...to trust...

i've lost hope in people... i know i've said it before somewhere... but then again, from how i understand it, it's still people who define who you are... i mean, you know in yourself that you're this kind of person, but if others see you as something completely different, they'll carry that idea of you until they die... and when you're gone, they could say anything they can about you and you can't do a damn thing about it...

i trusted people would do the right thing if they knew things they should know... i pushed people to speak the truth they felt another person should know, but at certain times, it caused much more grief when before there was none (if there were, there was not much).... it involved people who are not supposed to be involved and made matters complicated... it sucks to know that still, i have yet to prove that speaking the truth will do something ultimately good... still, i don't have anything to bring to my young cousins enclosed in the caring arms of the La Salle brothers... still, i can't give them so strong arguments for them to not see truth as something that will cause trouble...

what i have for them is this: truth aims for goodness. it may not always turn out good, but still, if you trust people that they will go by their better judgement, they will know what the right thing to do is... "to trust people"... its not an easy thing to do... but, as the saying goes, no man is an island... this world we live in is just like a game of basketball (the fanatic in me can't seem to hide itself in making an analogy)... at crunchtime, you have to pass the ball to get a better shot if you're trapped, and you just have to trust your teammate that he will know what to do with the ball if he gets it... the pass to a teammate for a better chance at the basket is not an assurance that you will win the game, but at least, your teammate had a good chance at it... you may win the game if the basket shoots, you may lose it if it misses... but the point is, at least he took a shot... at least, he had a better look...

tomorrow is probably one last heave at trust to people... uncle jun is trapped... us, his whole family is behind him... every single Filipino, teammates... the government, teamed up with foreign powers and all those who wish to gain for themselves, the opponent... they've trapped us at the halfcourt line (basketball analogy. allergic ako sa mangmang, pero kun mei nagbabasa man, gusto ko pa rin maintindihan nya) with no shot at winning at all... we pass to our teammates who have a better look at the basket... we trust that though it seems nerve-racking to the teammates, he would take a shot, that we may have that chance to win... if we lose, then, so be it... but please, we hope you take a shot at least... let's give ourselves that "chance"...

with all the excess baggage i've been carrying lately, i wasn't able to blog about this... i know it's a late post, since the event is tomorrow, but for those of you who still get to read this: Roxas Boulevard. 3PM onwards. a Truthfest will be held. bands performing, and several "truths" that we, as a people must know, are all gonna be witnessed in this event...

i trust that people come not because they're gonna get paid, not because they were told, not because they were promised food, but rather, because of the genuine concern for the country they live in...


please, don't let "truth" be synonymous to "asking for trouble", but rather, an essential virtue...


please, let me trust people... and by that, i mean, that people may show they can choose their better judgement in doing what they think is right and actually act on it...








...the ball is passed on to you.... please, take a chance... we might just win....