and you actually must genuinely be. You’ll have your time, but at that moment that the speaker opens up to you, it’s his/her time. I mean, speaker wouldn’t open that up with you if he/she isn’t burdened by it. But if you’re really not interested, don’t act that you are. It just gets more frustrating that you keep on talking but the other person’s mind is in his/her cellphone or radio or any other distraction.
I’ve felt that. I think I may have made people feel that. And for that, I’m sorry. Thinking of the principle of the golden mean, that is “do unto others what you want others do unto you”, I have to apologize to people whom I may have not paid attention to that much because of the distractions surrounding me. And I have to promise to be a better listener. I’m not stressed with work, but I do want someone who would listen to me. And I mean really listen. I do listen to others a lot too, but I’m not obliging them to listen to me as much. As I said, listen if you want to, but if you’re not interested, don’t act like you are. It makes it that much more frustrating with you trying to act like you want to listen when in fact you can’t wait to share something of your own experience.
Now, adding a third person in the mix, it gets more complicated. Person A and person B have been talking for quite a while now. Then person C comes up. If you are one of the 2 persons talking before the third person comes up, you should make a conscious effort that there is another person, and you shouldn’t let him/her be left out. For example, A and B are talking about basketball, as both are guys. Then person C comes up, who is a girl, and wants to talk about her new haircut. You guys have to deviate from your own topic and find a common ground so that everyone can be in on it. If you keep on talking about basketball, girl will feel left out and unwanted. And feeling unwanted is never a good feeling. Being person A, you shouldn’t anymore be fixated on person B, rather, be aware that person C is there and he/she wants to talk about something that happened to him/her.
I seem like a self-help book here (thank you Abbie Kwe for the inspiration of being one) talking about blogging and conversation ethics, and its not like its that much of a big deal for me. It’s just that I, being talkative as I am, have seen the faces of people being left out or people who felt “unwanted” when in conversations or in group interactions. And at times I actually felt that feeling. Hence, not wanting it to be done to me, I want people around me to be better listeners and speakers too, that we might not leave people feeling “unwanted”.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
...contemplating on professional future...
status message ko sa YM ngayon. kasi yan ang ginagawa ko. di ko pa alam kun san field ako dapat. kala ko ok na un nakuha ko na "events/marketing manager trainee" kaso pota. joke lang pala un. anyway, i'm back to where i started, working on my crappy day job and not knowing how this helps me grow as a person. i am somewhat contemplating studying again (law, perhaps, as kuya ags' posts of their exams seem intriguing... or probably psych just to be a guidance counsellor - pagkakitaan na ang ginagawa ko sa magulang ko... or even teacher units so that i can teach..) but i don't know if i'm driven enough to actually pursue it... besides, i don't want to be of any more burden to my parents.. i'd rather sustain myself than lean on them for my educational support (though its not that they don't want to, they're actually asking me to go to law)... freakin pride... and it's not just that, there's the issue of doing it because it is what you want to do and doing it for the heck of it... i'm right smack in the middle of that until now... two freakin years since i graduated (OA, pero malapit na mag-2 years) and i still don't have the answer to whether i should be studying or working...
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Dad and "Potential"
Pa: dapat seio mag-isip isip ka na ng gagawin mo sa buhay mo, wag mo na isipin mag-empleyado.
me: ...
pa: nun panahon namin sobrang open un mga trabaho kaya ok lang maging empleyado. ngayon iba na ang panahon, dapat enterpreneurship na ang pasukin...
me: ...
pa: alam mo un nakita ko sa quiapo, malaki potensyal nun eh. un diesel, meron nag-aalok na 41/liter lang makuha tpos para kang ahente na maghahanap ng tatambakan nun. libre na delivery pag within metro manila. 10000 liters ang minimum mo. pero kun tutuusin, malaki na kita dun. meron din un mga diaper. kahit un mga skwater nakadiaper na ngayon. kasi mahal na ang tubig.
me: ..
pa: dapat iniisip mo na yang mga ganyan.
me: dito na po ako.
i understand his point. i'm sure anyone else who reads this knows all too well that he's saying that for my best interest. but then again, i hate being told what to do. it's just not me. i'm as stubborn as he is, hence, i stayed silent, because we're going to go on a lengthy argument about it.
i understand his concern as he mentioned that during his wedding, they were the only couple that he knew of who spent for the whole thing, and had a house to call their own by the time that he got through the ceremonies... i really would want that too... its such an accomplishment, not asking anything from anyone... but then again, i hate being told what to do...
it's his dreams. his plans. i want a life i can call my own. i don't want him giving me money to start my own business and then by the time he retires, he asks me for money for "the other side" because its was him who gave me the money to start the whole thing up... circumstances are ceratainly different, and he may probably be right in saying that employee life is not the way to go at this day and age... but c'mon... i have to start somewhere... i have to do something long enough to know that i can handle something that long... i don't want to venture into a business and then three months in i quit because i don't like what i'm doing anymore... i'm still living on freakin humility towards my dad because he bought me a big ass freezer to store the ice cream for the "business venture" he got me into during the summer (eventually we stopped it, frankly because it's more expenses than earnings. and though i know i'm not supposed to quit that easily, you had to understand that even the vendors that we got didn't bother coming anymore... for 60 lousy pesos a day, i spend for gas to fetch and drop my vendors at the gate of the village, spend the whole day doing inventory and stuff, and probably food for the vendors, not to mention me paying for the "samples" i give out to visitors..)...
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My Mom and Reasons
Ma: bakit kelangan mo uminom?
me: huh?
it's not a "need". "drinking" which, in this case, pertains to alcohol consumption, to me, is merely a means for "social interaction". while one can say that people can interact without drinking, i say you can tell that to bar owners around the philippines and their countless customers. interaction can happen without drinking, true. but drinking as a means for social interaction just is. i can't say it's more or less enjoyable with or without alcohol. i can't compare. i enjoy the company of non-intoxicated individuals as much as i do those who see me as two people already. i just happen to be one of those people who enjoy taking and not taking alcohol for social interaction.
so sue me.
ma: asan ka ba?
me: nanood lang po ng sine, sunduin ko na rin po si job.
ma: ayus ah, mei oras ka pa manood ng sine.
me: huh? bakit?
ma: wala.
yes. i don't have that much savings. but at least, i do get to enjoy some things in life. i know that this mindset of mine has to change, but c'mon, what i do to myself i do and keep on doiing because it keeps me sane. my mom, she doesn't have hobbies. the one friend she's always raving about is her best friend who is Von Arroyo's mom (er.. in case you don't know, as he is not that much of a celeb, he's an ex-Smokey Mountain singer, and 5K singer too, two kid bands who got some attention during the late 80's to the early 90's... he was recently tabbed as one of the "teachers" for PDA..) who she RARELY spends time with, as she doesn't enjoy anything... she's the one female i know who doesn't light up at the mention of "shopping"... her life is self-proclaimed "dull, and without color with the exception of my dad coming to her life"... and since marital problems came to be, her life was just plain "dull"... much as i want to give her something to set her mind to, she doesn't want to do anything about it... no amount of shopping, massage, walk, or talks could ease her mind...
i've told her countless times i don't want to end up like her. i want to do something even after something similar to a "marital problem" happens to me... i want to be able to forget, to set my mind to something else, to be able to let go or just plain move on and accept circumstances that are there... if i want to watch a movie, i do it because i want to. the problem with her is she doesn't know what she wants... and though it pains me to see her suffer (and trust me, i do try to share her agony), i don't want to live my life crying on a corner with her because we can't think of any solution to the problem that we face... i'm a solution guy. i cant' just sit and sulk. i want to stand up and do something with my problem (ha, and here i am, contemplating on work... well, i feel it's kinda different, companies not giving me a chance and all... why the heck should they get a philosophy graduate to do their marketing stuff, right? i'm waiting, but i'm looking. i'm standing up, it's just that, i don't have any ground to stand on)... i could sulk with my mom, but not forever. i want to do what i want, and not just go home and sleep when everyone else is here waiting to be talked to...
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Games and Movies
watched eagle eye, at last, and it was a heck of a movie... body of lies is an enjoyable one too... and by "enjoying" i meant you get to think and you get cool ideas from it while trying to solve the issues within the movie... tropic thunder was mindless fun...
but what sucks is max payne. i don't know. dipa said it was good. me, speaking as a gamer, i hated it. bullet time characterized what max payne the game is. i mean, when you speak of "max payne" the first thing that comes to mind is a double berreta-shooting guy who's jumping sideways in slomo while shooting at the bad guys... there were a total of 2, i think, scenes which involved "bullet time" and both were at the wrong times.
che said, they probably did the movie and didn't exactly target the gamers like me. i was thinking, they make movies out of games because of the response of the audience to the games which could probably translate to audience for the movie. same idea goes for books just look at harry potter, and one of the most anticipated movies coming out, twilight. what they did to max payne was plain despicable. they used the double-berretta jump for the posters and everything, but throughout the movie, he never pulled out two guns at the same time... he never jumped the way he did for the poster. it was a plain con. it robbed be of the idea that it could probably be a good movie adaptation of the game, as lara croft pulled it off thanks to the wonderful lips of angelina jolie...
after the movie, i officially became a mark wahlberg hater. i liked him in "rockstar" but man, "tha happening" and max payne are two of the worst movies i watched this year. frustrating that both should come from the same actor...
speaking of games, poker night with the philo people gave me a great idea for a game. i looked for FIFA street on game shops, and i actually found one. and i'm hooked. i slept at almost 5am earlier just playing the freakin game. i had to will myself to sleep...
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Cars... Almost done!
the red anfra with the crappy wiring and busted aircon was fixed earlier. they did the wiring and stuff and finally, finally, fixed the airconditioning. now it was supposed to be good to go, which is why my dad brought it to drop the people who did it off to tondo.... he came back with a different car. nasira daw ulit ilaw. fun. good thing i wasn't the one driving it. else they might think i'm a headlight jinx, with both cars' (lancer and anfra) headlamps both gave up on me (anfra twice)...
the volkswagen, after almost 6months of being in hibernation and being messed-up, is finally almost done... everthing is either yellow, red, black, or stainless... lights were set up at each wheel (un sa parang shell nun gulong. dun.) so that it has lights like fast and the furious lights (they were blue pala), and bright lights were set up at the engine for troubleshooting purposes. in front, aside from the annoying bright yellow light or volks has, my dad decided to pimp it up with 100W fog lamps. if someone tells you that you won't ever see the light of day again, antayin mo lang magkasalubong tayo sa kalsada nang gabi. pramis. kala mo umaga na. bad trip na ko kasalubong kun dala ko un. though gusto ko rin. pambawi sa mga bwakananginang xenon ng ibang auto. aircon's fixed too... so in about two weeks, i think, it's gonna be good to go...
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Missing my Siblings
mushy? nah. it's just practical. i drove around the whole day kasi pag-uwi ko sa bahay, mei nakalimutan sila ipabili. that is after 3-6 times na confirmation bago ako umalis na wala na iba bibilhin. not to mention i have that thing they call a cellphone. and i actually have that great PLDT innovation, the landline plus. did they bother to text or call me?? no. they had to get me to come home first and go back to where i came from. crap.
if my sister was here, i'd have travelled for only half the time.
if my bro was here (he had a whole day seminar), i could've asked him to download the stuff i needed for office and load it all up to my psp so that i didn't have to do anything more.
but with both of them out, i had to do everything. hmp.
lazy boy talking. hehe...
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My Penguin
Ang tagal ko na naghahanap ng penguin na stuffed toy. as in after watching "Happy Feet", sobrang gusto ko magkapenguin na stuffed toy... then one night, while browsing along metro east, che stumbled upon one... i bought it right away. and now, i carry it whenever i bring a car, and i sleep with it on my head...
but one thing though, i don't have a name for it yet... tulong naman.. pramis, whoever gives the best name for it, i'll give you a prize: isang pack ng white rabbit.. hehe... o kaya melamine-powered Koala.
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i know i was supposed to make a really lengthy blog. i just can't remember all the stuff i wanted to write.. anyway, mei next time naman eh... hehe...
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Dad and "Potential"
Pa: dapat seio mag-isip isip ka na ng gagawin mo sa buhay mo, wag mo na isipin mag-empleyado.
me: ...
pa: nun panahon namin sobrang open un mga trabaho kaya ok lang maging empleyado. ngayon iba na ang panahon, dapat enterpreneurship na ang pasukin...
me: ...
pa: alam mo un nakita ko sa quiapo, malaki potensyal nun eh. un diesel, meron nag-aalok na 41/liter lang makuha tpos para kang ahente na maghahanap ng tatambakan nun. libre na delivery pag within metro manila. 10000 liters ang minimum mo. pero kun tutuusin, malaki na kita dun. meron din un mga diaper. kahit un mga skwater nakadiaper na ngayon. kasi mahal na ang tubig.
me: ..
pa: dapat iniisip mo na yang mga ganyan.
me: dito na po ako.
i understand his point. i'm sure anyone else who reads this knows all too well that he's saying that for my best interest. but then again, i hate being told what to do. it's just not me. i'm as stubborn as he is, hence, i stayed silent, because we're going to go on a lengthy argument about it.
i understand his concern as he mentioned that during his wedding, they were the only couple that he knew of who spent for the whole thing, and had a house to call their own by the time that he got through the ceremonies... i really would want that too... its such an accomplishment, not asking anything from anyone... but then again, i hate being told what to do...
it's his dreams. his plans. i want a life i can call my own. i don't want him giving me money to start my own business and then by the time he retires, he asks me for money for "the other side" because its was him who gave me the money to start the whole thing up... circumstances are ceratainly different, and he may probably be right in saying that employee life is not the way to go at this day and age... but c'mon... i have to start somewhere... i have to do something long enough to know that i can handle something that long... i don't want to venture into a business and then three months in i quit because i don't like what i'm doing anymore... i'm still living on freakin humility towards my dad because he bought me a big ass freezer to store the ice cream for the "business venture" he got me into during the summer (eventually we stopped it, frankly because it's more expenses than earnings. and though i know i'm not supposed to quit that easily, you had to understand that even the vendors that we got didn't bother coming anymore... for 60 lousy pesos a day, i spend for gas to fetch and drop my vendors at the gate of the village, spend the whole day doing inventory and stuff, and probably food for the vendors, not to mention me paying for the "samples" i give out to visitors..)...
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My Mom and Reasons
Ma: bakit kelangan mo uminom?
me: huh?
it's not a "need". "drinking" which, in this case, pertains to alcohol consumption, to me, is merely a means for "social interaction". while one can say that people can interact without drinking, i say you can tell that to bar owners around the philippines and their countless customers. interaction can happen without drinking, true. but drinking as a means for social interaction just is. i can't say it's more or less enjoyable with or without alcohol. i can't compare. i enjoy the company of non-intoxicated individuals as much as i do those who see me as two people already. i just happen to be one of those people who enjoy taking and not taking alcohol for social interaction.
so sue me.
ma: asan ka ba?
me: nanood lang po ng sine, sunduin ko na rin po si job.
ma: ayus ah, mei oras ka pa manood ng sine.
me: huh? bakit?
ma: wala.
yes. i don't have that much savings. but at least, i do get to enjoy some things in life. i know that this mindset of mine has to change, but c'mon, what i do to myself i do and keep on doiing because it keeps me sane. my mom, she doesn't have hobbies. the one friend she's always raving about is her best friend who is Von Arroyo's mom (er.. in case you don't know, as he is not that much of a celeb, he's an ex-Smokey Mountain singer, and 5K singer too, two kid bands who got some attention during the late 80's to the early 90's... he was recently tabbed as one of the "teachers" for PDA..) who she RARELY spends time with, as she doesn't enjoy anything... she's the one female i know who doesn't light up at the mention of "shopping"... her life is self-proclaimed "dull, and without color with the exception of my dad coming to her life"... and since marital problems came to be, her life was just plain "dull"... much as i want to give her something to set her mind to, she doesn't want to do anything about it... no amount of shopping, massage, walk, or talks could ease her mind...
i've told her countless times i don't want to end up like her. i want to do something even after something similar to a "marital problem" happens to me... i want to be able to forget, to set my mind to something else, to be able to let go or just plain move on and accept circumstances that are there... if i want to watch a movie, i do it because i want to. the problem with her is she doesn't know what she wants... and though it pains me to see her suffer (and trust me, i do try to share her agony), i don't want to live my life crying on a corner with her because we can't think of any solution to the problem that we face... i'm a solution guy. i cant' just sit and sulk. i want to stand up and do something with my problem (ha, and here i am, contemplating on work... well, i feel it's kinda different, companies not giving me a chance and all... why the heck should they get a philosophy graduate to do their marketing stuff, right? i'm waiting, but i'm looking. i'm standing up, it's just that, i don't have any ground to stand on)... i could sulk with my mom, but not forever. i want to do what i want, and not just go home and sleep when everyone else is here waiting to be talked to...
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Games and Movies
watched eagle eye, at last, and it was a heck of a movie... body of lies is an enjoyable one too... and by "enjoying" i meant you get to think and you get cool ideas from it while trying to solve the issues within the movie... tropic thunder was mindless fun...
but what sucks is max payne. i don't know. dipa said it was good. me, speaking as a gamer, i hated it. bullet time characterized what max payne the game is. i mean, when you speak of "max payne" the first thing that comes to mind is a double berreta-shooting guy who's jumping sideways in slomo while shooting at the bad guys... there were a total of 2, i think, scenes which involved "bullet time" and both were at the wrong times.
che said, they probably did the movie and didn't exactly target the gamers like me. i was thinking, they make movies out of games because of the response of the audience to the games which could probably translate to audience for the movie. same idea goes for books just look at harry potter, and one of the most anticipated movies coming out, twilight. what they did to max payne was plain despicable. they used the double-berretta jump for the posters and everything, but throughout the movie, he never pulled out two guns at the same time... he never jumped the way he did for the poster. it was a plain con. it robbed be of the idea that it could probably be a good movie adaptation of the game, as lara croft pulled it off thanks to the wonderful lips of angelina jolie...
after the movie, i officially became a mark wahlberg hater. i liked him in "rockstar" but man, "tha happening" and max payne are two of the worst movies i watched this year. frustrating that both should come from the same actor...
speaking of games, poker night with the philo people gave me a great idea for a game. i looked for FIFA street on game shops, and i actually found one. and i'm hooked. i slept at almost 5am earlier just playing the freakin game. i had to will myself to sleep...
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Cars... Almost done!
the red anfra with the crappy wiring and busted aircon was fixed earlier. they did the wiring and stuff and finally, finally, fixed the airconditioning. now it was supposed to be good to go, which is why my dad brought it to drop the people who did it off to tondo.... he came back with a different car. nasira daw ulit ilaw. fun. good thing i wasn't the one driving it. else they might think i'm a headlight jinx, with both cars' (lancer and anfra) headlamps both gave up on me (anfra twice)...
the volkswagen, after almost 6months of being in hibernation and being messed-up, is finally almost done... everthing is either yellow, red, black, or stainless... lights were set up at each wheel (un sa parang shell nun gulong. dun.) so that it has lights like fast and the furious lights (they were blue pala), and bright lights were set up at the engine for troubleshooting purposes. in front, aside from the annoying bright yellow light or volks has, my dad decided to pimp it up with 100W fog lamps. if someone tells you that you won't ever see the light of day again, antayin mo lang magkasalubong tayo sa kalsada nang gabi. pramis. kala mo umaga na. bad trip na ko kasalubong kun dala ko un. though gusto ko rin. pambawi sa mga bwakananginang xenon ng ibang auto. aircon's fixed too... so in about two weeks, i think, it's gonna be good to go...
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Missing my Siblings
mushy? nah. it's just practical. i drove around the whole day kasi pag-uwi ko sa bahay, mei nakalimutan sila ipabili. that is after 3-6 times na confirmation bago ako umalis na wala na iba bibilhin. not to mention i have that thing they call a cellphone. and i actually have that great PLDT innovation, the landline plus. did they bother to text or call me?? no. they had to get me to come home first and go back to where i came from. crap.
if my sister was here, i'd have travelled for only half the time.
if my bro was here (he had a whole day seminar), i could've asked him to download the stuff i needed for office and load it all up to my psp so that i didn't have to do anything more.
but with both of them out, i had to do everything. hmp.
lazy boy talking. hehe...
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My Penguin
Ang tagal ko na naghahanap ng penguin na stuffed toy. as in after watching "Happy Feet", sobrang gusto ko magkapenguin na stuffed toy... then one night, while browsing along metro east, che stumbled upon one... i bought it right away. and now, i carry it whenever i bring a car, and i sleep with it on my head... but one thing though, i don't have a name for it yet... tulong naman.. pramis, whoever gives the best name for it, i'll give you a prize: isang pack ng white rabbit.. hehe... o kaya melamine-powered Koala.
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i know i was supposed to make a really lengthy blog. i just can't remember all the stuff i wanted to write.. anyway, mei next time naman eh... hehe...
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Thursday, October 9, 2008
...the scum of the earth - 2nd and 3rd interview day....
i applied for a "sales and marketing manager trainee" in a jobstreet listing... here's the link for better understanding:
http://ph.jobstreet.com/jobs/2008/9/default/20/1986539.htm?fr=L
now, i was called back for a second interview, and i didn't come to work to be at that interview... it was quite interesting, and me and michelle, a girl i met during the preliminary interview, were actually looking forward for the company to call... so i was pretty much excited for this second interview...
i was asked to be there by 9.45, but i got to makati by 8.50 (not by choice..), yet someone called me from that company asking if i was on my way to the office... of course i said yes...
so now, i go up, waited like forever (because it would start actually at 9.45) until this guy who looked indian and had somewhat of an indian accent came in... we learned he was singaporean... anyway, he breifed us with what the company is about (again), and what they do, then split us up so that we'd go with a trainer... i fortunately (or unfortunately considering the nancy castillogne-lookalike trainer the other girl got to be with for the day) got to be with the trainer who talked to us, roshan (yeah, a guy named roshan... who would've guessed? kala ko pang-dota lang eh...), and we talked about irrelevant stuff on the way...
so what happens is, the team (composed of different people, about 8 of them, who have been with the company for a week or even three weeks) is split after walking from enterprise building (ayala corner paseo) to i think it was rufino or something... they're asked to go from building to building... now, they said that they have either a road show or business to business... so i was thinking we were doing business to business now... and i was right... we were... eto lang:
1. my idea of business to business: appointments were set, people from the company were waiting for us to get there to talk to them...
2. their idea of business to business: go from one building to another, say the first company that you see on their list if asked by the guard where we were going, and barge into offices looking for managers...
imagine, the first thing taught to me was "this is the first real challenge, to get past security.." wtf? its as if we're criminals escaping a cell or something... anyway, for three minutes, he talks about what's happening with unicef and who the unicef actually benefit... here's the pitch in a nutshell:
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"hi i'm ________ from unicef... the reason why we're here is that your company has always helped us with the christmas cards and everything, so first we'd actually like to thank you for that... now, we're here to just give you an idea of what's happening now with unicef.. 42% of the population here in the philppines is composed of children... sadly though, 39% of them are unable to go to schools... we at unicef actually like to focus on three things, child protection, education, and child welfare.. by doing that, we can actually help the kids see a better future for them... now, here's what you can do to help: for as low as 20 pesos a day -- that's a couple of bottles of water a day -- you can help save these kids... to do that, we're going to ask for your donations through your mastercard, visa, or american express card... i do apologize, but we don't take cash, it's to make sure that 100% of your contribution goes directly to unicef fund... so, i'm just curious, are you more of a mastercard user, or a visa user?"
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that's their standard pitch. i followed roshan around pitching to about 20 people within 11am to 2pm, so that's what i got from him... after following roshan around, intruding people during work and during lunch, intimidating a number of security guards who can't speak english, i was asked to go back for my final interview... here's the conversation:
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boss: so, do you think our method is effective?
me: personally, no. i think you do present a logical, systematic, concise, and factual presentation supported by figures and stuff.. but then again, if i was on the other side of the sale, i wouldn't buy it.. pretty much because i'm not concerned with figures and stuff, i just want to get to the bottom line.
boss: well, i think our method is effective, because if it wasn't i wouldn't be sitting in front of you, would i?
me: of course. but this is my first experience with sales, so this is the first time i'm looking at it from the perception of a sales person. as i said, if i was the one on the other side of it, as i always have been, i wouldn't buy it.
boss: but not all people think like you, do they?
me (in my head, being an asshole): of course not. do they all think like you?
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now, i said i can do anything if i set my mind to it. but i've decided not to pursue it for the following reasons:
1. scam feel. roshan presented to this person who was visibly supposedly busy but took time to talk to him because it might have been important... now, of course she wouldn't sign right away, as she wanted to think about it first. she asked for a calling card, roshan didn't have one. how do you expect people to sign up when you can't even have cards saying you're from unicef... asked where the office is based, he said rcbc tower, which was true, because unicef really is there, together with other UN organizations... but the thing is, i was never introduced to any of the people in unicef... even the trainee we were with wasn't introduced to anyone from there yet... no card, no id (though roshan did have one), no direct ties with unicef. crap. and you're asking for money from these people...
2. commission based salary. now, don't get me wrong. i actually like that, i mean, you work for what you earn.. but the thing is, you don't have basic pay, just the commission... no sale, means no money... and they get paid weekly... and no mention of taxes and benefits... and considering the travel and meals you get to spend throughout your regular selling day on the field, it seems as if you need to talk to a really big number of people in order to just first compensate for whatever your expenses were, coz guess what, there's no meal and transpo allowance...
3. stubbornly stuck with fixed system. i told the boss their way of method isn't really that appealing to me as a consumer, but he says that system works, as it did with other countries.. and it seems that they're going to be stuck with that for as long as their company's here...
4. the idea of lying. my uncle advocates truth. the least i could do is live it. now i know sales people say the most ego-boosting words to the customer to close a deal.. mostly, these words aren't true.. same with this thing. asked if they have an appointment, he says yes, asked who our contact was, they just say "i'm just looking for the person in charge here".. asked if we have an appointment, they say we do, and act perplexed that it hasn't reached them yet...
5. glorified pulubi. asking for donations from building to building make it seem like wer're asking for alms... yeah they wore dresses and suits, but still, they're barging into offices unannounced, and they're looking for people who the receptionist assumes we're looking for...
now, i believe i can do anything if i set my mind to it, but man, this goes against everything i stand for... before, i really didn't want a call center job, but still, i took it... but now, man... i don't know... the thing is, i could be promoted to trainer or manager really fast... but the crappy thing is, first, i become one of the scum of the earth (in my opinion), that is, people walking up to you in malls and shit, trying to sell you something... then, if i progress with the company, i become the one who increases the number of the scum of the earth.. i wouldn't want to do that...
promising as it may sound (the company being really young here in the coutry), i'd rather have a different type of sales job...
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now to find where to apply to next.
(pakyu ka olgado. matutulog na ko. antok na ko. alabo na ata ng last paragraph ko...)
http://ph.jobstreet.com/jobs/2008/9/default/20/1986539.htm?fr=L
now, i was called back for a second interview, and i didn't come to work to be at that interview... it was quite interesting, and me and michelle, a girl i met during the preliminary interview, were actually looking forward for the company to call... so i was pretty much excited for this second interview...
i was asked to be there by 9.45, but i got to makati by 8.50 (not by choice..), yet someone called me from that company asking if i was on my way to the office... of course i said yes...
so now, i go up, waited like forever (because it would start actually at 9.45) until this guy who looked indian and had somewhat of an indian accent came in... we learned he was singaporean... anyway, he breifed us with what the company is about (again), and what they do, then split us up so that we'd go with a trainer... i fortunately (or unfortunately considering the nancy castillogne-lookalike trainer the other girl got to be with for the day) got to be with the trainer who talked to us, roshan (yeah, a guy named roshan... who would've guessed? kala ko pang-dota lang eh...), and we talked about irrelevant stuff on the way...
so what happens is, the team (composed of different people, about 8 of them, who have been with the company for a week or even three weeks) is split after walking from enterprise building (ayala corner paseo) to i think it was rufino or something... they're asked to go from building to building... now, they said that they have either a road show or business to business... so i was thinking we were doing business to business now... and i was right... we were... eto lang:
1. my idea of business to business: appointments were set, people from the company were waiting for us to get there to talk to them...
2. their idea of business to business: go from one building to another, say the first company that you see on their list if asked by the guard where we were going, and barge into offices looking for managers...
imagine, the first thing taught to me was "this is the first real challenge, to get past security.." wtf? its as if we're criminals escaping a cell or something... anyway, for three minutes, he talks about what's happening with unicef and who the unicef actually benefit... here's the pitch in a nutshell:
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"hi i'm ________ from unicef... the reason why we're here is that your company has always helped us with the christmas cards and everything, so first we'd actually like to thank you for that... now, we're here to just give you an idea of what's happening now with unicef.. 42% of the population here in the philppines is composed of children... sadly though, 39% of them are unable to go to schools... we at unicef actually like to focus on three things, child protection, education, and child welfare.. by doing that, we can actually help the kids see a better future for them... now, here's what you can do to help: for as low as 20 pesos a day -- that's a couple of bottles of water a day -- you can help save these kids... to do that, we're going to ask for your donations through your mastercard, visa, or american express card... i do apologize, but we don't take cash, it's to make sure that 100% of your contribution goes directly to unicef fund... so, i'm just curious, are you more of a mastercard user, or a visa user?"
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that's their standard pitch. i followed roshan around pitching to about 20 people within 11am to 2pm, so that's what i got from him... after following roshan around, intruding people during work and during lunch, intimidating a number of security guards who can't speak english, i was asked to go back for my final interview... here's the conversation:
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boss: so, do you think our method is effective?
me: personally, no. i think you do present a logical, systematic, concise, and factual presentation supported by figures and stuff.. but then again, if i was on the other side of the sale, i wouldn't buy it.. pretty much because i'm not concerned with figures and stuff, i just want to get to the bottom line.
boss: well, i think our method is effective, because if it wasn't i wouldn't be sitting in front of you, would i?
me: of course. but this is my first experience with sales, so this is the first time i'm looking at it from the perception of a sales person. as i said, if i was the one on the other side of it, as i always have been, i wouldn't buy it.
boss: but not all people think like you, do they?
me (in my head, being an asshole): of course not. do they all think like you?
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now, i said i can do anything if i set my mind to it. but i've decided not to pursue it for the following reasons:
1. scam feel. roshan presented to this person who was visibly supposedly busy but took time to talk to him because it might have been important... now, of course she wouldn't sign right away, as she wanted to think about it first. she asked for a calling card, roshan didn't have one. how do you expect people to sign up when you can't even have cards saying you're from unicef... asked where the office is based, he said rcbc tower, which was true, because unicef really is there, together with other UN organizations... but the thing is, i was never introduced to any of the people in unicef... even the trainee we were with wasn't introduced to anyone from there yet... no card, no id (though roshan did have one), no direct ties with unicef. crap. and you're asking for money from these people...
2. commission based salary. now, don't get me wrong. i actually like that, i mean, you work for what you earn.. but the thing is, you don't have basic pay, just the commission... no sale, means no money... and they get paid weekly... and no mention of taxes and benefits... and considering the travel and meals you get to spend throughout your regular selling day on the field, it seems as if you need to talk to a really big number of people in order to just first compensate for whatever your expenses were, coz guess what, there's no meal and transpo allowance...
3. stubbornly stuck with fixed system. i told the boss their way of method isn't really that appealing to me as a consumer, but he says that system works, as it did with other countries.. and it seems that they're going to be stuck with that for as long as their company's here...
4. the idea of lying. my uncle advocates truth. the least i could do is live it. now i know sales people say the most ego-boosting words to the customer to close a deal.. mostly, these words aren't true.. same with this thing. asked if they have an appointment, he says yes, asked who our contact was, they just say "i'm just looking for the person in charge here".. asked if we have an appointment, they say we do, and act perplexed that it hasn't reached them yet...
5. glorified pulubi. asking for donations from building to building make it seem like wer're asking for alms... yeah they wore dresses and suits, but still, they're barging into offices unannounced, and they're looking for people who the receptionist assumes we're looking for...
now, i believe i can do anything if i set my mind to it, but man, this goes against everything i stand for... before, i really didn't want a call center job, but still, i took it... but now, man... i don't know... the thing is, i could be promoted to trainer or manager really fast... but the crappy thing is, first, i become one of the scum of the earth (in my opinion), that is, people walking up to you in malls and shit, trying to sell you something... then, if i progress with the company, i become the one who increases the number of the scum of the earth.. i wouldn't want to do that...
promising as it may sound (the company being really young here in the coutry), i'd rather have a different type of sales job...
==================================
now to find where to apply to next.
(pakyu ka olgado. matutulog na ko. antok na ko. alabo na ata ng last paragraph ko...)
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
...escaping work to look for work...
i wasn't online for the past couple of days... on the first day, i was out to aid in presenting for UL, and i came along to accompany our visiting Chinese-national around Glorietta... funny thing we learned, tikoy isn't actually that known in some parts of China... we had a hard time explaining what tikoy is to this Chinese guy, and he still couldn't understand what it is... just so we could prove our point, i asked my mom to buy a small tikoy from near their office just so i could bring him one... at some point late in the afternoon, someone called me up, asking if i was available for interview the next day, to which i said yes... but i also said yes when asked if i was coming along with our account manager and Chinese visitor for home visits...
the next day, we had a hard time explaining what hopia and champoy were to the same Chinese guy... so after a couple of home visits, i asked to be dropped off to Makati, to check out the supermarket there, when in fact, i was going to my interview... of course to sell the act, i had to volunteer to go and look for hopia and champoy...
now, i was asked to go to enterprise building, 27th floor of tower 2 at 2pm... i was along ayala by that time... i was dropped off at Glorietta, and i ran all the way to the Enterprise building, which again was not that near... i was sweating like crazy... and when i got to the 27th floor, i couldn't see the company's name... i got freakin lost in the floor looking for the office... then, i got to 2704, which the receptionist told me to go to... inside, i found 3 people, whom i asked if any of them was called "Mica"... one of them said Mica's not there yet, but we were all looking for the same person... so i sat down with them, and talkative as i am, feeling close agad, trying to make a conversation out of silence...
i learned that i was with:
1. michelle: an IT graduate of 2002 i think, but im not sure of, from Assumption... she's 27 and talks too much... obviously we're the ones who initiate talks there... she just took a job offer, and it was supposedly her 2nd day in the office that day but she called in sick...
2. richard: an LM graduate of 2003, Kuya Jeff's batchmate... he says he's working for their family business, but prior to that he worked with Purefoods and Globe... i should've been impressed, if not for his "eps" and "fis" (eport for effort and fisful for peaceful)...
3. cindy: a communications graduate from UP... suprisingly working as a sales person for Ayala Land... really a quiet girl... probably because she's sick...
4. karel: latest entrant, but later found out that she wasn't supposed to be there yet as she was applying for a different position...
freakin interview had all 4 of us in the same room answering the same question... actually, she just asked us to introduce ourselves, what drove us to choose this field, and what asset we bring with us... sound simple enough, and with me being exposed to public speaking A LOT in the past, it should be cinch for me... but no... nakakailang... by the time i felt i was sputtering words, i decided to just cut whatever i was saying short (that was after 2mins of talking the way i do.. fast)...
after the interview, i hung out with michelle, coz she seems to be decent enough to talk to, and karel actually waited for us to finish just to ask what happened... we went to Coffee Bean in Greenbelt and talked for a while before going our own separate ways.. while at Coffee Bean, i got a call asking if i'd be available for a second interview...
that's gonna happen tomorrow... hope it goes well...
oh, and i went back to work at around 6PM, looked for hopia and champoy, gave it to Chinese guy (interesting name, Forrest Chen, and has a really cool kid), and went back to Glorietta for Dipa's Body of Lies premiere...
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Blogging and Comments
i actually appreciate comments on my blog... its nice to know someone actually takes time to read through my blogs, senseless it may be sometimes... it's just that i don't have that much interaction in work... hence, blogging is my only friend... it's where i get to share stuff i want to share and you don't get bored as hell with all my details because you can always choose to skip a paragraph or two if you're reading...
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Relationships and Making Things Work
relationships are supposed to be a "give and take" thing... it won't work if you're focused too much on one thing... and if you want to make it work, it won't unless you expect the other person to do his/her part only...
we all play a part in relationships... sure, there are times that you're wrong, there are times that you're right, but "sorry" won't work unless the other actually forgives... but you won't get out of the cycle of "sorry" and "forgiving" unless you figure out what went wrong... to make the relationship not stagnant, you have to figure out how you can avoid doing what went wrong... if you don't and it happens again and again, you're bound to break up sooner or later...
at a time when everyone seems to break up, i just wanted to share that.
(so you don't assume that the whole blog's all about you all the time...)
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Upset City
San Miguel Beermen got their name back, and durng the first half of their game last Sunday, it seemed they got their game back as well, leading by as much as 18 points... And then they blew that lead and lost the game to Alaska...
Earlier, Red Bull was playing really well, with Baguio, Najorda, and an opportunity-grabbing Gabby Espinas leading the Bulls to i think about an 8point first half lead... then they lost steam, couldn't rebound, and flat out handed the final 2 quarters to Purefoods...
On the second game, Sta Lucia was in control for most of the contest, even building the lead back up to 10 after Ginebra tied it back in the second quarter... but at the crucial moments, Sta. Lucia crumbled, and ultimately lost the game to Ginebra....
what's up with the upsets? i'm beginning to think that refs favor the underdog team... i found a couple of dubious calls/non-calls back in the first game... in the second game, well, i was looking at my bro's DOTA game, so i wasnt really paying much attention to the game...
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Friends vs. Work
i'm actually starting to be afraid of taking a new job... it might entail a lot of field work, and stuff busy people do... if that happens, i might lose out on a couple of friend-gatherings...
i don't know if not having any friends in the office is good for me or not... while i don't have friends now in the office, i seem to crave the company of my old college friends... however, what happens if i get to meet new friends at work? can i still find time to be with my college friends? will i crave to see them as much?
parang ayoko tuloy magkaron ng friends sa office...
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2374.15
that's my bill for this month on my phone line... and to think that i'm only subscirbed to plan 600... upon learning that, i bought myself a new globe sim card for all my freakin globe friends...
my new globe number is 09274685410
my sun line is still active though, and it remains my primary number...
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i want to blog more... but i think i'm getting sleepy... i'd like to edit this post to make it longer, and more not looking like it was done in such a hurry, but i think i've said enough of my piece... i'd probably blog about what happens to my second interview...
at least, as a friend said, by blogging, i get comments...
...and though it may seem at first that i'm talking to myself, at least i know, that later on, someone who's not too busy took time to read through just out of curiousity and interest about what happened to me...
the next day, we had a hard time explaining what hopia and champoy were to the same Chinese guy... so after a couple of home visits, i asked to be dropped off to Makati, to check out the supermarket there, when in fact, i was going to my interview... of course to sell the act, i had to volunteer to go and look for hopia and champoy...
now, i was asked to go to enterprise building, 27th floor of tower 2 at 2pm... i was along ayala by that time... i was dropped off at Glorietta, and i ran all the way to the Enterprise building, which again was not that near... i was sweating like crazy... and when i got to the 27th floor, i couldn't see the company's name... i got freakin lost in the floor looking for the office... then, i got to 2704, which the receptionist told me to go to... inside, i found 3 people, whom i asked if any of them was called "Mica"... one of them said Mica's not there yet, but we were all looking for the same person... so i sat down with them, and talkative as i am, feeling close agad, trying to make a conversation out of silence...
i learned that i was with:
1. michelle: an IT graduate of 2002 i think, but im not sure of, from Assumption... she's 27 and talks too much... obviously we're the ones who initiate talks there... she just took a job offer, and it was supposedly her 2nd day in the office that day but she called in sick...
2. richard: an LM graduate of 2003, Kuya Jeff's batchmate... he says he's working for their family business, but prior to that he worked with Purefoods and Globe... i should've been impressed, if not for his "eps" and "fis" (eport for effort and fisful for peaceful)...
3. cindy: a communications graduate from UP... suprisingly working as a sales person for Ayala Land... really a quiet girl... probably because she's sick...
4. karel: latest entrant, but later found out that she wasn't supposed to be there yet as she was applying for a different position...
freakin interview had all 4 of us in the same room answering the same question... actually, she just asked us to introduce ourselves, what drove us to choose this field, and what asset we bring with us... sound simple enough, and with me being exposed to public speaking A LOT in the past, it should be cinch for me... but no... nakakailang... by the time i felt i was sputtering words, i decided to just cut whatever i was saying short (that was after 2mins of talking the way i do.. fast)...
after the interview, i hung out with michelle, coz she seems to be decent enough to talk to, and karel actually waited for us to finish just to ask what happened... we went to Coffee Bean in Greenbelt and talked for a while before going our own separate ways.. while at Coffee Bean, i got a call asking if i'd be available for a second interview...
that's gonna happen tomorrow... hope it goes well...
oh, and i went back to work at around 6PM, looked for hopia and champoy, gave it to Chinese guy (interesting name, Forrest Chen, and has a really cool kid), and went back to Glorietta for Dipa's Body of Lies premiere...
============================================================
Blogging and Comments
i actually appreciate comments on my blog... its nice to know someone actually takes time to read through my blogs, senseless it may be sometimes... it's just that i don't have that much interaction in work... hence, blogging is my only friend... it's where i get to share stuff i want to share and you don't get bored as hell with all my details because you can always choose to skip a paragraph or two if you're reading...
============================================================
Relationships and Making Things Work
relationships are supposed to be a "give and take" thing... it won't work if you're focused too much on one thing... and if you want to make it work, it won't unless you expect the other person to do his/her part only...
we all play a part in relationships... sure, there are times that you're wrong, there are times that you're right, but "sorry" won't work unless the other actually forgives... but you won't get out of the cycle of "sorry" and "forgiving" unless you figure out what went wrong... to make the relationship not stagnant, you have to figure out how you can avoid doing what went wrong... if you don't and it happens again and again, you're bound to break up sooner or later...
at a time when everyone seems to break up, i just wanted to share that.
(so you don't assume that the whole blog's all about you all the time...)
============================================================
Upset City
San Miguel Beermen got their name back, and durng the first half of their game last Sunday, it seemed they got their game back as well, leading by as much as 18 points... And then they blew that lead and lost the game to Alaska...
Earlier, Red Bull was playing really well, with Baguio, Najorda, and an opportunity-grabbing Gabby Espinas leading the Bulls to i think about an 8point first half lead... then they lost steam, couldn't rebound, and flat out handed the final 2 quarters to Purefoods...
On the second game, Sta Lucia was in control for most of the contest, even building the lead back up to 10 after Ginebra tied it back in the second quarter... but at the crucial moments, Sta. Lucia crumbled, and ultimately lost the game to Ginebra....
what's up with the upsets? i'm beginning to think that refs favor the underdog team... i found a couple of dubious calls/non-calls back in the first game... in the second game, well, i was looking at my bro's DOTA game, so i wasnt really paying much attention to the game...
=============================================================
Friends vs. Work
i'm actually starting to be afraid of taking a new job... it might entail a lot of field work, and stuff busy people do... if that happens, i might lose out on a couple of friend-gatherings...
i don't know if not having any friends in the office is good for me or not... while i don't have friends now in the office, i seem to crave the company of my old college friends... however, what happens if i get to meet new friends at work? can i still find time to be with my college friends? will i crave to see them as much?
parang ayoko tuloy magkaron ng friends sa office...
==============================================================
2374.15
that's my bill for this month on my phone line... and to think that i'm only subscirbed to plan 600... upon learning that, i bought myself a new globe sim card for all my freakin globe friends...
my new globe number is 09274685410
my sun line is still active though, and it remains my primary number...
===========================================================
i want to blog more... but i think i'm getting sleepy... i'd like to edit this post to make it longer, and more not looking like it was done in such a hurry, but i think i've said enough of my piece... i'd probably blog about what happens to my second interview...
at least, as a friend said, by blogging, i get comments...
...and though it may seem at first that i'm talking to myself, at least i know, that later on, someone who's not too busy took time to read through just out of curiousity and interest about what happened to me...
Sunday, October 5, 2008
...ateneo and backing out, the "almighty comish", giving and the Lancer...
Ranting About Ateneo
i never liked Ateneo. it's almost like Don Bosco Makati to me: rarely do i befriend someone from either school right off the bat. they're arrogant, brash, too "sosyal" and think too highly of themselves... of course there are those exceptions, i do get to meet people who are anything like what i think of them generally... Larry Fonacier, for one, is a really good player who i thought was really an asshole, but as it turned out, he's one of the nicest guys off the court... on court he's "cold-blooded" shooting clutch free throws and three pointers, and his game face seems to show you he's a brash fellow, but its all part of the game... LA Tenorio, well, i just like his game... as well as Nonoy Baclao, Eric Salamat, and Jai Reyes... Chris Tiu's, well, Chris Tiu. its too unfair to give him any more praises.
in college basketball, the only time i rooted for Ateneo was during their drive to stop La Salle's 5-peat... this was the tenorio-gonzalez-fonacier-alvarez-villanueva time, when gec chia made his "famed" buzzer beaters to beat out 2nd placers UE, who were artadi-booker-yap powered (i met their center here in the village, i just forgot his name, but they're role players who are probably lost playing in Liga now), the team i originally rooted for... anyway, since then, i saw Ateneo as "the enemy"... a good one at that...
but they have this thing about backing out which really bugs me... a few months back, Mr. Palou of the Ateneo was in contact with my aunt about a possible exibition match between Ateneo and La Salle as a fund raiser for Uncle Jun... Mr. Palou was really game, but after talking with some Ateneo alumni, i guess he had a change of heart... i guess they didn't really like to be associated with Uncle Jun, probably because most of their "sponsors" are from the government... Mike Arroyo is from Ateneo... it was a really confusing time, as regular students and student leaders representing the Ateneo are all really supportive (in all aspects. i mean, if you saw what the Ateneo students do to show support, man, you'd think they're from UP - sterotyping, i know...), but the alumni and the older people seem to want to distance themselves from the issues at hand...
anyway, now, they back out from another commitment, as they beg off from the PBL.... for whatever reason, i don't know... but heck, what is it about Ateneo and backing out?
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Noli Eala and Issue making
NCAA is being officiated by PBL refs... Allegedly, Noli Eala called up Chino Trinidad, PBL commissioner, and talked about the officiating following the tight win of JRU in game 2 of the NCAA finals... This prompted Chino to nearly pull his refs out of game 3... This issue is yet to be resolved...
Now, Yeng Guiao has just been named as the National Team's coach... But, Noli Eala, the all-powerful guy that he is, is again at the center of controversy, as he is one of the figures who brought in the Toroman guy to be the the "director" for the National Team... Yeng Guiao says it wasn't discussed with the Basketball Coaches Association of the Philippines... Noli Eala says it wasn't needed to be discussed with them, as he was in constant contact with Chito Narvasa, whom we all know as the UAAP comissioner...
Since when were Noli Eala and Chito Narvasa credible entities since the former's disbarment and infidelity cases, and the latter's UAAP performance? i say, go Yeng Guiao. =)
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Being an Asshole vs Being Nice
there were a group of kids who came here the other day, asking for "konting tulong"... now, i'm into giving and stuff, but, i just hate it when they demand for help... besides, we just gave away much of our old stuff to our relatives in Bicol who were hit hard by a typhoon... with a changing tone, she asked for either food, money or clothing... they were "flooded in Marikina"...
later, when my dad came home, some more people came and asked for his help... they "lost their homes to fire in Antipolo"...
Being an asshole has its perks... when you do something nice, people tend to really appreciate it... if you've been really nice and have been constantly nice, stuff you're doing are kinda normal already that they don't really appreciate it that much, and sometimes, they even expect you to do stuff for them...
Hence, i think i'd rather be an asshole who people don't expect anything nice from than a nice guy who turns out to be an asshole because he wasn't able to do one nice thing people expected him to do...=P
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The Lancer and Expenses
My mom's Lancer is the oldest car that we own right now (in terms of ownership, not by model), and it's really in good condition... it's so good, in fact, that we never really had any issues with it...
However, recently, the aircon is messed up... i had it fixed earlier, and waited 5 freakin hours for it to get fixed after issue after issue was raised... anyway, 5 hours and 6k later, it's good...
for this past month, it's racking up bills... i recently bought 2.5k worth of floor mats for it... hay... my sister should miss the freakin car... at least it's being pampered... though scratches around it won't say so... hehehe....
i never liked Ateneo. it's almost like Don Bosco Makati to me: rarely do i befriend someone from either school right off the bat. they're arrogant, brash, too "sosyal" and think too highly of themselves... of course there are those exceptions, i do get to meet people who are anything like what i think of them generally... Larry Fonacier, for one, is a really good player who i thought was really an asshole, but as it turned out, he's one of the nicest guys off the court... on court he's "cold-blooded" shooting clutch free throws and three pointers, and his game face seems to show you he's a brash fellow, but its all part of the game... LA Tenorio, well, i just like his game... as well as Nonoy Baclao, Eric Salamat, and Jai Reyes... Chris Tiu's, well, Chris Tiu. its too unfair to give him any more praises.
in college basketball, the only time i rooted for Ateneo was during their drive to stop La Salle's 5-peat... this was the tenorio-gonzalez-fonacier-alvarez-villanueva time, when gec chia made his "famed" buzzer beaters to beat out 2nd placers UE, who were artadi-booker-yap powered (i met their center here in the village, i just forgot his name, but they're role players who are probably lost playing in Liga now), the team i originally rooted for... anyway, since then, i saw Ateneo as "the enemy"... a good one at that...
but they have this thing about backing out which really bugs me... a few months back, Mr. Palou of the Ateneo was in contact with my aunt about a possible exibition match between Ateneo and La Salle as a fund raiser for Uncle Jun... Mr. Palou was really game, but after talking with some Ateneo alumni, i guess he had a change of heart... i guess they didn't really like to be associated with Uncle Jun, probably because most of their "sponsors" are from the government... Mike Arroyo is from Ateneo... it was a really confusing time, as regular students and student leaders representing the Ateneo are all really supportive (in all aspects. i mean, if you saw what the Ateneo students do to show support, man, you'd think they're from UP - sterotyping, i know...), but the alumni and the older people seem to want to distance themselves from the issues at hand...
anyway, now, they back out from another commitment, as they beg off from the PBL.... for whatever reason, i don't know... but heck, what is it about Ateneo and backing out?
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Noli Eala and Issue making
NCAA is being officiated by PBL refs... Allegedly, Noli Eala called up Chino Trinidad, PBL commissioner, and talked about the officiating following the tight win of JRU in game 2 of the NCAA finals... This prompted Chino to nearly pull his refs out of game 3... This issue is yet to be resolved...
Now, Yeng Guiao has just been named as the National Team's coach... But, Noli Eala, the all-powerful guy that he is, is again at the center of controversy, as he is one of the figures who brought in the Toroman guy to be the the "director" for the National Team... Yeng Guiao says it wasn't discussed with the Basketball Coaches Association of the Philippines... Noli Eala says it wasn't needed to be discussed with them, as he was in constant contact with Chito Narvasa, whom we all know as the UAAP comissioner...
Since when were Noli Eala and Chito Narvasa credible entities since the former's disbarment and infidelity cases, and the latter's UAAP performance? i say, go Yeng Guiao. =)
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Being an Asshole vs Being Nice
there were a group of kids who came here the other day, asking for "konting tulong"... now, i'm into giving and stuff, but, i just hate it when they demand for help... besides, we just gave away much of our old stuff to our relatives in Bicol who were hit hard by a typhoon... with a changing tone, she asked for either food, money or clothing... they were "flooded in Marikina"...
later, when my dad came home, some more people came and asked for his help... they "lost their homes to fire in Antipolo"...
Being an asshole has its perks... when you do something nice, people tend to really appreciate it... if you've been really nice and have been constantly nice, stuff you're doing are kinda normal already that they don't really appreciate it that much, and sometimes, they even expect you to do stuff for them...
Hence, i think i'd rather be an asshole who people don't expect anything nice from than a nice guy who turns out to be an asshole because he wasn't able to do one nice thing people expected him to do...=P
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The Lancer and Expenses
My mom's Lancer is the oldest car that we own right now (in terms of ownership, not by model), and it's really in good condition... it's so good, in fact, that we never really had any issues with it...
However, recently, the aircon is messed up... i had it fixed earlier, and waited 5 freakin hours for it to get fixed after issue after issue was raised... anyway, 5 hours and 6k later, it's good...
for this past month, it's racking up bills... i recently bought 2.5k worth of floor mats for it... hay... my sister should miss the freakin car... at least it's being pampered... though scratches around it won't say so... hehehe....
Thursday, October 2, 2008
...a special date, end of contract, getting old...
Treating a Special Someone
Ever thought about other people? I mean, after a while of being with someone, and trying to distract yourself with a bunch of other people, you forget special people whom you value most before everyone else...
I had that thought earlier... Hence, I invited the third most important person in my life (che and my mom share the top spot, with neither of them being one over the other, it just depends on the circumstance) out for pizza earlier: me.
Yes, me. I thought I have been missing out on myself lately, and I don't really eat anything above 100pesos if I eat alone... I never treated myself out before, and I've always wanted to buy myself a whole pizza... And then I just thought, why not buy something for myself, right? So I went down to the SM Megamall foodcourt and I got myself a double-sized Orignal Thin Crust Shawarma Pizza... It wasn't Shakey's good (I originally wanted a whole Manager's Choice pizza), nor was it Sbarro good, but it tasted really good, considering it was a treat for myself... I felt special, being pampered... Me and my PSP enjoyed the whole pizza and large Coke... Yes, my trusty PSP has all those oil around the analog button, so I'd say it had it's share of the pizza...
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Leaving Work
My boss pulled me aside the other day, asking what I wanted to do after my contract ends on October 31. This is the picture:
Right now, I'm working as the "marketing person" in the office. Initially told it was a postition for "marketing assistant", they now refer to me as the "marketing person". I help them out with their presentations to various clients (the aesthetic side of it, not much on the technical stuff), basic computer troubleshooting when IT's too busy with their own worlds, buying stuff when someone from the other branches of this multi-national company are asking for them, giving insights when asked about some stuff they formulated, and a bunch of other stuff that might be needed to be done urgently. I'm really a fast worker compared to their pace, so the job's relatively easy. I get to slack off if there's nothing urgent needed to be done... If there is something needed to be done, multitasking is key, because everyone needs their stuff done ASAP...
My bosses and the account executives in the office all like me and how I do my work. Even the IT person likes the fact that I'm into computers and tech stuff... Hence, boss wants to renew my contract to a longer length... But here's the situation:
I can't be regularized. I need to be employed by a third-party throughout my stay in the company. Why? Because the marketing division for the Philippines was cut, and the marketing needs of the Philippines will be handled by Singapore, where the head office of Asia Pacific is. Now, the fragrance department of the Philippines need someone to be in the office, while flavors team can live without me. As it seems, I'm actually expendable, but my being there makes their lives so much easier. Hence, they need me, or someone like me. But I can't be directly hired because the region says so.
Now, it sounds good and all (long-term contract extension, people liking me = job security), but, I remain to be a contract guy, with no promise of a better future within the company. I would love to have job security, but that kind, I'm not sure if you can call it "secured"... Direct-hire's the way to go. And for that, I will want to leave the company unless a promise of a better future arises.
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Post-game Status
My body still hurts like hell.... I can't walk straight... Pag naglalakad ako, para akong tinira sa pwet ng bulas na egoy...
I have to play more often...
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Life and Unexpected Turns
Life's too short. You've got to enjoy it every once in a while. You'll never know when death decides to take you away... You can't be too old nor can you be too young... You have to know how you want to live your life and why you want to live your life...
Vague as it may be, I want to love and be loved... I want to be rich, sure, just so I can enjoy its perks, but what's more important is dreaming of a future together with someone... I never really thought of a solid occupation/profession to take to build my future around, but I know I want a family...
At least, as far as direction is concerned, I'm moving toward somewhere...
Funny how they say that "good men die young"... When "Kabise" died, his last breath was spent on telling his wife "hug hug naman tayo"... His kids say he was never really a cheesy guy, so they couldn't believe it actually happened... On a separate note, people tend to notice that those who died did something they didn't normally do right before they died... It's either they said "I love you" to their parents or kids, clean up their room, basta, something out of the ordinary...
So, I think I'll constantly be sweet to anyone I know who I am normally "sweet" or "thoughtful" to, or constantly be an asshole to those who know me as one (sorry xtian. tuloy ang pagdudurog ko seio) just so I'm not doing something out of the ordinary...
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Making a Pact to Myself
I want to save up, but I just can't... I know it takes discipline and all that crap but, I just can't manage to do it. And add to the fact that I'm gassing up using my mom's credit card (through an extension), I think I'm spending more than what I'm earning. Not to mention my dentist fees for the past couple of months amounted to about 5k, all paid for by my mom... And my monthly cellphone bill that always go above my credit limit paid for by her too...
Now, I can't take crap everytime money issues come about... My mom's always telling me off, so, I have to be more independent from her... For this reason, I have decided not to spend more than what I have... That means, less car drives (because I'll be spending for my own gas), less dinners out, less "happy-happy" time, and taking responsibility for phone bills...
Now, I have a Sun line... It's a 600/month plan, 350 of which is automatically deducted as fee for unlimited calls and texts for the month... However, I don't get to use it that much, as I don't have too many friends who use their Sun lines... Even Che doesn't bother to load up, her having a company phone and all...
So now, after about 4-5 years of having the same number (I know it's at least 4. I get a new phone every 2 years courtesy of Sun), I'm contemplating of letting it go in favor of a Smart line and a Globe prepaid for all the freakin Globe users who make up 3/4 of my friends... Actually, I'd rather have a Globe line, but my dad would never talk to me ever again... Not that that's gonna be a new experience, it's just that I do understand and respect his notion of "giving back to the company that provided for us most, if not all, of our lives"... Hence, I'd rather have Smart bills coming in rather than Globe ones...
I already got a sim card donor for my Globe prepaid...
(Ironically, I post this seemingly life-turning topic right after I say that those who "do something out of the ordinary die early"... Er.... Hopefully, this works out for me... After all, I do have 2 live left...
)
Ever thought about other people? I mean, after a while of being with someone, and trying to distract yourself with a bunch of other people, you forget special people whom you value most before everyone else...
I had that thought earlier... Hence, I invited the third most important person in my life (che and my mom share the top spot, with neither of them being one over the other, it just depends on the circumstance) out for pizza earlier: me.
Yes, me. I thought I have been missing out on myself lately, and I don't really eat anything above 100pesos if I eat alone... I never treated myself out before, and I've always wanted to buy myself a whole pizza... And then I just thought, why not buy something for myself, right? So I went down to the SM Megamall foodcourt and I got myself a double-sized Orignal Thin Crust Shawarma Pizza... It wasn't Shakey's good (I originally wanted a whole Manager's Choice pizza), nor was it Sbarro good, but it tasted really good, considering it was a treat for myself... I felt special, being pampered... Me and my PSP enjoyed the whole pizza and large Coke... Yes, my trusty PSP has all those oil around the analog button, so I'd say it had it's share of the pizza...
=======================================================
Leaving Work
My boss pulled me aside the other day, asking what I wanted to do after my contract ends on October 31. This is the picture:
Right now, I'm working as the "marketing person" in the office. Initially told it was a postition for "marketing assistant", they now refer to me as the "marketing person". I help them out with their presentations to various clients (the aesthetic side of it, not much on the technical stuff), basic computer troubleshooting when IT's too busy with their own worlds, buying stuff when someone from the other branches of this multi-national company are asking for them, giving insights when asked about some stuff they formulated, and a bunch of other stuff that might be needed to be done urgently. I'm really a fast worker compared to their pace, so the job's relatively easy. I get to slack off if there's nothing urgent needed to be done... If there is something needed to be done, multitasking is key, because everyone needs their stuff done ASAP...
My bosses and the account executives in the office all like me and how I do my work. Even the IT person likes the fact that I'm into computers and tech stuff... Hence, boss wants to renew my contract to a longer length... But here's the situation:
I can't be regularized. I need to be employed by a third-party throughout my stay in the company. Why? Because the marketing division for the Philippines was cut, and the marketing needs of the Philippines will be handled by Singapore, where the head office of Asia Pacific is. Now, the fragrance department of the Philippines need someone to be in the office, while flavors team can live without me. As it seems, I'm actually expendable, but my being there makes their lives so much easier. Hence, they need me, or someone like me. But I can't be directly hired because the region says so.
Now, it sounds good and all (long-term contract extension, people liking me = job security), but, I remain to be a contract guy, with no promise of a better future within the company. I would love to have job security, but that kind, I'm not sure if you can call it "secured"... Direct-hire's the way to go. And for that, I will want to leave the company unless a promise of a better future arises.
=======================================================
Post-game Status
My body still hurts like hell.... I can't walk straight... Pag naglalakad ako, para akong tinira sa pwet ng bulas na egoy...
I have to play more often...
=======================================================
Life and Unexpected Turns
Life's too short. You've got to enjoy it every once in a while. You'll never know when death decides to take you away... You can't be too old nor can you be too young... You have to know how you want to live your life and why you want to live your life...
Vague as it may be, I want to love and be loved... I want to be rich, sure, just so I can enjoy its perks, but what's more important is dreaming of a future together with someone... I never really thought of a solid occupation/profession to take to build my future around, but I know I want a family...
At least, as far as direction is concerned, I'm moving toward somewhere...
Funny how they say that "good men die young"... When "Kabise" died, his last breath was spent on telling his wife "hug hug naman tayo"... His kids say he was never really a cheesy guy, so they couldn't believe it actually happened... On a separate note, people tend to notice that those who died did something they didn't normally do right before they died... It's either they said "I love you" to their parents or kids, clean up their room, basta, something out of the ordinary...
So, I think I'll constantly be sweet to anyone I know who I am normally "sweet" or "thoughtful" to, or constantly be an asshole to those who know me as one (sorry xtian. tuloy ang pagdudurog ko seio) just so I'm not doing something out of the ordinary...
=========================================================
Making a Pact to Myself
I want to save up, but I just can't... I know it takes discipline and all that crap but, I just can't manage to do it. And add to the fact that I'm gassing up using my mom's credit card (through an extension), I think I'm spending more than what I'm earning. Not to mention my dentist fees for the past couple of months amounted to about 5k, all paid for by my mom... And my monthly cellphone bill that always go above my credit limit paid for by her too...
Now, I can't take crap everytime money issues come about... My mom's always telling me off, so, I have to be more independent from her... For this reason, I have decided not to spend more than what I have... That means, less car drives (because I'll be spending for my own gas), less dinners out, less "happy-happy" time, and taking responsibility for phone bills...
Now, I have a Sun line... It's a 600/month plan, 350 of which is automatically deducted as fee for unlimited calls and texts for the month... However, I don't get to use it that much, as I don't have too many friends who use their Sun lines... Even Che doesn't bother to load up, her having a company phone and all...
So now, after about 4-5 years of having the same number (I know it's at least 4. I get a new phone every 2 years courtesy of Sun), I'm contemplating of letting it go in favor of a Smart line and a Globe prepaid for all the freakin Globe users who make up 3/4 of my friends... Actually, I'd rather have a Globe line, but my dad would never talk to me ever again... Not that that's gonna be a new experience, it's just that I do understand and respect his notion of "giving back to the company that provided for us most, if not all, of our lives"... Hence, I'd rather have Smart bills coming in rather than Globe ones...
I already got a sim card donor for my Globe prepaid...
(Ironically, I post this seemingly life-turning topic right after I say that those who "do something out of the ordinary die early"... Er.... Hopefully, this works out for me... After all, I do have 2 live left...
)Wednesday, October 1, 2008
...sportsfest, quote, shoutouts...
Tayuman @ Meralco
pagod na ko. seryoso. literal. buong araw umuulan, buong araw ansarap matulog, pero ndi ako tulog... bagkos, matapos uminom at umuwi ng alas-2 ng madaling araw nun tuesday (bali, wednesday na), gumising ako ng 6.30AM (bumangon ng 6.45) para maghanda dahil meron kaming sportsfest so office... yes, sa office kong tadtad ng katandaan... at dahil hayok na kong magbasketball, pumunta talaga ako...
ang nakakainis lang, puro mga taga-planta kasama ko... mejo bata-bata pa... nag-pop un bubble na iniisip kong tatakbuhan ko un mga matatanda... nyeta... anyway, eion, manu ginobili ang naging role ko... off the bench, panghabol... pero ndi, kilala ako ng mga kalaro ko dati pa, ndi ako scorer... pero maaasahan sa depensa... tapos tagasigaw sa loob... tagasigaw ng instruction, tagasigaw ng "rebound" bago magrelease un tumitira (buti walang technical sa ganun) sa free throw... nanalo kami 1st game kahit trailing by 5 nun 1st half (hardwood nga pinaglalaruan namin pang tayuman naman laro nun mga tao...) tapos nun 2nd half, eion na, pumasok ako dala ang aking acrobatic tumblings at matinding madikit na depensang nakakaburat lalo na kun tambay lang kalaro namin... nun 2nd game, from 4-11 (oo,natapos ang 1st half sa ganyang score... running time kahit free throw, 10mins PER HALF) natapos na 2pts lang sana lamang ng kalaban... pero andaming gusto maging bida sa opensa, sabi nang "set" muna eh...
pero matutuwa mga kaklase ko dahil i did them proud... umuwi akong ndi MVP, pero merong respeto mula sa mga taong andun, galos sa 2 tuhod (dahil sa pagslide sa semento sa paghabol sa bola), at isang award na alam kong matagal na nilang gustong ibigay sa kin:
Subsob King.
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Homer Says...
..."Facts are meaningless. They can be used to prove anything."
ah.. words of wisdom from Homer J. Simpson. para sa inyong mga nagllaw. pag natatalo na't wala nang maipantapat sa kalaban, pdeng banatan siguro nito... hehe...
actually, kahapon pa ko kating-kati iblog yan, dahil napanood ko nun umaga... kaso ndi ko nagawa.. kaya eto, kahit lugmok na ang katawan at nanlalagkit na, naisipan pa rin magblog... hehe...
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Hey you!
Mga nakasama sa Tony's kagabi... salamat.
Shara - yea, kami ang kaparty mo.
EJ - bwakanangina ka, antagal mo. good luck sa trabaho...
Issa - mei kkwento pa ata ako seio. pero next time na. di ko matandaan eh.
Che - meron pa ba ko kelangan sabihin seio?
Shara/EJ/Issa/Che - pasenxa. na-overpower ang gathering ng madaming mga kaklase ko... sana kahit panu naenjoy ninyo un venue at ang pagkasama-sama natin/ninyo. sa uulitin, ndi ko na po pagsasabayin. o kaya ndi na ko sasama. hehe...
Imon - basta ang akin, mangisda ka muna bago mo gawing trophy un isdang nahuli mo na. baka mainggit ka lang sa isdang mahuli ng iba, itapon mo isdang nahuli mo na dahil sa posibilidad ng mas mahusay na isda.
Kali - next time pag magkikita tayo, dadalhin mo na sana un jacket ni che? o kaya ibigay mo na lang kei Olgado. madalas naman kami magkita nyan eh. at accessible ang bahay.. hehe... at oo, tatandaan ko din un games.
Xtian - ...
Cesa - buti naman ndi ka pa rin pikon. hehe... pupustahan pa tayo, wala pa lang ako maisip na pagpustahan..hehe...
Rey - try mo minsan mauna... para lang sa feeling. un antipolo ah...
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Series, movies...
Wala lang. share ko lang. kun mei oras ka para manood ng series or movies, eto:
nanood kami ni che nun 3dads and 1 mommy sa crunchyroll at soju sumthing sumthing... nakakatawa xa.
at ang cute nun bata. parang umaarte.. hehe...
sabi ni rey at imon maganda daw un how i met your mother, pero sa pagkakaintindi ko parang mas maapreciate xa ng male population. ewan ko ah. parang desperate housewives ng mga lalaki. siguro. pero ewan ko nga. puro kasi kwento mga kaibigan ko eh, wla naman pinapahiram na dvd.
napanood ko interview ni jimmy kimmel kei shia lebouf about eagle eye. sabi ni shia, sabi daw ni steven spielberg, sobrang revolutionary un jaws dahil after daw manood ng mga tao nun, ayaw na nila sa ocean dahil natakot sa shark... ang gusto daw gawin ni steven spielberg sa eagle eye eh ganun din, pero this time, matatakot ka naman sa technology. so malamang maangas to.
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jobstreet... don't fail me... ayokong magkaron ng oras para manood ng mga to outside of weekends...
october 31... hrggg....
pagod na ko. seryoso. literal. buong araw umuulan, buong araw ansarap matulog, pero ndi ako tulog... bagkos, matapos uminom at umuwi ng alas-2 ng madaling araw nun tuesday (bali, wednesday na), gumising ako ng 6.30AM (bumangon ng 6.45) para maghanda dahil meron kaming sportsfest so office... yes, sa office kong tadtad ng katandaan... at dahil hayok na kong magbasketball, pumunta talaga ako...
ang nakakainis lang, puro mga taga-planta kasama ko... mejo bata-bata pa... nag-pop un bubble na iniisip kong tatakbuhan ko un mga matatanda... nyeta... anyway, eion, manu ginobili ang naging role ko... off the bench, panghabol... pero ndi, kilala ako ng mga kalaro ko dati pa, ndi ako scorer... pero maaasahan sa depensa... tapos tagasigaw sa loob... tagasigaw ng instruction, tagasigaw ng "rebound" bago magrelease un tumitira (buti walang technical sa ganun) sa free throw... nanalo kami 1st game kahit trailing by 5 nun 1st half (hardwood nga pinaglalaruan namin pang tayuman naman laro nun mga tao...) tapos nun 2nd half, eion na, pumasok ako dala ang aking acrobatic tumblings at matinding madikit na depensang nakakaburat lalo na kun tambay lang kalaro namin... nun 2nd game, from 4-11 (oo,natapos ang 1st half sa ganyang score... running time kahit free throw, 10mins PER HALF) natapos na 2pts lang sana lamang ng kalaban... pero andaming gusto maging bida sa opensa, sabi nang "set" muna eh...
pero matutuwa mga kaklase ko dahil i did them proud... umuwi akong ndi MVP, pero merong respeto mula sa mga taong andun, galos sa 2 tuhod (dahil sa pagslide sa semento sa paghabol sa bola), at isang award na alam kong matagal na nilang gustong ibigay sa kin:
Subsob King.
===============================================
Homer Says...
..."Facts are meaningless. They can be used to prove anything."
ah.. words of wisdom from Homer J. Simpson. para sa inyong mga nagllaw.
pag natatalo na't wala nang maipantapat sa kalaban, pdeng banatan siguro nito... hehe...actually, kahapon pa ko kating-kati iblog yan, dahil napanood ko nun umaga... kaso ndi ko nagawa.. kaya eto, kahit lugmok na ang katawan at nanlalagkit na, naisipan pa rin magblog... hehe...
======================================
Hey you!
Mga nakasama sa Tony's kagabi... salamat.
Shara - yea, kami ang kaparty mo.
EJ - bwakanangina ka, antagal mo. good luck sa trabaho...
Issa - mei kkwento pa ata ako seio. pero next time na. di ko matandaan eh.
Che - meron pa ba ko kelangan sabihin seio?
Shara/EJ/Issa/Che - pasenxa. na-overpower ang gathering ng madaming mga kaklase ko... sana kahit panu naenjoy ninyo un venue at ang pagkasama-sama natin/ninyo. sa uulitin, ndi ko na po pagsasabayin. o kaya ndi na ko sasama. hehe...
Imon - basta ang akin, mangisda ka muna bago mo gawing trophy un isdang nahuli mo na. baka mainggit ka lang sa isdang mahuli ng iba, itapon mo isdang nahuli mo na dahil sa posibilidad ng mas mahusay na isda.
Kali - next time pag magkikita tayo, dadalhin mo na sana un jacket ni che? o kaya ibigay mo na lang kei Olgado. madalas naman kami magkita nyan eh. at accessible ang bahay.. hehe... at oo, tatandaan ko din un games.
Xtian - ...
Cesa - buti naman ndi ka pa rin pikon. hehe... pupustahan pa tayo, wala pa lang ako maisip na pagpustahan..hehe...
Rey - try mo minsan mauna... para lang sa feeling.
un antipolo ah...======================================================
Series, movies...
Wala lang. share ko lang. kun mei oras ka para manood ng series or movies, eto:
nanood kami ni che nun 3dads and 1 mommy sa crunchyroll at soju sumthing sumthing... nakakatawa xa.
at ang cute nun bata. parang umaarte.. hehe...sabi ni rey at imon maganda daw un how i met your mother, pero sa pagkakaintindi ko parang mas maapreciate xa ng male population. ewan ko ah. parang desperate housewives ng mga lalaki. siguro. pero ewan ko nga. puro kasi kwento mga kaibigan ko eh, wla naman pinapahiram na dvd.
napanood ko interview ni jimmy kimmel kei shia lebouf about eagle eye. sabi ni shia, sabi daw ni steven spielberg, sobrang revolutionary un jaws dahil after daw manood ng mga tao nun, ayaw na nila sa ocean dahil natakot sa shark... ang gusto daw gawin ni steven spielberg sa eagle eye eh ganun din, pero this time, matatakot ka naman sa technology. so malamang maangas to.
====================================
jobstreet... don't fail me... ayokong magkaron ng oras para manood ng mga to outside of weekends...
october 31... hrggg....
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