Rachelle

(inspired by the works of aby kwe, ged ignacio, kali quiñones, and to some extent, tracy llanera, i decided to make my own declaration of feelings.. hehe..)

you are not my ideal girl.

you're not a bit chubby, you're not petite, you're not a "chinita", you're not flawlessly white, you don't have angel locsin's bod.

you are not the perfect girl.

maalburoto. you ask the silliest questions. you're clumsy. you don't say what you want to say. you spend too much on useless things. you make seemingly illogical decisions. you hate my "philosophizing" everything. you don't eat when you need to. you drink what's not good for you. you're too shy. you're too worried about what other people think. but you are not an idea. you are actual. you are not perfect. you are, after all, human.

and for that, i love you.

i love you because you have accepted all my imperfections. i love you because you put up with my flaws. i love you because you have given me a chance to love someone as true as you. i love you because of your imperfections. i love you because you of your flaws. i love you because you have loved me so dear.

through time, i got to know you, as you have gotten to know me. we have lived through petty arguments, we have lived through some serious mess. what has always kept us going is the feelings we have for each other, and i don't want to lose it. we don't have the perfect relationship, but it is as it should be, as we are both human, we are both flawed. we need things to iron out.

the human life is not complete without struggle. our differences, then, are essential towards completion of this life.

we had our song, "i hope it's you" by ntwine when our relationship was just starting. as it has progressed, i no longer "hope". i now know that it is you.

you are not my ideal girl. you are not the perfect girl. but you are THE girl.

and as the saying goes, "behind the downfall of every man is a woman." i may not have yet reached heights, or i may never reach heights, but if i do, i want you to be my only downfall.

 

my sweetest downfall...

...on smashing stuff, admu-dlsu "magkasangga" game, and tita cory...

vaction was filled with fun and drama. good thing che and i got to watch step up before the vacation, we didn't get the chance to meet again... mar19, wednesday, was my dad's birthday... nothing big, just the bellies of his officemates... his officemates cooked for him, him saying he'd rather give to my uncle what he could spend to host a big party... his workforce wouldn't let his birthday pass without a bash, though, so they decided to bring everything to our place... and we cousins decided to just play tong its till the sun shines. literally. we went up after the newspaper was delivered. at one point, since we were waiting for the money game, we let my brother play. and since he didn't have money, we decided to play strip tong-it... the guy who loses the most takes off one article of clothing... if one of us gets a tong-it, then both the opponents strip off too. if one wins, he gets to have one article back.. it was fun, and we let my brother take off his shirt, slippers, glasses, and necklace.. we didn't have the heart to let him strip bare with the cold weather... funniest thing about it is that i learned that he was sickly thin. i could see his heart beating from across the table...

so next day, we walked from makro cainta to antipolo church... my uncle jun-look-alike uncle was with us... i got blisters on my feet because of a stupid decision of wearing my slippers.. highlight of the night: while walking near the sidewalks, one bystander sitting on the back of a tricycle became wide-eyed and shouted "uy, si jun lozada o!" then everyone had that stare.. good thing it was dark, people didn't believe him... so we were able to avoid commotion (unlike twice in makati when everyone was flocking him and taking pictures with him, salamat peter mara)... so after that, we stayed up till morning again playing tong its with beer on the other hand...

next day, i stayed over my aunt's house a few streets away from our house with my cousins... we stayed up until about 1am, we were all actually sleepy...

the next day, my uncle and cousin still can't walk because of our antipolo march... but we stayed together at an aunt's house for some barbeque... my other cousins also dropped by, and we were having fun... now comes the drama part... mom calls, asking if i was going home, i said yes. that started the downfall of my game... then calls again, telling me to go home, and this time, having no money, i said sure, i'll be leaving. upon arriving home, she rants. i'm sleepy. i'm intoxicated. i just look at her. then i tell her "pde na ko matulog?" then she says "hinde, magsalita ka" so i start talking. then she says "tumigil ka na, lasing ka na." which irritates me even more because she doesn't want to listen. i've got too much damn pride in me that i don't want to just let it pass without her hearing my piece... when she gave me the chance to speak, i took it, but when she took it away, i snapped. she declared: "kung di mo na kailangan ng nanay, sabihin mo lang". to which i replied: "so kelangnan mo pa ba ko dito?" then she repeated her statement. my first reaction was, ok so, maybe it would be better if i just leave, without you having the burden of worrying about me anymore... anyway, she did say before that families live off half of my salary, so i figured, heck, why not try my luck? i sorted out my clothes didn't take a bag, took everything outside, and laid down on the garage. my mother was still shouting, so i smashed my bag where my phone was, and smashed my psp which i was holding by my other hand. just for her to stop and see that i am dead serious that i want her to listen and stop talking. she didn't. my dad dragged her upstairs.. when the coast was clear, i took everything and went back to my aunt's house to sleep there. i opened my phone to find out the lcd was broken. i frantically reached for my psp to see how it was, and upon seeing that the lcd wasn't smashed, it was all good to me... i slept.

the next day, cousins were just mocking our scene (we don't really treat matters seriously. i understand that we're all too emotional that we always make serious matters a laughing matter, because that's where we're good at, laughing and having a good time... hey, even uncle jun's fate didn't escape these jokes...) and we were just going along with our day. i called che, telling her i might take my bike and ride it all the way to their place, but the scorching sun didn't let me go... my mom kept calling, so i decided to just go home and have that talk. we had a long talk, and as parents do all the time, they're going to go on saying the same things over and over like endlessly unless you speak up. to cut things short, we somehow patched things up. che was mad. i wasn't able to call or text her. i didn't have means... i could've called over the phone, but i wasn't able to... so she got really worried especially when it rained at their place... it was my bad, but thinking about it, God's really cool. he made it scorching hot so that i can't go, then made it rain at che's place so that i wouldn't regret not riding my bike all the way there... having made me stay, my mom and i were able to talk, and the rest is history...

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we originally planned to have an ateneo-la salle game for the benefit of the sanctuary fund (which i must make clear that it is not for my uncle alone. my uncle actually doesn't benefit much from that fund, as it is for "legal expenses" which he doesn't need, as his lawyers defending him are working for free. stuff he and his family eat are from monetary donations from other concerned individuals. his expenses for trips are from those who invite him.) scheduled for march 2. everyone was game. then araneta backed out because of the freakin game 7 of the pba finals. it was set for the 16th. everything was fine until alumni pressure clamped down on mr. palou, our contact in ateneo... they asked that it be moved to the 29th... and "incidentally" march 23rd was a game scheduled for ateneo and la salle for the benefit of the pba trust fund...

i don't know now if our game would push through, but as for me, i won't sell tickets anymore... nakakahiya na sa mga sinabihan ko. papalit palit na lang ng dates. para akong nanggagago.. besides, with my phone smashed, i lost all my numbers...

heard that they already announced it to go on the 29th. but we also heard that as a matter of fact, ateneo has pulled out. yet, word out in ateneo is that la salle pulled out. confused? me too. but should there be anyone pulling out, why would it be la salle when in the first place, it was ateneo who was begging for the reschedule despite printed tickets...

on another note, the march 23 game ended in a draw, tied at 90 at the end of regulation. labo.

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i haven't seen uncle jun for a while. last time i think was when his son somewhat celebrated his graduation... then news breaks out that tita cory has colon cancer... its really a tough loss... she was our moral leader... she was there to keep uncle jun fighting... you could see age taking toll on her, but that never stopped her from staying at my uncle's side... but, yes, i think i'd side with kris aquino when she said that God wouldn't let anything happen without a purpose... i hope she stays well though, and i hope she focuses more on her health in the future... it's always good to have her there with uncle jun, but i think she's done more than she can for him...

...matters of speculation...

I think I'm beginning to think like a conspiracy theorist... Speculating on things is just one of the many things you can do other than writing really long replies to other people's blogs... So here's a couple of things I thought up yesterday while doing practically nothing...

 

The Evil Genius

Like it or not, that person in Malacañang is a freakin genius. So I guess it's alright to call her an evil genius, literally. I was thinking she has this all planned up since day one of her presidency. Look, what put her to power were the middle class, the rich businessmen, the military, and the Church led by Cardinal Jaime Sin. So what happens is, she favors the rich people, target "economic growth" to please the middle class who seemingly doesn't really care a lot especially after they already put her to power, and give every military leader a position in the government (check Angelo Reyes, Leandro Mendoza, Victor Corpuz, or whoever it is who was, at some point in his life, serving as a top military-sector official and where they are now.). And then there is the issue of the Church. I was thinking, and this is in no means treated as fact, could it be that she too is behind Cardinal Sin's death? Yeah, I mean, he was really old, and he did have complications with his health, but wasn't it a bit too convenient? All right, I don't have much detail in memory about his death, but I seem to remember that it was speculated as food poisoning. I don't know. But thing is, he wasn't bedridden or something, he just had a lingering kidney problem. And then one day he just didn't wake up. Too sudden, not too far away from Rico Yan's case, but just for pleading a "conspiracy" case, could it be that he was indeed "food poisoned"? Cardinal Sin died before GMA ran again for presidency, but was alive to see her saying on national television that she would not run for office again. So, being the "moral leader" of our country, Cardinal Sin might be one of her critics when she ran again. And being a powerful leader that he is, she might not have won (or cheated the discrepancy) the position with him criticizing her. Now, taking him out, and sucking up to the new bishops, she has the support of the Church.

So, let's have a checklist of the people who rallied victoriously to put the president out of power and see how GMA fares:

Military - loyalty in check.

Middle Class - apathy in check.

Businessmen - businesses in check.

Church - no Cardinal Sin, no people power. New bishops, good friends. Ergo: Support in check.

 

Now, looking at the situation she was in before she was put to power, we turn to the possibility of the Vice President taking power away from her. Erap, Ramos' vice president in his administration, was not the brightest bulb of them all. Eraption and millions of jokes directed at him amused us all and made us believe that Erap was indeed a joke. Yet, the power of the masses whom he "cared" for put him to power. So, when people found a stain in his presidency, they took the streets when senators walked out on the hearing, knowing that an able vice president could replace him. And eventually she did.

So, the vice president has two chances of taking power away from her, one, if people trust him/her enough, or two, if the vice president ran for office. Upon her "appointment" as president of the country, she appointed a respectable leader to be her vice president, Teofisto Guingona Jr. Great, a respectable leader. Yet, someone who would not dare running for presidency because he is too old for it. Scenario number two, check. So she ran for president again, unopposed by her vice president, and took as her running mate a respectable broadcaster who recently entered politics, Noli de Castro. Winnable, yes, but with regards to his capability to govern, a lot of people doubt and criticize him. The guy's only publicly stated English comment was "no one, no one can tell me what to say" and it didn't even seem spontaneous. So, in that case, scenario number one is also in check.

Great, with all the elements of people power in check, she now has insurance that she will stay on as long as she likes.

 

 

Prioritizing Games

Now, as for the Ateneo-La Salle unity game, I could only again speculate. Mr. Palou of the Ateneo, whom my aunt was talking to regarding the game, was very much willing to support the cause. But since the game was cancelled on the 2nd of March, the door was open to politicize the game. Alumni pressure got to Mr. Palou, and he gave in. They cancelled the originally re-scheduled game for the 16th citing all reasons possible (including their players being "academically challenged") but insisted on the game not actually being "cancelled" but rather "moved". They proposed March 29th. They said the 23rd was booked. So now, press release comes out, which says Ateneo and La Salle hooked up for a game for a cause, particularly for the PBA Players Trust fund, which will feature former players from both schools who are now playing in the PBA. It is scheduled for March 23.

Funny, before March 2nd, everything was cooked up for the game we proposed, and this thing about the PBA Trust Fund wasn't discussed all this time. How come it's scheduled at an earlier date than our game? With the news we got that some Ateneo Alumni were spreading word not to support our game, I could only speculate that they're behind the whole "rescheduling to the 29th" gig. Since Ateneo would lose face should they back out from the contest they originally agreed to, they decided rather to move it to a later date. It's somewhat logical to think that the people who would attend the 29th would rather come to the 23rd. For example, me, as a student, only has 120 to spare for a game. Would I choose to come to a game which features new faces, or would I go to a game which features established stars and a genuine rivalry?

And besides, they got free publicity from us spreading word that there's going to be an Ateneo-La Salle gimmick for a cause. With the public anticipating an Ateneo-La Salle event, some might even think that what we were advertising and what they are doing is one and the same. Now, I only hope that the game in the 29th would go successfully despite the current situation.

Oh, and they have yet to publicly announce that the game was moved to the 29th. I'm starting to consider giving the tickets back to Araneta. They might just be drawing.

 

Anyway, everything is just speculation, but really, isn't it fun to consider them true?=P

...unexpected date, slow day...

che and i celebrate something every 11th and 29th of the month... we got together on nov29, with only the two of us knowing it, but eventually, she agreed to spread the word on dec11... so for at least twice a month, we get together for a special date...

yesterday was the 11th [and i totally forgot it was tuesday, when i was supposed to meet someone for a hopefully inspiring conversation]... she planned on surprising me, but she didn't know where my office is... so i just told her to meet somewhere near... then at around 4pm i think, i got a message from my uncle's girlfriend [who i might add is almost as good as an aunt already, considering the duration of their relationship] that says:

"lozada pamangkins!!! sino gusto manood ng earth, wind and fire concert? mei extra two tickets pa ko. sino una magtext."

boom.

che mentioned it was her parents' all time favorite band, and turned out to be theirs too [well, if you get to hear their songs over and over on a regular basis, i think you'd kinda get to like their songs too] and i don't think they're bad either. so what i thought was, that was a great chance for a great date. i texted her, asked for the two tix for us, but she said another cousin texted first, so she could only accomodate one more... so i said i'd rather not take the other one and just have a date somewhere if that's the case... i didn't want to insist and i didn't want my cousin to give his spot up for my girlfriend... but he did... and i don't know how to thank him for that... so it was all set... i didn't tell my girlfriend where we were going until we were with each other already... we drove to cubao [on the beetle whose airconditioning still hasn't been fixed due to everything going on] and decided to have dinner first... we looked at pancake house first [no, we don't normally eat there.. i normally suggest the food court, but she never finishes her food if we eat there... besides, let me be somewhat luxurious at these times, it is our special day, after all.. and all it takes is not eating lunch everyday... haha] to check out if the food was good. everything looked good except for the prices... and she especially had her sights on a PhP700++ rib steak... so we looked elsewhere, decided to drop by other places, we checked out this filipino-dish place, but i said it was kind of redundant seeing that we are filipinos and all the food we eat at home are filipino-dish. eating there is like eating glorified "lutong-bahay"..

we eventually ended up in pizza hut bistro, where the rib steak costs only around 179... we had pasta and cheese puffs[which turned out to be a disappointment] and ate till we got full... met with my uncle and his girlfriend at cafe bola, and went on inside the collesium...

one thing that baffled me was why was mocha chosen as the front act of the event? they can't get the crowd pumped with their songs, and their best reason for being their were their hot bods... they're dance steps sucked, their songs sucked, even their wardrobe sucked, so i'm not surprised if they sucked to get that gig (ooohhh... sorry underaged readers)... anyway, after the 5 songs that seemed forever, and some dance moves from each of the members, they finally stepped off the stage... people were clapping in anticipation, and even the voice over was saying "relax, it will come"... and when they came, it was fun to watch.. the three singers were dancing in the dark while the band was setting up... when the lights turned on, they turned around and sang songs i didn't know but surely i appreciated... their dance moves were, as i described it, for oldies... simple steps, not too flashy, but really fun or funny to watch... important thing is that they were really trying to get the crowd pumped and entertained... me and my girlfriend decided to bet on what their last song could be... i gave her the chance to go first. she said it would be "september"... then i was stumped. that was the song that came to my mind too. so for the sake of the bet, i said i'll go with "let's groove tonight"...

now, on with the concert..their jazzman was really great... he's an old guy but man, can he play that jazz... it was amazing what he did... and this long-haired singer had a voice incomparable to anything i've ever heard... it's like, you tune your guitar with another guitar, right? in his case, you tune the jazz to his voice... however high the jazz went, he could reach it effortlessly... and he can sing in a low voice too, and he does so effortlessly just the same.... it was great... first song we recognized was also the first slow song they sang: after the love has gone... then they followed it up with reasons, or whatever the title of that song was... then some crowd playing, eventually singing some other songs before they sang september.. and that was the point where everyone was off their feet, and my girlfriend kept hitting me on the arm claiming victory on our bet... so after the song, they said thanks and lights turned dim and all of them left the stage and that was it...

but people know better... they missed two hits, ellaine[uncle's gf] said: let's groove tonight and boogie wonderland[which i didn't know they sang originally. i just heard it in happy feet]... so they chanted "more!!"... and the voice over played it even more, and eventually they came back one by one for an encore.. they let this old guy, the lead guitarist, i think, introduce all the other members on stage... each had a solo upon introduction... then the long haired guy introduced the guy who made all the introductions... as it turns out, he was one of the founding members of the original band, among other things he has accomplished... and then they played another dance tune, then boogie wonderland, then another song, and they ended the night with "let's groove tonight"... it was great, crowd was dancing, and to think more than half of the people in araneta were old people... it was really fun to watch....

and i won our bet...:p though we didn't bet on anything. so it seems like an open bet, help me out, what could i ask for?? haha...

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so another day in the office... it's freaking slow... i'm thinking with this work, you have a lot of deadlines on one day, and after doing around 3 jobs simutaneously on that one day, you'd have nothing left to do the rest of the days... it's 3pm now... for the whole day, all i've done as work is scan a catalog and crop images in that catalog... what i've been doing to pass time? reading nba analysis and scores, making a paper for my college "dad" about the zte-nbn probe, playing nfs on my psp, listened to good times in magic when it was still on, played bubble breaker on my cellphone, slept, and made this blog... it's freaking boring... i'm in no position to complain... it's like i'm getting paid for doing nothing, but man, sometimes i wanna give back, you know... let them get their money's worth...

and to think i have another 4 months with this work... man... i hope things pick up... this is boring the hell out of me... 

...of wiretapping, home visits, and misunderstandings...

We've got reasons to believe that our phones are tapped. It may just be paranoia, but sometimes, they just do some wrong shit that give us reason to believe that it's not just paranoia. They're really obvious sometimes because while you're in the middle of a conversation, you'd either get to hear voices murmuring, or hear beeps every now and then, or even you voice echoing for some reason. Because of being obvious, we thought the people tapping our lines were stupid. But what do you know, there are more stupid people than they are:

My sis has a classmate back in college whom she got together with last weekend. That classmate of hers has an older brother who works for DZBB I think, but I'm sure he's from the media. He was the one who my sis got in touch with when Uncle Jun landed from Hong Kong. Anyway, so he was talking over the phone with someone, and he somehow had a feeling someone was listening. After he put the phone down, it rang.

Bro: Hello?

Person: Uh, Hello?

Bro: Sino to?

Person: Ay, mali.. Ah, wala po, security agency. >>click<<

 

Stupid freak. I'm imagining him in a Pugad Baboy cartoon, slapping his forehead as soon as he put the phone down.

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Visited Robert in Muntinlupa for his birthday. And food didn't disappoint. I normally eat my heart out, but that day, my heart told me my body couldn't take it anymore. New food being served every hour and man, they were all so yummy. No beer, just Smirnoff. No brandy, just Green Label. What a treat.

Last time we visited was Feb 3. I remember clearly because Uncle Jun arrived on the 4th. Now, its been exactly a month after the whole thing with him broke, and comic discussions of current events didn't escape my classmates, most of whom are always present during events...

Robert's doing fine, lost a lot of weight (50lbs. in 2 months!) and needs to lose more (25lbs) for him to be "fit". But he can still read minds and would make others believe that we can actually communicate telepathically. haha...

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First my classmate, then my cousin. Classmate's fine, I could live without him. We've went our separate ways after our diplomas were handed out, not like we were walking hand in hand during our college days. But then again, I felt I needed to make myself heard. Approach seemingly was what was wrong with that mess, but I think that's over with, in a good way or in a bad way, I couldn't really care any less now, I think he feels the same way.

Then my cousin got a verbal bashing from my aunt. I guess it was because of me. The elders are telling me that what I did was right, but I thought how they did what they did was wrong. I relayed something my cousin said which pissed me off. Then it pissed them off too. Then they bashed her with everything they had on her, even going back to the past and stuff. It wasn't easy hearing an uncle telling her off right in front of you. Though it was through a cellphone, I could hear her crying. And that wasn't easy. The elders tried to patch us up last night, but I don't think they had much success. She still isn't talking to me, though she's saying "wala na un"...

For both cases though, I know I did something wrong. But stubborn as I am, I will maintain that I never made mistakes in my life. I just made bad decisions. At the time I made my decision, it was the right thing to do. After seeing the effects of it, then I would concede that what happened was wrong. But then again, it wasn't a mistake at the time. Looking back, it's just a bad decision. Something that teaches me a thing or two, but wouldn't be a burden all my life, kicking myself thinking I was wrong. Should both of them choose never to speak to me again, its their choice. I extended a hand and conceded fault. If that is not enough, then so be it. I'll just have to try not to make the same "bad decision" with others in the future...

..."Ramdam ko ang asenso!"...

...sabi ng commercial. Lumalakas ang piso. Dumarami ang mga trabaho. Oo nga ata, umaasenso nga ata ang buhay!

Pero bakit ako mismo di ko nararamdaman?

May kotse sa bahay, ayokong gamitin, kasi ang mahal sa gas. Kahit un Volkswagen Beetle na dapat eh napakatipid eh kailangan kong kargahan ng 500 para lang mabisita ko ang girlfriend ko sa UST at ihatid siya sa Pasig bago ako umuwi sa Cainta. Dati kahit panu, 2 araw tinatagal ng 500. Ngayon, isang gamitan, boom. 500 pesos. Kung itinatae lang ang pera, ok lang sana. Ganun ba ang asenso? 

Unang trabaho ko, call center. 16K kaso graveyard shift. 1 day processing lang. Marami nga atang trabaho para sa mamamayan. Naisip ko makalipas ang ilang buwan, ayoko na. Hindi iyon ang pinangarap kong gawin sa buhay ko. Iniwan ko ang trabaho at ang pagkakataong makapag-ipon. Marami namang trabaho dyan eh. Pero makalipas ang dalawang buwan, ayun pa rin ako, nakatengga sa bahay at nag-uubos ng perang kinita sa call center. Ang unang trabahong nagbigay sa kin ng pagkakataon eh tinanggap ko na agad kahit na tila call center pa rin un. ok na kesa patuloy na maging pabigat sa bahay. Nakakainis lang kasi tila nawawalan na ng saysay ang pag-aaral ko. Graduate naman ako, pero un supervisor ko nagstop ata 3rd year college. Hindi naman sa minamaliit ko ang kakayahan ng mga hindi naka-graduate. Ang akin lang, sana pala eh di na rin ako nag-aral at nag-call center na lang. Baka supervisor na rin ako ngayon. Iyon ba ang asenso?

Sa usapang trabaho rin, nakita ko ang payslip ko pag may trabaho ako. Parating mei "deduction" ang tax, Pag-ibig, at kung anu anu pa. HIndi ko maintindihan bakit ganun, nagbabayad naman pala ako ng tax, parte rin pala ko ng nagpapasweldo sa gobyerno, pero bakit kailangan akong kotongan pa ng pulis? Di pa ba sapat na nababawasan na ang sweldo naming mga nagtatrabahong mamamayan para maswelduhan sila para kami pa mismo eh kotongan nila sa mga walang kwentang kadahilanan? Minsan, sa Cubao, galing Aurora, 10.30 ng gabi. Gusto ko sa EDSA dumaan. Nakakita ako ng MMDA. Dahil lang nirerespeto ko ang uniporme ng awtoridad, tumigil ako para tanungin kung pwedeng lumiko, dahil may kotseng nauna sa kin na pinatigil niya at maya maya'y pinatuloy din. Hiningi nito ang lisensya ko, at sinabing swerving daw ako. Sabi ko sinusundan ko un kotseng nasa harap ko. Bakit kako pinadaan nya iyon. Ang dahilan na lang nya sa kin "Sir, kasi gobyerno po yun eh, wala tayong magagawa dun". Tapos ako eh hiningan nya ng 200. Bakit ako nababawasan sa sweldo ko? Para mei maisweldo sa mga taong tulad nito? Pinapahirapan ko lang pala ang mga kababayan ko dahil nagtatrabaho ako at binabawasan ng tax. Pasensya na po, pero ganito ba talaga pag umaasenso ang buhay?

Ilang beses ko nang naririnig sa balita na sinasabi ng presidente na dahil daw sa "stability" ng kanyang gobyerno ay lumalakas ang ekonomiya, lumalakas ang piso. Pero kagabi lang,  napanood ko sa balita na tataas ang mga bilihin: karne, isda, gulay, kahit de lata ay magtataas na, at ang sinabi ng pinuno ng departamentong ito ay wala daw tayong magagawa. Di ba pag lumalakas ang piso ibig sabihin mararamdaman nating kahit paano eh gumagaan ang buhay? Yun tipong sa piso mo eh makakabili ka na ng 2 Tarzan na bubble gum? Kung lumalakas ang piso, bakit tumataas yun mga bilihin? Ganito ba umasenso?

Sa usaping ekonomiya rin, bakit ang presidente ang umaangkin ng papuri sa pagdami ng trabaho at "paglakas ng piso"? Wala naman akong nakikitang trabahong handog ng presidente bukod sa street sweepers. Puro call center, puro dayuhan ang nagbibigay ng trabaho sa mga naghahanap. Ang pag-asenso ba, ibig sabihin ay ipapaangkin mo sa dayuhan ang kalahati ng bansa mo? Sa paglakas naman ng piso, hindi ba't dahil sobrang daming nadidismaya sa bansa at naghanap ng trabaho sa ibang bansa kaya lumalakas ang piso? Di ba't lumalakas ang piso dahil sa OFW remmitances? Pero bakit ganun, tulad nga ng sinabi ko, kung lumalakas ang piso, bakit kailangan pang magdusa tayo lalo? Dahil kaya dito: http://www.bworldonline.com/Research/populareconomics.php?id=0073 ??

Sa tuwing manonood ako ng sine, o kaya sa kalagitnaan ng panonood ko ng PBA minsan, sinisingit ng gobyerno ito. "Ramdam ko ang asenso!" Mga regular na tao, nagsasabing nararamdaman nila ang asenso. Naalala ko, regular din naman akong tao ah. Bakit di ko masabi ito? Magkaiba kaya kami ng depinisyon sa "asenso"? Kung ang asenso pala ay ganito, ayoko na. Gusot ko na lang maghirap. Baka mas gumanda pa ang buhay.

...Mar16 game cancelled...

game cancelled. ateneo pulled out. --> my words.

game moved to indefinite date. ateneo asked for a postponment. --> what they want me to say.

last monday, an uncle of mine was told by his atenean(alum) friend that there is an email circulating around the ateneo alumni not to support the event. last tuesday, an aunt who regularly coordinated with mr. palou of the ateneo regarding the event saw him talking with two people. she approached hem, introducing himself as a sister of jun lozada, and these two people left with a certain look on their faces. mr. palou likewise had a different aura when she was talking to him. yesterday(wednesday), they asked me to stop selling tickets.

you do the math.

bro. bernie of dlsu is still trying to make the event happen. however, as a family, we decided not to be the main proponents anymore. "it was supposed to be just a fun game" was how my aunt put it. and now, they put political crap on it. with a tainted cause, we don't think it is proper to push through with it. it might still happen, but with all the crappy reasons ateneo is giving, we no longer want to deal with it personally. i don't condemn ateneo as an institution. i condemn the small, but powerful group of the alumni which protects the likes of FG, gaite, joker arroyo, etc... they make the respectable institution look bad.