Tuesday, December 25, 2007

...Christmas passing and the perfect man...

Tita Jean: Christmas na ba?

Tita Jean was the second among the 13 children of my grandmother from my father's side of the family... She was one of those who helped those 12 other siblings of her to finish school and to aspire to be someone... She is loved by all, and a wonderful mother... then sometime in the early 90's, she had a stroke... She lived through it, but half of her body was paralayzed... her left side of the body, that is... So she had to stop working, she was incapable of helping her dear husband cope with everyday needs... and that is why she suffers everyday, i think... not because of her physical pain, but rather because of her incapacity to help, because she has been the one who lifted everyone up when she was able to work...

Despite her condition, she had the ability no one i know possesses: know the birthday of almost everyone in the family... she sometimes forgets your name when you're in front of her, but she will not forget that a birthday is up. at 7AM on your birthday, expect your phone to ring, and don't be surprised because it's her, greeting you a happy birthday in the cheeriest voice you'd hear, and ask you for a blowout...

i think i'm going to miss that the most...

last thursday, she was again confined to the hospital, the 3rd time, i think, over the past couple of months... this time, it was really serious... she could barely talk... she struggles really hard just to breathe, and she normally just sleeps...  but everytime she wakes up, that is the only question that she asks: "Christmas na ba?"

on December 24th, i got  a call from Tita Oyes:

Tita Oyes: wala ako macontact sa inyo.
Me: sorry po, tulog pa ko eh...
Tita Oyes: pwes gumising ka na at pumunta na dito sa ospital. sabi ng doktor baka ngayon na si tita jean...

what words could you possibly say?

We took off, headed straight to the hospital, only to see her struggling to breathe, her right eye bloody red,  her pupils already white, and her skin as yellow a skin may be... It's as if she doesn't see us anymore, but she's hanging tough... i wanted to say goodbye, but i can't find the right words, and i can't bear to see her suffer like that... tears just flowed... while saying the rosary, i could see her eyes watering... she mustered enough strength to lift her hand up, and i pushed my cousin, her eldest son, to her, so that he could hold her hand at that time... i wanted to finish the rosary because she might expire at any time... thankfully, she didn't just yet...

all her siblings were there (except for 1 who went to Bicol to his own family) all 8 of them remaining... but i believe that the 2 others were there too, waiting for her to come with them to that better place where she would suffer no more from her body..  but to me, it seemed like she was just waiting for someone before she left... it was her other brother, Uncle Jer, who just the other day went home to bicol because he had news that she was doing better than the other day... thinking everything was going to be fine, he went ahead, not knowing this would happen... he took the first flight out of legazpi just to try to make it... but what do you know, the plane was recalled to manila for undisclosed reasons... upon letting her know the news, she expired after a couple of minutes...

and now, at least her body rests, her spirit is free, and she can be with all her family whenever she wants to be.. it hurts, but after seeing her suffer, its better this way... she waited for Christmas, and that's it... it's just like her... wanting everyone to be happy even at the gloomiest hour... she chose the perfect day for her to pass, it is the day when everyone is happy together... that's what she would want...



she is survived by three sons, and the most amazing man i know, Tito Manny... Tito Manny was the sole breadwinner, but you would never hear him complain. ever. he kept his solemn promise to Tita Jean of being together through thick and thin... he never left her side... he never went out drinking with us for long.. he would rather stay by Tita Jean's side... No complains. No bitching. No nothing. There was just unconditional love. Stroke or no stroke, he took care of her, and never left her side. The doctors couldn't believe Tita Jean survived this long. If you ask her, this is how she would answer, as she did one time we asked if she was tired: "Pagod na, sobra. Pero kasi, sabi Manny, fight eh."... And that was his mantra everytime to her... fight. and fight, she did... but it had to end some time. And Tito Manny realized that too.. It was only on Saturday night that he decided to let go. Tito Manny has nothing left financially. but that has never been an issue. he could sell all his organs for all he cares just as long as it would suffice to take care of Tita Jean. But we would not let that happen... everyone always tries to chip in somehow to compensate... But that's the kind of guy he is... He decided to let go not because he was giving up on her, but rather because she could feel her suffering, and it's better to have her with the Lord than stay here and suffer physically everyday...

I want to be like him... I can't say I already am, but I want to be... Where the hell can you get a guy like that? He's the kindest, sweetest, guy I've ever met, and he makes mean barbeques and other special dishes... He rarely gets angry especially in front of people, he never asks any help from others as long as he can do it, and he never saw Tita Jean's condition as a chance for him to meet other people... My uncles, my dad, are all good men with unquestionable work ethics and attitudes which made them who they are now, and stand where they are today. they may be great men, but the perfect man i would still say is Tito Manny. They said love won't feed you three times a day... true, but in Tito Manny's case, he'd rather starve than pursue other desires which would keep him away from Tita Jean...


I'm going to miss her dearly... To you who read this, please pray for her... And pleae pray for guidance for Tito Manny, who lost half of his life on the 24th...

...Gawon Christmas party ....




elsa: voltz, lumipat ka na upuan, nosebleed na.

and that was how it was, the feakin Gawon party. Ndi sa nagpapakasosyal, ako, pero kasi kawawa naman un trainer kong kano. Puro ramblings lang naiintindihan habang nagdadaldalan kaming mga Pilipino... Force of habit ba...

Cool party, won every giveaway they had... a ballpen, 3 bracelets, an id holder, and ham. yep. ham. namigay sila... ansaya... hehe... let's see, i got all the gifts through parlor games... just so you know, the company im working with is infested mostly by girls, and onti lang guys... so

parlor game #1: Bring me.
di ako sumali... katamad eh. gamit ko pa nasa kotse... matapos ang mga 5 items na nahingi nila, bumanat si commentator:
Commentator: except me, huh, bring the most handsome guy in this room.

katahimikan.

: si voltz na lang!

pakapalan na ng mukha, di na ko nagpapilit, sabi ko na lang: tara. and so the story for prize number 1.

sa pamilya ko at mga kaklase ko, normal kong gagawin un kahit na naroon sa loob ng room si Chris Tiu. Eh sa makapal mukha ko eh. at gusto ko ng prize.


Parlor game #2: Simon says.

akalain mong mei nagtanung sa kin kung panu daw ang bwakananginang larong ito..

in the end, sumuko ang mga host at binigyan kami ng prize ulit. 5 kami. whoopee.


Parlor game #3: Cake eating contest.
Puro kami mga gutom. nagsipila ang mga tao, at ako'y muli nanamang napilitang sumali, gawa partly ng pagtawag sa kin ni host, partly na rin dahil gutom na ko, at mas malaking part na siguro ang katotohanang makapal mukha ko nun.

Sa ideyang baka mei umatras, binulungan ko isa-isa ang mga kalahok na mukhang gullible.

voltz: brad, ang catch daw ng larong to eh kimchi ang flavor ng cake.
jay: weh? di nga?

it turned out, chocolate naman pala. ang catch eh blindfolded kayong magsusubuan ng cake ng kasama mo. mei style na sana ko, kaso di umubra. hawak ko pa lang kutsara ko eh tapos na un katabi namin. pero dahil sumali kami, mei prize pa rin kami...


tapos mei contest din na para sa lahat ng team(3)... ang mananalo eh makakakuha ng 2500 per team(which contains around 8 members)... pero dahil sa napasaya namin ang mga Koreano eh binigyan na lang lahat ng team ng 2000... at nun uwian eh nagkaayan pang uminom. naisip ko, xempre, sama na ko... di naman i-ccash ng mga TL namin un pera eh... malamang papang gimik lang... so join ako...

sa after party, pinigilan nila kong uminom ng straight... dahil daw magddrive ako... hay.... eh di kinausap ko na lang un trainer kong kano... wla kasi xa makausap eh... at the same time, papaka pet na ko... delikado week ko eh... 2 times late, tpos mga 5 overtime calls... kelangan kumapit sa matatag... tsk...

anywei, after ng after party, starbucks naman trip ng mga loko... sama pa rin xempre, papapoints eh... tangna, ayaw na ayaw ko pa naman gumagastos para sa kape... pero dahil kelangan....


pota. hirap maging sipsip...

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

...our pix from my phone...




kalat kalat na pix.. meron nun minsang paglaruan namin ang headband, meron nun iniingit ko xa ng mga pagkain dito sa bahay habang kami'y nagcchat, at meron naman nang minsang bisitahin nya ko at kakagising ko lang... hehe...

...After paskuhan...




Yeah, di ako nakarating... pero ayon sa balita all i missed were the fireworks... so not much harm done...;p

dahil nakalimutan ng mga adik sa picture ang mga camera nila, naging pokpok ang cellphone kong maarte para sa pichuran nila...

ang liwanag ng eastwood... salamat meralco...:p

Sunday, December 16, 2007

...philo party, DLSU carols...

12/15/07 - date set to be the PHL batch 07 party... until wednesday, i think i had at least 1/4 of the class coming... then by friday, suddenly no one seems to be coming... i had it set. there's no way i'm going to resched. even if 3 people came, its going to be a party... i didn't want to spend much, since i don't have much on me. but i spent more than i expected... doesn't matter... at least i got some of the guys together... and i had Aby Kwe and Corbin come out of isolation... haha... i think i had fun... hopefully, the others did too... its not how i envisioned it, but at least, somehow, we got together, and that's what matters for me...


slept at 7am, woke up at 2pm, told that we were supposed to come by my uncle's house for a small gathering... turned out, it was a DLSU team carolling... as bad as PJ Walsham played, you won't expect him to sing that well... and Rico, for some reason, I knew he would be a good dancer... he didn't disappoint... i'll upload the pix  and videos later....


tomorrow's gonna be the first day i'm going to talk to Koreans... but in the morning im gonna apply for an HR position.. haha... if things don't work out too well there, at least i'll still have the Koreans.. hehe...

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

...eh sa allergic ako sa tanga eh...

tapos ko na ang pukinanginang clearance sa ict sa wakas... na-inspire kasi ako nun sabihan ako nun officemate ko na mei pde pa ko makuha backpay kung maayos un kasi nga resigned naman ako...

eto na. gusto ko lang maglabas ng sama ng loob:

pde ba, pag wala ka alam, magtanung ka na lang?! ndi un nagmamarunong ka?!

oo na, pakialamero na ko. di ko dapat pinapakinggan un usapan ng ibang tao. eh kaso naririnig ko eh... tayuan sa bus, nasa likod ko lang sila... usapan ng 2:

Boy1: di pa rin kaya ni Yao si Shaq.
B2: bakit?
B1: ang laki pa rin ni Shaq eh..

<dito pa lang, naiisip ko nang wlang patutunguhan ang usapan nila. nagkaron lang ng debate ukol sa shaq-yao dahil sa starting spot ng west dati. pero ngaung nasa east na si shaq, it doesn't really matter. isa pa, wla nang silbi si shaq. isang malaking tae na lang xa. mas magaling pa pinapakita ni zo sa kanya. kun di lumipat si zo, nagchampion siguro sana nets, kun tulad ng ginagawa nya ngaun ang gagawin nya sa nets. eh kaso lumipat. belat si diaz, ndi nagchampion nets. ako nagchampion. kahit wala na si caron butler. hehe..>

<<ako naman si gago, nakinig pa rin>>
B1: malakas un sa ano eh... sa pistons..
B2: sino dun?
B1: un ben...
B2: ben wallace?
B1: un ba un?
B2: oo.
B1: un kulot ba un?
B2: oo. kaso nasa bulls na un eh. <hay salamat.>
B1: ha? kelan pa? <huwaaat? promdi ka boy?>
B2: tgal na eh.
B1: mei isa pa wallace eh di ba?
B2: si rasheed?
B1: oo! mabilis un di ba? <huh?>
B2: ha.. uh.... oo. <kaibigan ka nga>
B1: mas mabilis pa un kei iverson di ba? <sabog ka boy?>
B2: ndi ah! <ah..sanity>
B1: ows? mas mabilis pa? <pulis! adik o!>
B2: ndi xmpre si iverson pa rin.
B1: ah.. kala ko mas mabilis pa kei iverson eh... tapos un si dirk.........

di ko na alam sumunod nyang pinagsasasabi. nakinig na lang ako ng sounds. pota eh. galing pa yata ng bundok ng tralala un, kung anu anu pinagsasasabi... kun mga 3 years ago xa nakipagkwentuhan nun mga topics nya siguro kahit panu mei sense un pinagusapan nila. kaso ngaun eh. sakit sa ulo. siguro sila un naaamoy kong lasing. un na lang iisipin ko.


Sunday, December 9, 2007

...PASUKOB, one-day wedding driver (free), antipolo...

FRIDAY: after first week of work, a little R&R shouldn't hurt..  walang pasok December 8, so pde si Che lumabas ng Friday dahil ndi maaga ang Saturday nya.. Salamat sa Jolibee Megamall, bumili kami ng meal, at ayun, meron kaming libreng movie tickets. Libre. So, kahit ano. Meron Golden Compass, Emporium, at iba pa... Dapat Emporium (un toy store na buhay), kaso ewan ko, wla sa mood namin pareho... sabi ko Pasukob. baka funny. sabi nya ayaw. Wendy Ramas kasi un film eh. sabi ko, try lang natin, libre naman eh. baka kasi talagang nakakatawa, sayang naman at ndi un ang pinanood namin....

pinilit kong tumawa. Lord knows i tried. pero ayaw eh... nararamdaman kong bumabagsak ang mga pisngi ko at sumasakit ang ulo ko... meron comedy na nakakatawa sa sobrang corny, pero eto, ndi na nga nakakatawa, pinipilit pa nyang maging corny. pero matinding aral ang napulot ko dun: WENDY RAMAS FILM = Garbage.


SABADO:
(prelude)

Eksena:

pa: mei lakad ka sa sabado?     

Me: wala naman po.      

Pa: kasal kasi ng anak ni Susan (Dating longtime katulong pero family friend ng pamilya ni papa mula pa nun dahil nga sa pagsilbi kei lolo) eh, ninong ako. Sabi nila wala daw silang bridal car, magttricycle lang daw ung bagong kasal. Naawa naman ako, sabi ko gamitin na lang ung puti (Lancer). Ikaw na magdrive.    


Me: ....          


Akala ko, pag mei trabaho na ko, matitigil na tong mga impromptu pagpplano sa buhay ko.. But no... Naging habit na siguro.. Pinapagalitan nila ko nun student council days kc nagpapakabayani daw ako sa mga tao, eh wla naman ako kikitain dun.. Naisip ko, at least kun gusto ko tumulong at mag-effort, wala akong dinadamay sa kabayanihan ko.. Eh eto?! Pota talaga..

Sa kasal:

"Ang pinapakasalan mo ngayon, Analyn, ay hindi isang Jansen na perpekto. Sa pagpunta ninyo dito ngayon, tinatanggap mo ang kanyang buong pagkatao, kung ano man siya noon, kun sino siya ngayon, at kung magiging sino siya."

Ang intro ng pari tungkol sa mga bilihin, tungkol sa hirap ng buhay.. Tama naman mga sinabi nya.. Nakakatuwa kasi parang tinakot pa nya un ikakasal, na kahit anung sweet nila ngayon eh pagpatak ng mga ika-6 na buwan nilang mag-asawa eh nagmumurahan na at nagsasakitan, at baka lumabas na ung mga "kung alam ko lang na ganito ka, sana di na lang kita pinakasalan!" 

paglakad sa altar, tila kilala nila ang isa't isa, pero paglipas ng panahong magkasama sila, parang nagiging ibang tao na yung isa.. Bukod sa kanilang dalawa, hawak din ng Diyos ang mga kamay nila.. Ang kasal ay isang pangako, isang sumpa sa harap ng Diyos, isang pagtanggap sa buong pagkatao ng mapapangasawa, ang kanyang nakaraan, ang kanyang ngayon, at ang kanyang hinaharap.. May mga naghihiwalay dahil sinisisi nila ang hinaharap na hindi nila nakita noong ikinasal sila.. Pero tulad ng lahat ng pangako, lalo pa'T isang sumpa sa harap ng Diyos, nararapat lang siguro na kasama mo ang sinumpaan mo noong ikinasal ka, nagkasala ka man sa kanya, tulungan mo ang sarili mong itama ang sarili mo.. Noong sumumpa ka, siya at ang Diyos ang mga kasama mo, ang iba ay mga nakikain lng sa reception.. Wala nang iba kundi kayong tatlo.. Sa habambuhay sana, kayong tatlo pa din ang magkasama.. Kahit wala na ang iba..                        

Wala pa nman akong kaibigang kasal.. Wala pa namang sumusumpa.. Pero naisip ko lang, tama din ung sinabi nung pari.. Di mo kailangang sumuko..di pdeng gawing dahilan ang mga kasalanang nagawa, o di kya'y ang mga pangarap na di natupad.. Basta un isang pangako na un sa harap ng Diyos ay mapanindigan..                

Mei natutunan ako, pero di ibig sabihin natutuwa ako..

SABADO ng Gabi: humabol ako sa mga pinsan kong nag-inuman, habang ako ay nag-alay ng serbisyo. pagdating ko sa bahay ni pinsan, wasak na ang isa, inaantok na ang isa, at ang host eh ok pa naman. habang sinisimulan panoorin ang "I Know Who Killed Me" ni Lindsay Lohan salamat sa piratang DVD ng pinsan ko, knockout na un 2 ko pinsan, at mei 2 box pa ng pizza nakakalat. Ang laman ng wallet ko ay tumatagingting na 20pesoses. pag nahuli ako ng MMDA, baka ikulong ako dahil wala akong pang suhol. kaya ang ingat ko. pero naiisip ko pa kasi pumunta ng antipolo kasama si che for star gazing at overlooking. paano mangyayari? eto na, si Voltaire, namburaot sa pinsan. dumampot ng 2 bote ng beer, kalahating bote ng 1.5 liter na pepsi, kalahating box ng pizza hut pizza, bottle opener, at isang choco knot (na ndi ko pa nakakain). all set for a picnic, kahit walang pera.

Eksena sa utak ko: 2 kami sitting on the roof ng anfra, un anfra parallel sa gilid ng road, kami naman nakaoverlook sa matinding view pag nakaupo sa bubong, tpos super stargazing pag humiga sa bubong. overlooking while eating stuff na naburaot.

Actual na nangyari: Antipolo, kasama si Che (na walang jacket at naka sleeveless na damit. mei sipon pa. imagine mo na lang ang ngatog nya.). akyat kami ng ever popular Cloud 9, thinking na pde kami magpark at chill na lang. unang problema: baduy ng view. pangalawang problema: wla kami pera. pde sana kami magstay sa isa sa mga pav nila, ang kaso, ndi nakakatuwa un mga tao sa paligid. parang kanina pa lasing. at marami sila. di naman lahat magkakasama, pero marami lang sila, at makakasira ng mood lalo sa eksenang naisip ko. ndi enjoyable, ndi sweet. naghanap pa kami. kaso puro resto na mei bayad.

nakakainis. wala na un freedom sa antipolo. wala na un stop ka lang sa gilid tpos look at the view. siguro pde pa rin gawin un, kaso wala na un magagandang view. either nahaharang ng mga punong ayaw pang putulin, o di kaya'y nahaharang nga mga establishment. kun titigil ka rin sa isang tabi, andaming jologs na naglalakad. ndi na rin safe.. haay.. the good 'ol days... takbo na lang kaya ako governor ng antipolo? tpos pasara ko mga putanginang mga un... para mas clear ang kalsada sa mga tulad ko kagabi na gusto magpaka-emo... peste talga..


so in the end, we still got to eat some food and stay on top of the car... un nga lang sa dulo ng street namin... di rin naman kami nagtagal, kasi nga kun nagtagal pa kami, eh popsicle na si che ngaun...


potang mga mayayaman at gusto kumita ng pera. pati ang emo ginagawan nyo ng paraan para kumita kayo... wala na ang magic ng antipolo. un magic at excitement na dala ng pangalan na un nun bata ako eh naging isang lugar na lang sa isip ko dahil sa naranasan ko kagabi...  syet tlga...

Thursday, December 6, 2007

... manipulation...

wala lang, gusto ko lang ilabas, parati ko kasi nakikita sa news, wala naman ako makausap o mapagsabihan....

tangnang Pilipinas at pulitika.... lumalakas daw ang piso kahit na nagkaron ng kaguluhan sa makati kamakailan dahil kung ikumpara sa dolyar ng estados unidos eh tumataas pa ang halaga nito... samantalang si kanong trainer ko eh natatakot na sa unti unting pagbaba ng halaga ng dolyar... di ko pa talaga nakikita, pero kumpara kaya sa euro, lumalaki ang halaga ng piso??? kasi kun palabasin sa balita parang ang galing ng presidente dahil nagagawa nyang stable ang ekonomiya, pero ang totoo eh kumukuha lang xa ng puri sa pagbaba ng dolyar at pinapalabas na piso ang tumataas... kung ito lang ang dalawang currency sa mundo, maaaring ibig sabihin ng pagbaba ng isa ay ang pagtaas ng isa pa... kaso madami pang currency eh... kaya ndi ako naniniwalang tumataas talaga ang halaga ng piso dahil bumababa ang dolyar... mukha lang siguro...

 

pana-panahon lang siguro yan...

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

...working(kinda), champ's league, and i don't know...

i think this is work... korean tutor. it's something where i earn, so, i think this is good for now... what i learned by staying home is that though its cool to be a bum, it isn't when you want to go out... and you can't really choose the job you want to do especially if you're a fresh grad... you know all those people telling you that "you should look for work that you have a passion for, which you love doing."? its bullshit.. if you did that you'd be jobless for a long time... except maybe if your passion is wiping old peoples' asses in the states then, no problem, be my guest and join the bandwagon. (no offense to nursing people.. i just live with that misconception, though i know there's a lot more to it than that...) what i'm saying is if you have a passion for something that's really in demand, then you don't have a problem... but if you had passion for music, for example, you have to make a name for yourself as an artist before you can actually earn something from that passion (which would most probably be less than what is due to you with piracy and all)... as for me, i think i want to be a sports analyst... but i can't be one as a fresh grad... hopefully, with perseverance, a lot of practice speaking, a great deal of luck, and hell, why not even some connections; i will get to where i want to be... but right now, i have to be korean teacher rudolf... but i'm still in training... hopefully korean kids won't be hard to understand... the only korean word i know right now is jiampong... and i don't even know if its supposed to be right.. gago lucky me eh...


champs league was won by ateneo. uv was 2nd, sti was surprisingly 3rd after lucky 3pt shots came their way to seal an overtime victory over the tigers... demmit... tigers did their best... just so happened the shots fell down for the oldies in sti (balneg mentioned he played in ncaa, i just don't know which team, and howard flor: i know he was a bulldog just last year)... then i was thinking, maybe, just maybe, fil-oil owner was atenean... or organizers were... la salle and ue pulled out for their own reasons, la salle, since their players needed a break, while ue pulled out, understandably upset because despite having a perfect season in the past uaap season (but unfortunately losing both finals games), they were ranked 4th behind the eagles, who on their part, had to battle some obstacles to claim their 3rd spot in the uaap men's basketball tourney... now, i don't know if its "redemption" on their part for winning the title, but i don't know, maybe nothing's changed... they're still behind la salle and ue... and even though  the tigers lost to them, and didn't even get the 3rd place finish, i still believe the best game of that tournament was the tigers-lions game, the matchup of last year's champions of their leagues... battle of the cats.. haha... and we won without jervy, but they lost without aljamal... odds evened out? maybe, maybe not... aljamal may be a big part of that team, but jervy is too... but who knows, maybe yousif gives the team that extra boost nobody else can fill in the team... anyway, still good win for the tigers...


ha... december, the month of christmas (and parties) is upon us... i hope the philo class party would push through... i kinda miss the fuckers.. haha...

Sunday, November 25, 2007

...bingo humor, traffic, and women...

pa: mei gagawin ka bukas?

me: wla naman po.

pa: laruin mo nga ung bingo tickets ko. sayang eh.

 

flashback umaga ---> mag-aaply ako trabaho sa ortigas. sabi ni ortigas balik daw ako ng 4pm. sabi ng tatay ko kunin ko daw kotse nya sa opis nya sa sta.mesa. tinanung ko muna sa nanay ko kun kelangan ko pa gawin un since 4pm kelangan nkabalik na ko ortigas (11am na nun, bukas na galle). sabi oo kunin ko daw kasi maghahatid pa ko sa tatay ko para kunin un isa pa nyang kotse sa pagawaan. so, ayun, iniisip na kelangan ko talaga pumunta, pumunta na ko. pagkasakay ng fx papunta quiapo, sabihan ako na "ano ter? kasi pde naman bukas na lang un kotse iuwi eh." so peste na. problema agad. tapos sabi ko samahan ko lang che sa xray tpos kain kami, saka na ko punta opis nya. nun dumating kami dun, wla na xa, iniwan susi sa kin. ang tagal ko daw. tapos pag-uwi ko sa bahay nalaman ko na ndi na nya tinuloy lakad nya dahil late na daw xa. indirectly telling me na "tagal mo kasi eh."

 

so, sino ba naman ako para tumangging laruin un bingo nya? ayun. laban. sinama tita ko at utol ko thinking sa dami ng tickets, di ko kakayanin mag-isa. 44 tickets un, 4 na tig-11 (panis. nag-math) na paper bingo card. un pala, color-coded si bingo. 11 games meron. ibig sabihin, 4 lang technically ang card na eligible ko gamitin per game. pota. sinayang ko pa oras ng 2 pang tao.

 

sa bingo na. nakaranas ka na ba ng bingo sa isang family day? every christmas kasi napapagtripan na namin yan sa family eh. kung anu anu lang pinamimigay. pero ndi ko alam bakit dun sa bingo na un ndi ganun kabenta mga jokes. sa bingo ka lang makakarinig ng kung anu anung joke pertaining to numbers.

"o, sa letrang O, paboritong number ni (insert name of person)... 69!"

"sa letrang N, waistline ko ngayon, 35!"

"sa letrang B, Jaworski, 7!"

"sa letrang I, sweet 16!"

"sa letrang G, kalbo, 60!"

tapos mei mga bago akong narinig na walang kakwenta kwenta:

"sa letrang N, doble kwatro, 44."

"sa letrang I, doble po ulit, doble trese, 26" (ndi tlga ko natutuwa pag math ang joke eh)

"sa letrang G, edad ko dati, 51" (ok, ok, so matanda ka na. pero kun ganun din lang sasabhin mo, eh di simulan na natin sa 'sa letrang B, edad ko dati, 1)

 

iba lang siguro talaga pag di mo kilala talga lahat ng taong kahalubilo mo. minsan kasi tumatawa na un iba, kami tinatanung pa namin kun bakit naging ganun un number eh. ewan. masaklap pa, nag-effort na kami, nagsayang pa kami ng oras, out of 11 games, wla pa kami napanalunan. bukod dun, mei raffle pa, na namimigay sila ng jacket, payong, at mga bag. mahigit 40 rin siguro un.  wla rin kami nakuha. oo alam ko, ndi lahat ng tao sinuswerte. pero din naman ganun kadami tao dun para ndi man lang kami manalo sa raffle no... isa per family lang naman nakaregister eh. at di ako naniniwala na lampas 50 ang mga pamilyang andun. hay. sana sa bingo tumama mga nagpabitin sa kin.

 

pag weekends, masarap magdrive eh. ang layo ng mararating mo sa maiksing panahon dahil sobrang wlang traffic. kahapon di ko alam kun bakit lahat ng tanga eh nagkasama sama sa kalsada. sobrang traffic ng sta. lucia, wla naman sale. nanay ko dumating sa santolan lrt ng 6:15, nakauwi sa bahay almost 9 na. nagmotor isang pinsan ko para sunduin un isa ko pa pinsan dun sa lrt, pati xa natrapik. labo. di ko tuloy alam kun matutuwa ba ko na ganun lang kadali ang pagkuha ng lisensya dito sa pilipinas. pila lang ang pinaka effort mo. ang pinakamagandang pde ko na isipin dun eh, kahit na ang daming bobong driver sa pilipinas, eh sigurado akong either madiskarte o pasensyoso ang mga lisensyadong drivers. madiskarte dahil kayang ndi pumila, pasensyoso naman dahil pumila.

 

3am. kakatapos lang ng tongits na malupit, sinundo ako para umuwi na daw. pupunta daw ako ng tarlac. "pota." sabi ko, "problema nanaman?" "basta umuwi ka na lang." sabi ng ate ko. umuwi ako agad dahil kelangan nanaman ng guidance counsellor. basta, matapos ang sobrang habang drama na wala naman talagang solusyon, ang isang naiintindihan ko lang talaga ng lubos at tila mananatili na talaga sa isip ko, eh ayaw magpaintindi ng babae. pag nagkakaintdihan kayo, either bading ka, babae ka rin, o pinipilit mo lang paniwalain sarili mo na nagkakaintindihan kayo.

sitwasyon:

ma: gusto ko pumili na xa. ako o xa.

me: ok. kung xa piliin, ok lang ba seio?

ma: ndi. wla xang karapatan.

me: ok. eh kung ikaw piliin, maniniwala ka ba na bibitawan nya un isa?

ma: ndi nya naman gagawin un eh.

o di ba. sakit sa ulo. walang solusyon. ndi pdeng a, ndi pdeng b. c naman pala sagot, tanung pa ng tanung. ang mga nakasagot naman sa tanung na "what is the meaning of life" eh patay na eh... kasi nag-move on na sila. tapos na ang "life" nila. pde na nila madefine. ganun din naman siguro solusyon sa isang bagay na walang kasagutan eh. move on and let the past be. kun ganito lang ng ganito wala talaga katahimikan yan sa buhay.

 

ok, ndi ako anti-female/feminist. naiintindihan ko na mei pagkukulang din naman kaming mga lalaki, base rin sa parehong sitwasyon.

me: san ba galing un?

pa: binigay ng bataan ko.

me: bakit mo kinuha?

pa: wala lang. eh puro lalaki kami eh, kantyawan lang naman.

me: tapos ngayon pinoproblema mo kung bakit nanaman kayo nagkakasiraan ng ulo?

 

masculine pride. madalas nakabulag sa judgement ng isang lalaki. dahil takot makantyawan, dahil takot mei masabi tungkol sa kanya, kelangan parating ipakitang kaya nyang gawin kung anung gusto nyang gawin, without thinking of the consequences it might bring, just to satisfy the crowd at hand.. siguro dahil dun, kaya nagkakaron ng mga kabit (bata pa yan, wasari pa!), kaya nadudurog sa kalasingan (o straight mo nga yang scotch-brandy tpos i-chaser mo ng red horse!!), o di kaya'y naaaksidente sa pagmamaneho (chong, di mo na kaya magdrive).

 

pero, tulad nang ndi mababagong ugali ng mga babae, eh meron din namang ugaling ndi rin pdeng baguhin ng mga lalaki. oo, siguro nga bunga ng kantyaw kadalasan ang mga problemang inilahad ko, pero ndi mo naman maaalis sa lalaki ang mapa-barkada. ewan ko. pde mo naman kasi maipakita sa mahal mo kung sino ka talaga, pero sa mga tulad mo rin ikaw makakagawa ng mga bagay na ndi nyo gagawin ng mahal mo (mag-basketball ng limahan, mag-dota, o umihi sa pader). kung babae ka, nseio naman kun kaya mo pagkatiwalaan enough ang partner mo sa mga kantyaw na ganun.**

 

**NOTE: di ko originally naisip na ilagay to sa blog ko. pero naisip ko lang, baka magka-idea, mahadlangan pa ang mga get-together ng klase na maaari kong puntahan in the future. dumedepensa lang ako sa sarili ko.:p sa ibang lalaki, bahala kayo sa buhay nyo. hehe....

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

...stuff i wanted to write about (na ngayon ko lang nagawa)...

JAPS CUAN = 4 STRAIGHT FREE THROWS to turn back San Beda in the Champions' League. hehe... AT isang 3pointer na ndi mala-Jun Cortez na boarding. manghang mangha ako nun nakita ko un apat na free throws at para akong gago dito sa bahay na tawa ng tawa sa basketball. kala mo nakapanood ng rerun ng Pido Dida eh. Biruin mo un? 4 na freethrows ang pinasok ni Japs nun panahong mei pag-asa pa ang Beda makahabol? and to think un huling free throw nya ibblock sana ni Menor (oo, napikon din siguro dahil nga pumasok lahat ng tira)...

Purefoods loses streak to Red Bull. Ok lang sana, pero bakit sa Red Bull pa?! paksyet. ok rin lang naman sana Red Bull, kaso ayaw ko talaga kei Pennisi eh. tangna nun. Dahil sa kanya kaya ndi sumisikat un ibang local players na dapat mei playing time, tulad halimbawa ni Ken Bono na mistulang tagapagpasikip lang ng bench ng Alaska (dahil mataba xa, oo, pero dahil din loaded na frontcourt nila). Para tuloy parating mei import ang Pilipinas sa international ballgames, kasama un kalbong puti na un...

Boston loses perfect record to Orlando. Nagpakitang gilas, hinabol ang 20 points, pero siguro there's room for just one miracle per game. Humabol na sila ng 20 points, umasa pa sa game- winner si Paul Pierce? Gago din. Oh well...

Lakers trade F Brian Cook and G/F Maurice Evans to Orlando for F Trevor Ariza. Di ko alam kung paano titingnan to positively. In terms of production, ndi mafi-fill ni Ariza un contributions ni Cook at Evans. Its a good deal for Orlando, bad, I think, for the Lakers. Siguro it frees up salary cap space, and that may be what matters. besides, aun nga, playing time. for the careers of Cook and Evans, good na rin siguro since it might give them better playing time. Pero di rin eh. Si Ariza di rin makakapaglaro sa Lakers. Para lang silang naglaro. Baka trade bait? Kun meron sigurong desperado makakuha kei Ariza. Crush? haha... Ewan. Labo talaga nun.


Arce Dairy Almond and Nuts (un ata pangalan nun. basta masarap) + Nachofast meal + Icebergs Oreo Brownie Split ([homer voice] hmmm.... Oreo Brownie...) = kabusugang ikakasuko ng tyan ko, at bonding sa CR. nagtitipid kami, di na rin naman ganun kabigat un ginastos namin. ata. 3 establishment kasi pinuntahan namin na less than 200 lang ginastos namin eh. Pero suma total ganun din ata ginastos namin. Saya naman. hehe... Dami namin nasubukan. Dalawa lang pala. Pero at least, di ba, di naman sa lahat ng araw na lalabas ka eh makakasubok ka ng dalawang bagay sa isang araw lang.

Webam naming kinain ng daga ang wire para ito'y maputol = naayos ko! haha.. .akalain mo un? matinding wire-connecting skills ang kinailangan ko. not to mention wire-finding skills. tanginang un, andami pala wire sa ilalim ng matabang itim na wire nun... But what matters is that it's operational. pde na ulit ako magbenta ng katawan ko sa internet habang sumasayaw sayaw sa harap ng webcam ko. yahoo!!! cge na cge na, fine. wag nyo na imaginin. di ako marunong sumayaw. feeling ko lang accomplishment un pagkakaayos ko sa kanya at fully operational xa. pangit nga lang un mga nakalabas na wire na ndi ko naman maiwasan dahil sa nun kinabit ko eh kinailangan ko ang tulong ng electrical tape, na syang naging dahilan kun bakit di ko na maibalik sa dating ayos un... [go! depensa!]

ayun. sana magkatrabaho na ko. ayoko na dito sa bahay. gusto ko, pero ayoko nang nasusumbatan ako ng mga magulang ko dito. si ate balak magsapalaran sa Singapore. ako din. pero sa susunod na. pag mei pera na ko siguro. sa ngayon, pde na siguro tong mga inaaplyan ko. sa friday interview sa Gawon. english tutor. hehe... pera pa rin un. dayshift naman. ayoko na maging mapili. kung eto kailangan ng Pilipinas (naks), eto na lang gagawin ko muna. mag-iipon na muna ako at sa susunod na mangangarap ulit. kaya wag aasang manlilibre ako sa unang sweldo kong maaaring muling matanggap. hangga't wlang 60K sa account ko, ndi ako manlilibre.:p haha..

pero bago ang lahat ng yan, bibili muna ako ng nba live 07. sabi ni imon pangit daw 08. eenjoyin ko muna 07. hehe... sana mei mas mura sa 300 na binebenta ng galle sa kin kahapon.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

One More Chance

Rating:★★★★★
Category:Movies
Genre: Drama
eh sa inabangan ko eh... haha... sa gateway ko pa pinanood kasama si che...:p

John Lloyd: Typical lalaki. Controlling to some extent, practical to the point of insensitivity, pero kei Bea umiikot ang buhay. Judgmental din to some extent, siguro dahil na rin sa cloud na na-cause ng sakit na dinaranas.

Bea: Typical babae. Sa sobrang pagmamahal sa partner nya, kinakalimutan nya ang sarili nya. sa pagpili nyang umikot ang buhay nya kei John Lloyd, halos pinipigilan nya na ang kaligayahan nya. AT, pag mei problema, ayaw mag-share sa partner... gusto nyang sarilihin na lang ang problema kahit na ndi na nya kaya para lang ndi xa kaawaan o para lang maipakita na kaya nya naman.

eto lang yan eh:

Maja: mahal mo ba ako?
JL: alam mo namang mahal kita eh..
Maja: eh xa ba mahal mo?
JL: ..... ayokong makita kang nasasaktan.
Maja: (extends hand to cover JL eyes until it closes) para kung masaktan man ako, ndi mo makikita...

un lang.:p

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

...bata, bata, anu gusto mo maging paglaki mo?...

parang nakakapeste na pag tinatanung ako nyan nun bata pa ko..


pero ngayong hindi ko pa rin alam kung anung trabaho na ang dapat pinapasok ko, unti unti ko nang naiisip na importante palang magkaron ng ambisyon iba sa "sana manalo ako sa lotto". Iba na yung habang nag-aaral ka eh hinahasa mo ang galing mo sa isang paksa at pagdating ng kolehiyo eh pagtibayin ito at bigyan ang sarili ng kredibilidad para pagtapak mo sa totoong mundo eh hindi ka nangangapa sa gusto mo gawin sa buhay...


ako? eto. walang trabaho pero mapili. binigyan ng malaking sweldo, inayawan kasi nakakabobo. nakakuha ng trabaho para sumulat, aayawan dahil kakain ng buhay. 60pages in 2weeks as starter, 150 minimum as regular? ayoko namang uuwi ako sa bahay eh trabaho pa rin gagawin ko... kaya nga uwian eh. buti pa pag-aaral, mei bakasyon, eh eto? tama na siguro freelance muna habang nagmumuni-muni sa mga gustong gawin sa buhay...


akalain mo un, dapat palang seryosohin un tanung na un? yun pala magbibigay ng direksyon sa bata sa buhay na tatahakin nya...


at nalaman ko un ngayong nakatawid na ko sa kalsada ng oportunidad na tinatatawag nating edukasyon. mahirap pa rin naman kun nakatawid ka na eh babalik ka pa, lalo na't hindi mo pa rin alam kung anu bang liko ang babalikan mo sa kalsadang un...

Sunday, November 11, 2007

...the makati adventure part 2...

sa makati, parati ako naliligaw... walang isang punta na ndi ako naligaw... nun tinawagan ako ng writers.ph na bumalik sa kanila, naisip kong siguradong ndi na ko maliligaw, dahil alam ko na ang pupuntahan ko...


pero ndi pala kaligawan ang magiging problema ko nun araw na un, kundi chorizo.



oo chorizo... chorizong ginawang longganisa ng katulong namin... akalain mo ba namang un original Cebu chorizo na paisa-isang hinihiwa hiwa para gumawa ng sangag eh ginawang ulam at sinabay sabay lutuin ang 8 piraso? ako naman si gago, ayaw magsayang ng pagkain. inubos ko un isang buong piraso...



eto na ang adventure...



Rosario pa lang, kumikirot na yun tyan ko... naisip ko, sige, kaya yan... para yan lang eh... mula pagkabata kinakaya ko naman magpigil ng buong araw, anu ba naman ang pagkakaiba ng araw na to?

G-liner. nakatayo ako. mejo nagbabadya ang bwakanginang tyan ko... pero sige.. kayanin... malamig ang pawis ko, pero sige.. "it's just a phase..."


bumaba sa Galle, tumawid at nag-antay ng bus na papuntang Ayala para kun makatulog man ay di ganun kalayo ang babalikan....


10mins.. la pa rin... peste...


susunod na bus, kahit ano pa, sasakay na ko... nahihirapan na kong palakad lakad para mabaling ang atensyon ng katawan ko sa nagbabadyang jebs..



ayun. sakto. Ayala. sakay na ko, umupo sa isang sulok na pinagsisihan ko din. ang natatanging bintanang maliit na katabi ko eh sakto ang mukha ni sam milby. nahaharang ang view ko sa lugar na kinaroroonan ko... pero lakas loob pa rin akong natulong dahil baka mei sumilip na...


buendia station. tsambang narating ko at nagising ako... nahihirapan na talaga ko... una na dibdib ko sa paglakad... di ko pa alam sasakyan ko... nagtanung pa ko... ang 2 jeep na naabutan kong walang laman eh kala mo nilanggam lang sa biglaang dami ng taong sumunod sa pagtawid ko... ako pa naubusan ng pwesto.


hindi ko na kaya. sa shell na ko makikipagsapalaran... bibili ako ng tissue. oo, kadiri. tissue lang kaibigan ko... ayaw ko man, kadiri man, pero putangina, buti na un kesa binti ko maramdaman ang maduming tsokolate (yak.. daming pde description eh...)...


ang shell pala ay mei promo ulit na nagbebenta sila ng die cast models ng ferrari... akalain mo ba namang un mama sa harapan ko eh sobrang tagal pang pumili...gusto ko itapon un isandaan ko at sumigaw ng "keep the change!!" para lang makatakbo na ko pero tyinaga ko... matapos bilhin ang kaibigang tissue, antagal nanaman ng inantay ko para sa CR na wala namang sumasagot sa kin.. paglabas ko at sinilip ang CR ng mga babae ay parang mei "hallelujah" sa background ng isip ko dahil nakabukas ng cubicle at walang tao... pero inisip ko na lang na baka mei emergency na kelangan magCR na babae at ndi makapasok...


pinigil ko na lang ulit... pero sa jeep, ayun, bawat tigil nararamdaman ko ang pagkatok sa tyan ko... kaya pagdating sa kanto, pinili ko na lang sa petron maglabas ng sama ng loob kesa sa opisina na nasa kabilang street lamang...





peste... allergic na ata ako talaga sa makati.... aberya talaga parati...




Friday, November 2, 2007

...@Sbarro...




2 megapixel camera nga, wala naman silbi... hirap magpose, madalas pang out of focus... oh well...:p

...the makati adventure (ang pakikipagsapalaran ng isang mangmang sa pinuntahang lugar)...

<delayed blog... di ako nakakagamit ng comp eh>


          Every time going to makati is my first time. "First time" ang parating dahilan ko kya ako late sa kahit anung appointment ko.. Di ko kasi alam ang tamang babaan o tamang sakayan. Dahil dito, nilalakad ko na lang ang Makati, iniisip na mas mararating ng paa ko ang lugar na pupuntahan ko kesa ng jeep,fx,bus,o taxi na kailangang sumunod sa traffic rules ng Makati na sila sila rin lang ang nakakaintindi..        


         Minsan, bibisitahin ko si che sa ojt nya.. Sa Rufino daw, paglampas lng ng Paseo de Roxas.. Sumakay ako ng jeep mula Edsa at paulit ulit na sinabi sa driver na sa rufino ang baba ko.. Oo naman ng oo un loko, tapos nun tila dulo na ng walang hanggan, nagtanung na ko kung san un. Saka lang sinabi sa kin ni kupal na dapat kanina pa ko bumaba. Kaya ayun. Sa mei makati med na ko pinababa.. Kun di pa trapik, di pa ko ibababa.. Nilakad ko nang nakatingala ang Ayala ave kakahanap sa nalampasang Rufino, at ayun, nakita ko din..      


           Minsan naman, pupunta ako sa Paseo de Roxas para mag-apply. Oo, alam ko na nabanggit na kanina ang nasabing street, pero eto ako'T nakalimot.. Mula glorietta, lumabas akong ayala ave at nagsimulang maglakad. Iniisip ko kasing Paseo un huling intersection sa ayala. Pagdating ko ng ayala triangle, naisip kong mag-jeep na lang dahil malayo pa ang dulo. Tingala nanaman pagkalampas ng unang intersection (Na lingid sa kaalaman ko NUNG PANAHONG YON ay Paseo na) at nang marating ang dulo at walang nakalagay na pangalan ng street ay nagpanic ako na di pahalata. Naliligaw nanaman ata ako. Para di magago sa labas, di ako nagpahalatang ligaw. Nang bumaba ang mga kasama ko sa jeep ay bumaba din ako,pero di ko alam kung anung sulok ng makati un.. Taxi ang katapat papunta Paseo. Salamat sa anghel ko na nung panahon na yon ay nasa katauhan ng isang babaeng bigla na lamang bumaba sa likod ko tungo sa building na kinaroroonan ko. Perfect timing. Salamat ulit Lord.Ãœ        


        minsan ulit, ok na ang araw, dahil alam ko na ang pupuntahan ko gawa ng "Prior experiences". Nasabihan ako ng tito ko na bisitahin ang pinsan ko sa makati med dahil naconfine ito. Binisita ko sya matapos ang pinuntahan kong interview. Sa pagdalaw ko, nautusan nya ko bumili ng subway sa rcbc plaza. Tatawid lang ako, at pati un ay alam ko. Un nga lang, di ata talaga pde lumampas ang isang araw nang hindi ako naliligaw. Of all places na maliligaw ako: sa loob pa mismo ng makati med. Peste kasi un 2 exit na elevator eh.. 2 tao ang sinundan ko para lang makalabas,ngunit pareho nila akong binigo..lumusot pa ko fire exit pra kunwari alam ko kun san ako papunta..    


        Hindi bago ang araw na to.. Well, siguro m bago,kasi di ako nalate sa interview ko, at dalawa ang pupuntahan ko ngayon. Para prepared,tinanung ko na sa tatay ko na dating nagtatrabaho sa makati kun san ang mga lugar na pupuntahan ko at nagresearch na din sa lumang "ins & outs" nya ng mga kalsada.. Kinabukasan maaga akong umalis,at dahil nasimtulate ko na ang trapik, naisip kong maigi na sumakay sa bus na aircon kahit trapik kesa magMRT.. Sa Buendia ako dapat bumaba.. Habang nagbabasa ng "Stainless Longganisa" ni Bob Ong,naisipan kong matulog na muna. Pamulat ng mata ang unang salitang nakita ko ay "Buendia"..inisip ko 2loy na antayin na lang tumigil ang bus sa tamang baban. But no, naisip nyang sa ayala na tumigil. Inisip ko na magjeep papunta makati ave,kaso trapik sa ayala. Plan b: bus papunta buendia, tapos lakad to makati ave. Trapik din. Nilakad ko na lang. At akalain mong anlayo pala nun. Pag nagddrive kasi ako parang anlapit lang eh.. Mei terminal sa kanto,pero pinili kong di na sumakay dahil nga feeling ko  kasi malapit lang.:p ayun, matapos ang paglalakad ng sa init ng araw habang naka-itim, malapit na ko sa unang kanto. at akalain mong ndi pa pala yun ang makati ave... isang kanto pa pala... peste... napalayo nanaman.... matapos ang interview na nagtagal ng mga 30mins lang ata, umikot na ko at nagsayang ng oras dahil 2pm pa ang susunod kong interview... ang address naman ay rufino corner salcedo... rufino alam ko dahil ang kantong un ay  ang building ng ojt nila che, samantalang sa isang dulo nun ay ang Lyceum kun saan  nabibisita si Kuya Ags pag napapadpad ako sa Makati. so naisip kong sa Ayala ave tuntunin ang daan. malaking pagkakamali pala yun... ang salcedo pala ay malapit pa sa makati med, na mga 15mins ko ata nilakad mula Ayala Ave...



          Pag nag-aaply tuloy ako ng trabaho sa Makati parang sayang parati ligo ko... kung di sa MRT o sa byahe, sa lakad....



          At least parating basa buhok ko... yakk.. haha.... at parating mei design na bilog o oval sa bandang harap ko o kaya nama'y isang malaking tila pakpak na sinasakop ang kalahati ng likod ko na darker shade lang ng kulay ng damit ko sanhi ng pawis. yakkk...

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

...mentos...




sige nga... makipagpaligsahan ka sa paggawa ng bagay bagay sa pamamagitan ng nginuyang mentos..:p

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

random pix...




oo na, nag-away kami... pero ok na... sabi ni che post ko daw pix namin bilang proeba.:p haha.... ung ndi kilalang tao, utol nya...

...blog, tong-its, kimi and WORK...

<background cheer: go! depensa!!>
away blog walang mapapala. lilinawin ko lang, di ko ipiapaalam sa mundo ang hinanakit ko sa buhay, dahil alam ko namang wala silang magagawa para maresolbahan ang problema ko. pag oras lang ang kaibigan mo, at wala kang magawa sa buhay, kakausapin mo na lang ang sarili mo. "blog" ang pakikipag-usap ko sa sarili ko. ngayong binabasa mo ito, iyon ay marahil isa ka sa mga taong ito:

!.  wala ka rin magawa at gusto mo ring mangialam ng buhay ng mei buhay
2. interesado ka talagang malaman ang buhay ng taong pinag-babasahan mo ng blog
3. natuwa ka minsan sa pagsusulat ng taong ito kaya naisip mong basahin ang iba pa nyang ginawa
4. natuwa ka sa title, kala mo mei sense.
5. kaaway mo sa pulitika ang taong ito kaya gusto mo hanapan ng butas para masiraan
6. stalker ka.
7. trabaho mo talagang magbasa ng blog at i-ban ang mga miyembrong bastos mag-blog.


ang blog ay ginawa ko. pero naseio pa rin kun gusto mo basahin. kung #2 o #3 ka ngayon, maraming salamat. pero choice mo naman ulit kun maaapektuhan ka, kun magrereply ka, tutulong ka, o kun anu pa man. kun wla naman nagbabasa nito kundi ako lang, wala rin problema. basta nailabas ko ang naisip ko. ang punto, ang blog ay hindi nangangalabit. kun nangalabit man ito, tao pa rin naman ang pipili kun lilingunin ito o ndi... kya di ko ipinagmamalaki sa mundo ang mga problema ko sa buhay. sa sarili ko lang. bahala na ang tao kun gusto nya makialam.

pero di ako galit. gusto ko lang sabihin yan. sayang eh... defensive pa naman ako... hehe...labyu beh... at di tulad ng ibang nasabi, sinabi ko na yan bago pa mailagay dito...


after word wars, picture picture ulit. and we move on....


mei tuna sashimi tatay ko sa bahay. sayang naman kun di gagawin pulutan. buraot naman kun kwentuhan lang kami kasabay ng inuman, kaya nag tong-its kami! haha.... matagal na ko di natatalo at pag kinakapos na ko ng funds eh nagiging source of income ito... pero nun binigyan ako ng pera at nagsugal ako gamit ito, ayun, nabawasan pa.... greed nga naman... peste....



news of the week: Kimi Raikkonen snatches F1 title from promising young Lewis Hamilton and defending champion Fernando Alonso by the slimmest of margins: 1 point.


exciting kaya... kahit mei tama ako gusto ko abangan eh... ang galing kasi 3rd si Kimi sa standings tapos 2 "ifs" lang ang chance nya para manalo xa ng championship. un lang, nadali nya un 2 "ifs" na un... mahusay... ok sana si Lewis manalo kasi F1 history un, rookie-champ, youngest pa... basta wag lang si Alonso. yabang eh.... kahit na nakakatamad manood ng F1 minsan, exciting ngaung wala na si Schumi... walang matinding lamang sa standings... nakakatuwa kasi kailangan bawat point nitong huling race ng season... asteeg.... hehe....


nakarinig nanaman ako ng sermon.... ang pihikan ko kasi sa trabaho eh... pang-call center nga lang ata talaga trabaho ko... kun san san ako nag-aaply lahat "tawagan ka na lang namin" pero bago un ang pinaka huling linya sa kin "we will review this, because I don't think your course is in line with what we are looking for" normally sa HR post. ayaw ko na ng CSR. peste eh. nakakabobo. MedRep naman, ok sana, ako lang tong gago na ganito ang minsang ginawa:

HR: "are you willing to be assigned to anywhere in the country? for example, three years in Cabanatuan?"

me: "I'd like to answer yes, but no. I quit my first and only job because I didn't have enough time for my family and friends due to the night shift. By being assigned to a new place, I could easily say that I would take it as an adventure, but at the same time, I am aware that saying and doing are two different things. I once left a promising start in my previous occupation due to having no time with those people who matter to me, so I fear that I might end up doing the same here."


sinabi ko sa magulang ko at iba tito, ndi daw ako makukuha sa ganun. alam ko. kun HR din ako di ako kukuha ng taong ndi pala sigurado kun magatatagal xa eh... baka gastos lang sa min... pero pota, kun maging HR ako gusto ko pa rin i-consider un... i don't like the idea of sucking up to the company you're applying for to get the job... in all honesty i say what i want to say so that if ever i get hired, they know the type of person i am....


but frankly that's not getting me anywhere right now... the thing that i'm sure of right now is that MedRep is a 25% possibility, CSR is 1%, HR is 50% possibility, writing is 25% possibility, and others would be at 24% for me.... kaso sa totoong buhay: MedRep 30% (depende sa lugar at dahil mapili ako...half-hearted talaga ko.. kotse lang habol ko dun...), CSR 68% (dahil kahit high school pde na), and others 2%...


pero pota, pag mei opportunity ulit na kumatok, tatanggapin ko na.... kalilimutan ko na muna ang putanginang prinsipyo nang pagiging tapat sa gusto mo talagang sabihin at sisipsip na lang ako sa ina-applyan ko para lang makakuha na ng trabaho... kun sa ibang lugar man eh titiisin ko na lang.... kesa araw-araw kang masumbatang walang silbi sa bahay pero sa ibang tao nagsisilbi...

Saturday, October 13, 2007

...susuko ka na lang ba...?

Peste. di ako mkatulog. sabi ko bukas na magreply pero eto ako't nakahiga sa kama,nag-aantay ng reply. malungkot ako. dismayado. galit siguro. pero sigurado ko lang,di ako masaya.


matutuwa ka ba sa ganitong buhay?:

---walang trabaho pero araw araw pine-pressure na magkaron.
---Walang pera dahil walang trabaho.
---Nakasira ng dalawang sasakyan na sa parehong magulang.(1 each)
---Takot mag-aral dahil takot mapahiya.
---Mei mga tumitingala't humahanga pero wala namang ipagmamalaki.
---Graduate pero tila walang wastong trabahong pwedeng pasukin.
---Mei minamahal pero mas matimbang ang hiya nito kaysa sa sariling nyang kapakanan.

Susuko ka na lang ba? Ako parang gusto na.

Isa na lang nagpapasaya sa kin,un ay un mei minamahal at mei nagmamahal. Alam ko madami na kaming sakripisyo sa bawat isa pero sa pagdedesisyon talaga sa mga bagay bagay mejo nahihirapan akong umintindi. Ewan. Gago din siguro ako, di ko sinabi lahat nang to nun magkaharap pa kami. Duwag nga siguro ako. Isang gagong nanghihingi ng pawang katotohanan sa sinisinta, pero di naman kayang tanggapin ang katotohanang ibinibigay nya, at di naman kayang magpahiwatig ng katotohanan sa tamang oras. Peste. Ambobo ko.

Sa lahat ng pangyayari sa buhay ko, parang isa na lang ang umiiral ng maayos. Tapos ngayon naiipit nanaman sa isang hangganang di mo malaman kung sino ang tama sa mali. Maghiwalay man kami, ndi naman kami magiging mas maayos na tao o ka-relasyon dahil pareho naming iniisip na tama ang panig namin sa kaguluhang to.

Peste. Dito ko lang pala gagamitin ang apat na taong pamimilosopiya sa kolehiyo. Sa pagmuni-muni ng buhay na di malaman kun san tutungo. Buti kung kumikita ako dito.

Monday, October 8, 2007

...failure...

I once said that death is my biggest fear. Why? I don't know. I fear the unknown: do devout Muslims go to heaven? Are devout Christians reincarnate? Would Buddhist monks be rewarded by Allah? What happens after you die? Is it complete darkness, or do we wake up as a completely different person? So many questions one might be able to answer after he dies.    


Right now I'm jobless. I left my call center job because it doesn't feel right. I studied 4 years of philosophy only to answer calls and taking crap from racist Americans who are too lazy, if not stupid, to read their contracts before they sign it. Now, after a month being laid off, I'm almost desperate finding a job. "Candidate must possess high scholastic records". I don't have that. I spent my college life serving a community that I grew to love, yet I feel that love went unnoticed. So many people believed that I could be the next president of AB, and I worked  towards fulfilling that trust given to me. Apparently, those "many people" were not enough for me to win that position. I spent my years trying to serve that community because I knew I wouldn't be able to get such high grades. I focused on other things. Now, it seems to haunt me. People I served who I thought would be able to help me get somewhere seems lost. Sometimes, I refuse to seek help because of pride. As a result, I am nothing more than a satisfactory Philosophy graduate who has no job and only has a brief stint in a call center to mention as his job experience.


"Mag-aral ka na nga lang ulit! Mag-law ka na. Kesa wala ka namang ginagawa dito sa bahay. Papaaralin ka na lang namin ulit habang kaya pa namin. Wala pa sa mga pinsan mo ang mei ipagyayabang talaga."   


i wanted to pursue law. I really did. But I think after considering my life in college politics and those I learned in Philo, the whole point of me going to law school was gone. I know law is not all about politics, but my drive in entering law was trying politics out. Now that that's gone, I don't think its still for me, law, that is. Maybe I'm also afraid of failing the bar exams.


Now, thinking about it, death isn't my biggest fear, failure is. Failure by not meeting expectations set by people for me. Failure by not achiving my dreams. Failure by not living a better life than my parents.


Dying as a failure.


Now I understand that that is my biggest fear. And if  pressure could kill, I'm almost as good as dead. 

...honesty: best virtue?...

Would you want to hurt the one you love?


About honesty and truth, there are several words to live by. Let me try to enumerate some: 


"the truth shall set you free"


"honesty is the best policy"


"truth hurts"


"what you don't know will hurt you"


"walang sikretong hindi nabubunyag"


minsan,nag-away magulang ko. Nagdududa na baka mei iba sya.


Ma: "Sabihin mo lang totoo,hindi naman ako magagalit eh.. Gusto ko lang malaman totoo."

pa: "oo na, sige. Merong iba."

Ma: "hayuup! (Beats pa's chest while crying)"


...and that was the start of the never ending trial of Arturo Lozada. A "Not guilty" plea is always a lie for the accuser, and most of the time, it is. Once, pa confided to me his philosophy(in this context,used as 'Way of life') that "Kung makakalusot, eh di ok." sometimes, i would like to believe that had he not admitted his relationship with that other woman and just put a stop to it, they would not go through what they are going through right now.. But then again, that's their problem. My dad is to selfish to let go of one of them because, he said, he has 2 kids with that woman.. However, most of the time, you would doubt that that is his main reason. On the other side of things, my mom refuses to give everything a rest. Though at times her hunches are correct, by not giving it a rest, she's looking for trouble she doesn't want to have. Its pretty messed up, and everything started with admitting something.

Now, on my own part, che and i sometimes do have our differences. Most of the time, i blame her because she doesn't say what she truly feels while i lash out everything i feel. Now, its improving. She does say what she truly feels. And there are times that i don't feel too good about it. Honesty's so freakin double edged. What the hell is it good for if it just hurts either way?

Monday, October 1, 2007

...accidents accidents....

Overjoyed by the DLSU win, my dad, his bro, his bro's girlfriend and I, had about 2 buckets of beer at Rasa's.. after that, tongits with cousins and titas + drinks... my ICT friend's birthday was also on that day... though i did not commit myself to going, but for old time's sake...


going home, driving with alcohol in my veins, i was with 2 of joey's friends... i know the road home, so i passed the 2 others i was on a convoy with... i stopped at a traffic light. and they caught up to me.. one of them kept honking his horn, so i moved forward...



i hit a freakin steel wall... road was under repair. i didn't see. my window tint was too dark and my freakin clutch wasn't working fine. i hit the brakes, but since i couldn't shift back to neutral or back to my first gear, my car still jumped a bit forward, so one of those walls fell down on my hood, smashing my windshield. it also dented the paint job on my hood. f*ck it... the only thing that was running through my head was that i already wrecked a car before... not again...


hay.... kung mamalasin ka nga ba naman o... pag-uwi ko nagsabi agad. nagdrive ako pauwi nan unti unti lumalaki butas ng windshield ko dahil nalalaglag sila.. bawat lubak, bawat humps, mei nalalaglag... bits ng bubog kumakalat sa kin... di ko tinanggal salamin ko kahit na sobrang labo na nya dahil baka mei pumasok na bubog sa mata ko... paksyet tlga... tapos alam pala nilang mei problema un clucth... sinabi sa kin tapos na lahat... kun alam ko di sana di na ko tumuloy... tangna tlga...

Sunday, September 30, 2007

..."why are they flying high? because there's no one up there to shoot them down"...

DLSU - ADMU part 5. Sudden death sunday. Gate attendance a whopping 23,000, beating the previously held 20,000 people back in DLSU - ADMU finals game when ADMU broke the 5-peat bid by DLSU. Upper B tickets were being sold by scalpers for 1,200, while patron seats came to as much as 6,000 (and some people actually buy them...)... i sold mine to esme and joe, esme gave the price of 500 for both upper a tickets, in addition, reserving good seats for us..


joe: dude, you're not wearing blue!
volt: my dad wore my green shirt. see?
joe: are you medium? i'll buy you a green shirt once my parents get here.


and he did. mei uniform na ko sa DLSU games. ateneo kept chanting "wrong spelling" while la salle chanted "NU" so as not to be outdone... it was a seesaw battle, runs made by DLSU to start the first, but run made by Ateneo to end it, so score was close. Ateneo held the lead for a while, but after an offensive outburst, DLSU got the lead back.

eto na. halftime break. in spurts, Ateneans chanted "wrong spelling" to the DLSU pep squad. once Ateneo was up, someone from the middle of the DLSU crowd rolled open a huge tarp which was about 4 feet tall and was held by about 10 people in length... it read:

"#392 #488 'nuf said!"

the rowdy Ateneo crowd was humbled for a few moments... and thought of another chant: "Suspended!!" sayang... di ko agad naisip un banner ko...

"Suspended nga kami, nag-CHAMPION ba KAYO?"

anyway, in the game of runs, Ateneo made their final push through free throws, while la salle kept it close by missing their charities... but just when it seemed DLSU can't make a shot, Cholo Villanueva came through with crucial baskets that gave cushion to the DLSU lead. i saw the title for this blog in form of a shirt of a girl in front of me... the game wasn't over til it's over, as Baclao made a 3-pointer to cut the lead to 2.. casio made good on both his free throws which basically gave the win to DLSU...


3 - 2 is the final count for the season 70 showdown between the two teams... 3 should be greater than 2, but only 2 games mattered most....


after-game party showed Rasa's Araneta filled with overjoyed La Sallites outside while dejected Ateneans were either inside or at Dencio's... their cheers when Atenean friends went over? "Go NU!!!" or "Ang cold cold nya!!!".. haha...

UAAP basketball... makes grownups act their most childish.... haha....


La Salle Uncle (no, not the manager): dpat pala next game lower box bilhin natin dahil UE kalaban
voLt: tama! malamang di nila kaya bumili ng tickets para dun!
chorus + high five: nyahahahahaahahahahaha....

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

..."wait for our call by 5pm next day"...

once you hear that line, look for another job... thank you McDonalds for teaching me that...

 

applied for work at Makati for a MedRep position... ok sana, ownable car, good training etc... i don't know where i messed up... i wanted that job mainly because of the car, but practically because i hated to go back to the call center industry... i passed the IQ test, my seatmate also did (ndi ako nangopya, kapal ng mukha nyo) and we were the only two who did in our batch... pinabalik ng 1:30PM, only to be called for the interview at 4PM...

 

"willing ka ba ma-assign anywhere in the country?"

"i want to answer yes, but i have to say no. i quit my job because it was ruining my relationships with other people, and if i get assigned to another place, i know i wouldn't like that.. sure, adventure is good, but my relationships would again be compromised.."

 

"honesty is good. (jots something down)"

 

if it was good, how come i get the "call you next day" line and not the exact date of when i should come back? hm... was it too much talking on my part? if only i could know... para naman ndi ganun sagot na matanggap ko next time i apply for a job... nakakasira din pala ulo walang trabaho... sana kasabay ng sem break un pagkawalang trabaho ko... ndi ganito.... syet...

 

nakikibum ako sa lyceum makati library ngayon, walang puntahan eh... mei klase si kuya ags kaya nagsasayang ako oras kakablog at kakaapply ng kun anu anung trabaho sa net... wag magulat kun san tayo magkabanggaan... mei nakasabay akong tga-ust socio kanina eh.. nakalimutan ko pangalan pero familiar face... si grace aguilar din ng eco nakasalubong ko nun umagang naghahanap ako ng printan ng resume...

 

 

hirap maging tanga sa makati... nakarating ako ng yakal street, somewhere na mejo magulo na at tila patungo nang pasay, paseo de roxas lang naman pupuntahan ko... layo na nga ng nilakad ko, nagtaxi pa din ako para lang makarating sa paroroonan.... paksyet...  tpos di rin naman pla matatanggap... buhay nga naman.... oh well... animo la salle na lang bukas!!!

Monday, September 24, 2007

survey-like blog..i need to get a job..---masaya (bamboo)

whee!!!!!! pag wla ka nga namang trabaho... haha.... nakikiburaot ng blog ng mei blog..

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, Winamp, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.



If someone says "is this okay?" you say
Because of you (ne-yo) - hm.......

How would you describe yourself?
Hanggang ngayon (kyla) - oi... di naman ako ganun kasawi...  pero oo naman... "ikaw pa rin ang mahal..." nax! haha...

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Broken by you (jordan knight) - wow.. .someone who could break me... haha...:P

How do you feel today?
Never again (justin timberlake) - andami dami ko kanta sa senti napupunta... di nman ako sawi...

What is your life's purpose?
Lonely (public announcement) - o nga... gs2 ko mei kasama... un lang naman purpose ng buhay ko eh... inter-relationships..:p

What is your motto?
Tokyo drift/fast and furious soundtrack - weird... anu na lang sasabihin ng mga nagiging pasahero ko?

What do your friends think of you?
stick around (azure) - ows? tlga lang ah?:p

What do you think of your parents?
the band (bamboo) - you figure it out....

What do you think about very often?
black balloon (googoo dolls) - hm.....

What is 2 + 2?
makes me wonder (maroon 5) - sabi sa inyo ayoko sa math eh...

What do you think of your best friend?
i hope it's you (ntwine) - cnu ba best friend ko? define best friend muna.:p haha....

What do you think of the person you like?
stars (callalily) - ay grabe naman...

What is your life story?
hopeful (twista feat. faith evans) - hopeful makahanap ng trabaho..:P haha...

What do you want to be when you grow up?
last night (diddy feat keisha cole) - what? gigolo? di nman siguro exactly...:p haha....

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
slide (googoo dolls) - hmmm......

What will you dance to at your wedding?
As long as it matters (gin blossoms) - parang sweet pa rin in a way.... cool din un ah, banda sa wedding..:p

What will they play at your funeral?
someday (nina) - kamusta naman... grabe naman.... asim kahit patay na ko... grabehan...:p

What is your hobby/interest?
gemini (spongecola) - labo. bkit nga ba nasa playlist ko pa to? teka nga....

What is your biggest fear?
anonymous (bobby valentino) - tulad nga ng life purpose, un lang naman gagawin ko sa buhay eh... kya siguro biggest fear is to be anonymous... haha...:p

What is your biggest secret?
amber (311) - "amber is the color of my energy". :p

What do you think of your friends?
barely breathing (duncan sheik) - lalo na pag nautot ako. haha...:P

What will you post this as?
masaya (bamboo) - yep. masaya nga.:p lalo pag wala magawa... haha....


feng.mpg




feng shui po che...

...kalbo + kalat = pido crying = talo...

shet.



i still can't get over it...




parang ndi totoo... talo.... sa mga pesteng un... tantadong refereeng kalbo.... lahat ng mali ng uste xa tumawag.... peste.... hrrrrgggggg.... pero cla rin nagpatalo sa sarili nila... near endgame, hawak ni jervy, nagpalapit ng 2 player dahil nakadikit si arao, wlang lumapit.... upper b kami kitang kita namin na nagtatawag ng tulong si jervy.... walang lumapit... antatamad... stop, tpos ayun, eric salamat drive, baclao follow up... everythin went downhill from then... dylan misses a transition 3, and misses again on another try after a timeout...


naiyak si pido... nabasa ko sa inquirer sports na sabi pala nya sa interview na "basta pagdating ng playoffs, matibay kami, tingnan natin tibay nila"... mayabang siguro pakinggan pero di xa nagaangas nun... maganda run ng uste, maganda last game nila... di lang kinaya makasustain.... mei next year pa naman eh....


"si japs daw atenista girlfriend. malamang sinabihan si japs na pag nanalo uste wala xang popoy* ng isang linggo" -robert [*my translation]


siguro nga... wla un aggressiveness ni japs... off si mirza... ok sana si jervy, wla lang tulong... ganda sana effort ni dylan pero kulang siguro sa minutes dahil na foul trouble... dizon pinasok para manakit.... mirza napakitang rookie xa... canlas nice effort... taylor wlang kasiguraduhan sa gs2 mangyari sa buhay (sori agad kei coach pagtira ng 3)... espiritu inalat... cortez mei silbi lang pag namamasa.... allera ok sana, kaya lang on-off din... ah leche...



basta next game, go la salle ito... match sana ateneo chaka ue, kaya lang ayoko kasi gumanda pa lalo season ng ateneo eh... peste tlga...

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

...15mins, games that matter, chris tiu and "baste"...

IQ test in B.Braun for medical representatives:

I should have been there at 9AM but wasn't able to make it since i was told late, and i fixed my clearance from ICT... additionally, i was wasted.

"come back before 1:30PM for the test."


alone, i walked to the MRT station to o to my mom's office to get my DLSU upper a tickets... as soon as i got there waiting for the train, my mom told me that i'd get it at araneta... again, alone, i walked to shang to burn more time, i ate, bought a leather case for my phone, and bored myself to sleepiness... 1:15, i got back to B.Braun to wait for 1:30... 1:30 came at 1:50PM... IQ test was going to be for 15mins, and whoever passes it could move on to the next tests... scene: wasted, sleepy, and anxious for the game, i had to pass an IQ test in 15mins to move on to the next tests and get hired... no pressure... it was the fastest 15mins of my life... i was about to start test 4 out of 4 when the person came up and asked for our papers... demmit... needless to say, i missed out on that chance, but the good thing about it is that i had the chance to get to the start of the game!

joe, esme's whatever, asked if i wanted to drop by at the Coffee Beanery in Gateway regarding a 1-day hiring of Dell... illogical as it may seem, i told him i'd rather pass on that than pass on the game...



history lesson: every team meets twice during the UAAP season.. FEU beat UST bad in the first game and they beat UST again on a game that could've given us the chance to be 2nd... La Salle was beaten by Ateneo in their first outing to notch their first win against their blood rivals since Norman Black took over as head coach... That did not go without controversy as DLSU asked for a review as Kirk Long(USA) and Zion Laterre(AUS) were on the playing court at the same time at one point of the game, which must not be as only 1 foreign player is allowed on the playing court... on their 2nd meeting, La Salle was out for revenge, but a Yuri Escueta kickout to Chris Tiu for a 3-pointer gave Ateneo a lead La Salle was not able to break... Rico seemed to be fouled before time expired, but no call was made... La Salle just accepted their fate, but that meant Ateneo beating them back to back...


Monday: FEU vs UST for the last slot at the final four, FEU did well in the first quarter... but a 2nd quarter rally gave UST as much as a 22-point lead, a lead UST was able to at least sustain to get the win despite a furious late-game rally by FEU who employed a hack-a-japs strategy...


Tuesday: DLSU vs ADMU. i was sitting right behind the Ateneo bench, having been given a patron seat by Tita Nene... one thing i learned from that game: putanginang gwapo pala talaga ni Chris Tiu... linis ng mukha eh... anyway, Ford Arao proved to be the difference for DLSU as he powered the Ateneo Eagles to their loss... on one sequence, he missed 3 tries: 2 under the basket and his last being about an 18-foot jumper... Jayvee Casio fired on all cylinders on the second half after a poor showing in the first... Cholo is again Mr. Consistency as he anchored the DLSU offense and defense... TY Tang hit his patented stop-and-pop jumpers at the right moments... Ateneo had Nonoy Baclao manning the paint with his excellent wingspan for rebounds and blocks... Yuri Escueta and his butt ugly face still was like a wild monkey playing on the court, but was able to play well at the point... Ateneo big men dominated the rebounding department, and free throws were of opposite outcomes, as Ateneo missed i think just 3 while La Salle missed about 10 of 16... in the dying seconds, Ateneo missed a chance to tie the game on a Jai Reyes floater, but had another chance at a tie as Arao caught it for 2, yes 2, tries right under the basket before someone tapped the ball out, and Jayvee Casio cauht it... he passed to Cholo, who would probably be the best foul shooter on the floor at that time... however, he missed on the first, but made the second... Ateneo had no timeouts left, Jai brought it across, was denied a look as he jumped, so he passed to Zion while he was in mid-air. Zion shot the ball and made it, but it was for 2, the margin was 3, 0.1 seconds remaining, and La Salle finally beat Ateneo this season....


both teams lost to their foes twice this season... but when it mattered most, they pulled off their wins.... and how sweet it is... now, we have a chance to beat the team who made a lucky shot to beat us this season.... i wanna watch the game and shout my lungs out against "that" team...


I don't watch NCAA much... I do only when Mapua is playing... Kelvin dela Pena is a joy to watch, plus Neil Pascual and Joel Banal.. anyway, i also didn't watch their cheerdance competition... Che's sister just told me that San Sabestian mimicked the oh-so-famous "Go Uste" cheer by chanting "Go Baste"... first thing i thought was "yuck." but i thought she was playing... then came the juniors NCAA finals between San Sabestian and Letran...


when you watch games regularly, you'd get to memorize not just the cheers, but also the drumbeats... and while watching the juniors game, i heard the drumbeats that souned so familiar to me.... it was the preparation for "go uste"... demmit... ever think about "identity"? yuck... no offense to people from "Baste", but c'mon... at least have the decency to come up with your own cheer... what's your student population? and no one from your school could think of something original? "go uste" goes like "go uste (3x) go,go, go, (3x) (drumbeat) U (drumbeat) S(drumbeat) T, UST Tigers!"... i would like to wonder what they cheer during the part of "UST" but then again, yuck. basta. shet kayo. kadiri nyo. maisip naman kayo ng sarili nyong cheer. yuck. ue naman naging coach lang si Dindo, pde na gamitin un "Go la salle, go go la salle" na cheer... yuck din. pero magaling team nila. pero kahit pano, swak naman un cheer, un lang naman eh... pero "go baste"? Y-U-C-K.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

...saan pa galing ang mga langgam?...

thesis days...

puyatan blues pag mei papers na hinahabol...

alam mo un feeling na ndi ka pa natutulog tapos parang bigla ka nangangati? kala ko naman ganun talaga pag puyat ka.. pero ndi pala normal un..

minsan nakita ko mga langgam na gumagapang mula sa bookshelf, tapos natitigil ang linya nila sa keyboard... inangat ko tuloy un keyboard, inaasahang makakita ng kapirasong pagkain na siyang maging maaring dahilan ng pagkalanggam...

walang pagkain.

xempre binuksan ko na un keyboard para makita un loob... baka lang naman andun eh...


akalain mo un, andun nga sila. mistulang namahay sa keyboard namin... sandamakmak na langgam na di ko alam kun panu nagawang mamahay sa loob ng keyboard namin... kaya pala bawat letrang pinipindot sa keyboard eh mei konting kirot na nararamdaman... mei langgam palang lumalabas... habang gumagawa ng thesis ay parang sinisipa ko ang punso ng mga langgam... nilinis ko na, pero ngaun andun pa din sila...

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minsan din namili ako ng pagkain... 4 na pack ng lucky me beef mami, 2 potato chips, at isang snaku... dahil nagkakataluhan sa chichirya sa bahay, hindi ko tinanggal sa plastic ang mga pagkain at iniwan ko sa kwarto ko, pinaupo sa tyan ni Bochok (big bear stuffed toy na makikita ang pix sa multiply account ko) at hinayaan ko muna dun...nakain ko na un mga chichirya, tapos minsan naisipan ko kainin un mami... habang hawak ko eh nasaktan ako... kinagat ako ng langgam... langgam na nanggaling sa plastic ng mami... pagbukas ko ng plastic, ayun sila, nagzi-zigzag sa zigzag ng pansit... peste... nakaplastic na nga, nakalagay pa sa plastic ng pinagbilhan ko, pinatos pa rin ng mga peste... syempre tiningnan ko kun nilalanggam din si bochok... ndi naman... hinanap ko dinaanan ng mga langgam, pero ndi ko nakita... pati un chocnut ko dinali din nila... kinanginang mga langgam...

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nanonood ako ng tv, umiinom ng coke o kya iced tea habang sa kabilang kamay hawak ang chichirya of choice... pagkaubos ng lahat ng ito at natutuwa pa ko sa pinapanood ko, ndi ko naibalik at napahugasan ang baso ko... after 1hour lang ng pananatili ng baso kong walang laman kundi ang amoy lamang ng nainom ko na, aun, nagpipista nanaman ang mga langgam... san galing? ewan. parang tumubo lang sila dun..

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saan ba nanggagaling ang langgam at bakit sa kahit anung sulok eh nakakasingit sila nang ndi mo nalalaman? bakit isang barangay na sila kapag nakikita ko at ndi ko man lang nakikitang paisa-isa silang sumusugod? bakit ndi ko nakikita un pila ng mga langgam na dumarating? gusto ko lang kumain nang walang langgam... bakit ba ganun na lang sila kabilis dumating pero kinanginang hirap nilang paalisin? hay...

...blog, joblessness, racism, "kobe", and freakin' 3 pointers...

every monday morning, i get to make a weekly blog... then it just stopped... i quit work, and no, that was not the reason for the blog stoppage... actaully, working was part of the reason.. when you do what you do everyday with everything seemingly staying the same, you too would lose stuff to write about... the "uneventful life", it would seem, is not only limited to the jobless... try waking up to go to work, then go home to sleep all alone in a house made for 5 or more, then wake up just when everyone's back, and then go to your very exciting work of being a "stupid-asian-who-can't-get-anything-done" for Americans who think so highly of themselves but are actually more idiotic than any people on this planet... and they must be the laziest people on earth... why the hell did you think they popularized tv shopping and ebay? exactly so they wouldn't get up off their asses and at least use those two stuff on the lower part of their bodies that we normal people call "legs"... why the hell did webcam vids get so popular? because it's like having sex online... see how freakin lazy those people are? sorry for the bashing nice white people, but this is for all the freakin American racists who never gave much respect to people other than Americans... i thought time has killed you all but still,  you stay and mock every other race in the world... i hope you all die a miserable death...

speaking of freakin Americans, UST is in a must-win situation coming into their match against FEU... that, because Ateneo had the Guy-up-there on their side... and he gave the win to that white boy named Kirk. it was a "Long shot" as PDI described it... then came Kobe... and the news report that "Kobe taught Kirk". i didn't get to hear the whole story but wtf, one lucky shot and you're "that good" all of a sudden? gimme a break...

needless to say, i had to cheer for DLSU on their game against Ateneo for the simple fact that i don't like them, and i do want DLSU to exact revenge on those blue bastards... i wanted Ateneo to lose so bad just because of winning with a lucky fuckin shot and also because it would make the road to the final four or even the finals for UST to be bit easier because then we wouldn't have to worry about Ateneo having a record close to ours...i looked for a green shirt to wear even if i knew i didn't have one (luckily, my dad did) and rushed to Araneta for the first game... 2PM and there are no more seats left in upper A.. there was a patch of yellow, which we expected to be empty after the game was over... but as soon as we (as expected) won the game, green quickly consumed the few vacated seats... luckily, a girl called us to let us know there was a seat available...there were 3 seats between her and another guy... 1 seat was all we needed, and the guy quicly reminded us that there was another person sitting on the two other seats... we said we'd give it to them if they were there.. (we actually finished the game sitting there, no other person went there to take "his" seat. bastard la sallite with no respect for his alum) we cheered the whole time... lead ballooned to about 13.. then came the freakin 3 pointers... yuri escueta, the butt-ugly 3rd stringer last season with the spunk of a big man and a body of a kid, nailed a couple to bring ateneo closer... he set up salamat and  tiu for their share of threes, nkemakolam (hell if i care if i spelled that right or not) made a couple of baskets, and all of a sudden, the sea of green went quiet, the blue bastards got their cheers back.. casio never got his groove until about the final minute where he gave DLSU the lead... tang also delivered a wonderful pass to ilad inside for an and-1 opportunity... but when it all mattered, when it seemed that DLSU has won it, since Ateneo turned the ball over and DLSU was nursing a 1-pt lead, casio's drive was blocked... no fouls called, and Ateneo ran a transition 3-pt shot for Tiu. and whaddayaknow? he nailed it. he fuckin nailed it.. gave Ateneo the 2-pt lead, DLSU no more timeouts, casio had the ball in his hands... he took his usual big-game shot in the form of a turnaround stop-and pop fadeaway. it was short. amid the confusion, rico got the ball, and stuck it in, and gave us all hope that it counted (i saw it was a little bit late, but i was really hoping that it wasn't). rico was pumping his fist, the rest of the team held hands, Ateneans were shaking their hands to motion no basket, and after the 2nd replay was shown, they all went wild... by the third replay, the bench was coming to mid court, and by the time the final score displayed ADMU 89 DLSU 87, the world kinda fell apart in the sea of green... fuckin Ateneo bench were grabbing their jerseys and looked straight at the la salle crowd with all that machismo...

assholes... especially escueta... ugly SOB... save for salamat, tiu, baclao and jai, i hate those blue fuckers... arao's face... arao's everything even if he did improve this season... monfort's takedown of cholo when the latter stole the ball away from him... laterre's kick to ilad's weird face... nkekomakelam's last name spelling... al-hussaini's body hair... kirk long's "hype"... baracosso's promise that is never fulfilled, and whoever is left on that roster.. damn them all... i hope we beat their sorry asses if and when we meet again this season...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

...homer, job quitting/hunting....

The Simpsons' Movie: 20 years in the making...

in the philippines you get to watch movies even before they hit the big screen... i, for one, have already watched evan almighty about 3 weeks ago... but for this stupid movie about a yellow-family in 2D, i can't possibly watch it on TV... although homer made an excellent point at the start of the movie that i was an idiot, watching something and paying for it when i could actually watch the movie for free at home... call me an idiot, but i wasn't going to miss THIS movie on the big screen...

i borrowed money from issa, which is shameful as i already have work and she's still studying... che didn't have money to loan me so i had to dig deep in that "kapal mukha" part of me (which is curiously not that deep) to borrow money from another Simpson fanatic in issa...

all was set... 3pm at metro east... we bought the tickets, gave it to the guard, and just as i was to hold the door for the movie house, a number of people rushed out... i smelled a weird scent coming from inside, and one of the people who went out lamented: "kuya amoy sunog po sa loob..."

WTF?!?!?!?!?!?! i waited so long to watch the movie, had to borrow money, and risk falling asleep on work just so i could watch the freakin movie and this shit happens!! 8 movie houses in the mall, and this fuckin incident had to happen at MY movie, just minutes before it starts... why can't it happen on another day or in another movie house? why why why?!?!?!

thankfully though, before i could kill myself, it was settled, and we came it right before the last trailer was played...

Funny stuff to watch out for (for you simpsons fans who wasted your life not watching it on the big screen):
1. Brokeback scene of 2 policemen..
2. Homer giving the finger to a crowd while going in the sinkhole...
3. Cartoonists losing ideas as to what to cover bart's dick while he was skateboarding naked on the streets of springfield...
4. simpsons look-alike who got arrested after bart drew something over their faces on a poster for wanted individuals...
5. homer's dumbness...


finally, im quitting my job... it might not look good on my resume that i lasted about 3 months on a call center job, but i couldn't bear to take it anymore... you get all the trash the customer feels about the company you're working for and you can't do anything about it... i worked in the student council back in college, and one of the worst part of the job is the freakin bureaucracy.... after leaving that all behind, i thought that was over.. but no... in my work, i get to make a request to another department which i cannot directly call for something a customer requests immediately... if there was a way for me to immediately resolve the problem of the customer, it would be fine for me to stay and live by that "first call resolution" the company is aiming for... but as the company operates this way, i can't possibly resolve it immediately, and would also hope and pray with the customer that this happens as soon as possible...

im am also not a utilitarian... i would rather provide customer care than resolving concerns immediately without having the customer feel good after his/her call... it is through this job that i understood why filipino nurses were said to have soft hearts that's why they are in demand by most patients, but less wanted by employers.. they waste minutes because of care...

working on a nightshift is also a pain... everybody's about to have fun, while you're on your way to work... maybe its not that bad as i get paid more... but then again, living by my thesis regarding the importance of relationships on this lived-world, i can't possibly go on with this...

so after consulting people whose opinions i value, i decided that i should stop with this work and look for another more fulfilling, more challenging work on a day shift... something that could offer personal and professional growth that i could not get from this current job...

wish me luck!:p